"Thou Art All That Is LOveLy"

Shimmering Flora, that's what it is

2009-03-13T15:21:00.001+08:00

Can't wait to see it completed!

Time to move

2009-02-13T16:46:00.005+08:00

I'm moving to a new "house". It's http://a-drama-mama.blogspot.com/ . Please visit my new blog for updates. Thanks everyone.

The Long- Awaited Gift

2009-02-12T21:34:00.010+08:00

Upon request from Kak Rina, I'm putting up the pic of my very very verrrryy belated birthday present.

Before that, let me tell u just a short fairy tale regarding this. Mula2 dulu Mr. Hubby said that he'd get me an iPhone for my birthday, becoz my old phone malfunction (susu Irfan asyik tumpah ja dalam fon sampai rosak grrr) and I had to borrow my bro's phone. So he decided on iPhone because at that short period of time, I was drooling over the Macbook. Nak get a Macbook sooo not within our budget, so he decided on iPhone.

Since my sister is currently in Houston, he ordered the phone from her but we had to wait until mid January when her friend would be going over and thus could bring ti back for us. So I waited not-so-patiently lah for the day to come. But then early Jan when we checked again with kakak, some complication arised and she coudn't get it for us. Hubby decided, to get iPhone from here is so not worth it, so we'd go for other brand. Kakak did suggest Blackberry Storm (cantekkk) but it was not within our budget.

So after scouting and scouting around for a few weeks, I decided on this lil black number. It's not as stunning as the Blackberry or iPhone, but I love it. Thank you so much googly! :-D

Yeah it's Sony Ericsson. I used to be a big fan of Nokia, but since we're boycotting, terpaksa change to something else (Nokia is like one of the biggest contributor!if u haven't heard, so Mr. Nokia, eat your heart out!)

and it comes with this cute card reader, suka!

What I like about this phone aside from the slide design, is that it has an 8.1 mega pix camera (auto focus and xenon flash), that's good enough for a non-profesional photographer like me. And it has a sensor motion function, not forgetting the 'GPS to find your way' ahaks..Downside is, the sound is not as nice as the Walkman phone, but I can live with it.

So cayang, please don't put high expectation for your birthday gift plak k. Saya ni mana ada duit. Huhuhu.. (Yeah! yeah! I'm a bad wifey, so sue me). :-p
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Some pix taken with the phone camera :

Irfan's newfound hobby is to point his fingers at EVERYTHING

Irfan in Mei-Tai while abah enjoying his taukua rendang

Having fun at the garden with maktok

Dinner at Bagan

2009-02-12T13:22:00.021+08:00

Early this week, hubby's big boss came down to Penang, all the way from China. It was a big deal to all of them, as they'll go through meetings, reviews, team building and such - finally FACE TO FACE, when all these while correspondance had been through video conference. Anyway, to celebrate Roger coming down, on Thursday night they organized a dinner at Bagan. Theme is - beach night.

Let me first, give a little background on this place :

A bungalow along Jalan Bagan Jermal was chosen to house BAGAN. A place where one can unwind to impress and to rendezvous in an ambience of class and style. Bagan provides a spacious lounge, dining area, with a capacity of 100 pax. The physical layout of BAGAN was constructed in such a unique setting that a whole evening can be spent here. In such, diners can savour their favourite wine or drink from the extensive wine and drink list. Snacks are a plenty in choice for those who want a drink and have a light eat before dinner. For dinner, proceed to the dining area and experience the mouth watering dishes painstakingly prepared by our chefs. For the romantic, private dining is available upon reservation. For after dinner drinks, diners and drinkers have a choice to sit back and enjoy latin, jazz, retro and easy listening songs or proceed to the lounge which is equipped with a pool table. Here, those who enjoy a cigar with their wine as well as those who love to nibble on cheese while they enjoy their wine can do so with sheer indulgence due to the choice that is available.

(Taken from their webpage)

Anyway, Mr Hubby has a friend who's involve in the snake-show business. Hayat is his name and apparently Hayat is quite good in it that he gets to sign contract with a few hotels around Penang to do shows with them. Mr. Hubby did accompanied him on a few occasions and he said Hayat and his snakes would sure catch anyone's attention wherever they go. So let's see this guy in action :

Hayat and snake

Aik??Suami sapa taktau?? *lol*

Boss kecik - Mr. Amin : isk isk matching pulak seluar dan ular

The big bosses - from left Sai Khun, Roger Lin (China boss) and Soon Tat

Beraninya minah ni kan?kan?

I think my husband should've won the best dress category (sadly they didn't have one) as he's the only one I see wearing a beach-like costume. Siap berkobar-kobar shop for the shirt and seluar geli-geli (his fav) okey! The rest, pakai jeans and T-Shirt ja pun. Anyway, he got a gift for best driven / performance something-something lah. What did he get? A Samsung DVD Player. Just a simple one. So our old Philips bole la send to mak's house since hers is broken. :-D

Mr. Hubby came back quite late that night, at almost 12! I'm sure when they put up the pics in Facebook later, he'd comment on it : "Foodwise, I've tasted better, but it was a night full of FUN!" :-p

P/S : If anyone interested to book Hayat and his snake to perform, u can call him at 016-4753279. Please note that I'm not being paid to do this okey.

Boycott and Cosway

2009-02-11T11:02:00.003+08:00

We've taken our first step in changing the household products that directly contribute to Israel. We now use Cosway, the detergents and cleaners are pretty good if u ask me. My bathrooms are now cleaner than it used to be. I'd say, it's spotless now, and I dun even have to scrub like crazy. The product works wonder on tough stain.

Luckily, we made decision to boycott, coz it led us to switch to the value-for-money product. Save money and energy keh!*wink*wink* After this, we'd be getting the water filter plak insyaAllah. Just waiting until after renovation.

Anyone nak register as cosway member, or even if you wanna buy products (those in Penang area) can contact me at 019-4705286. Have a bless day!

Just a lil something for my bro in law

2009-02-07T01:50:00.008+08:00

While I was in Langkawi, I got him wedding favours for the main table. Just a little something to add in the pwetty paper bag we bought the other day.

Ini rupa setelah di accesorized oleh moi and hubby

P/S : His wedding is in May this year. I haven't even start on the hantaran yet. Sigh... procrastination, please go away!

Being makcik - makcik

2009-02-07T00:44:00.018+08:00

This post is especially for puan - puan sekalian yang tahu betapa heavennya bila dapat shopping the pinggan mangkuks at Langkawi. They're cheaper than here, and they've got like so many pwetty pwetty choices that you'd end up buying the whole shops if your husband doesn't exercise control over you. Hahaha..

Here goes, among the things that I got for us (dengar tu Mr. hubby, not for me okeh, it's for our little family :-p)

Si lima beradik yang sangat gorgeous

Sweet tak the flowers?

My main aim was to get the Coningware / Correll set, but since I completed my shopping in the first day of arriving there..I had to shop for other things as well don't I? If not, I would've been bored to death doing nothing while the others sibuk bershopping. So these desert bowls are among other things that I managed to rembat. :-p

Other than these, I also bought the cutlery sets, chocolates, photo frames, jewelery box and banyak lagi lah. Malas nak list out the details.

But shopping wasn't the only thing that we did in Langkawi. Sight-seeing is of course, a must once you are there. We went to Makan Mahsuri, Tanjung Rhu, Cultural Complex, Teluk Ayaq Hangat (?) and few other places. The young(?) ladies went to look/shop for baju at every stop we made. Me - after joining the makcik-makcik group shopping for those things above - restrained myself from spending unnecessary amount of money on the baju.

We had so much fun in Langkawi though Irfan was being quite cranky - most prolly coz of the new surrounding and being with seldom-met aunties and tok-tok sekalian.

Thanks Ayu for inviting us to join the trip, next time bole book lagi apartment tu okeh. It's excellent..K.Yah bagi 4 stars! And thanks Cha for belanja-ing the ferry fare, terima kasih daun keladi :-D

BabyIbu Giveaway: Win Gin & Jacqie Baby Bag

2009-02-06T09:57:00.020+08:00

Yes, I've tried this before but SADLY I wasn't among the lucky ones who got to win their funky stylo milo handbags. Come to think of it, I've never won anything in this kinda contest before. Thus, I'm putting soooo much hope to win this bag just because I've been drooling over that sleek number ever since I set my eyes on it.

Anyway, this contest is organized by babyibu blog, a useful and informative blog especially for mothers to share thoughts on pregnancy, motherhood, babies and things related. I've been an ardent (silent) reader of this blog for quite sometime as it provided useful tips in handling my baby. Trust me, a first time mum such as myself NEED this kinda informations so we could educate ourselves on the Do's and Dont's related to our babies. And the best thing is, this is a webbie from our own country Malaysia, hence almost all the informations in there are closely related to our daily lives.

Back to the contest, Gin & Jacqie has been kind enough to sponsor the alluring price for 3 lucky winners :

Look at those gorgeous design. I'm so proud to have our very own, who can design such fabulous looking bags!

Just a little background review of the company, Gin & Jacqie™ is a line of bags created by avid traveller and reluctant girl-on-the-go Jacqueline Ng. In her search for functional everyday bags that are practical and stylish but do not cost a bomb; Jacqie discovered a niche in the market and decided to develop her own line of such bags.

Gin & Jacqie™ bags are created for centred people who value items which are fashionable yet functional, and it was made to be timeless and evergreen, to be as relevant today as they will be tomorrow.

So now, which one of these beautiful bags that I have my eyes on?

The Stylish Elaine looks so sleek and sophisticated yet funky enough for hot-mama-wannabe like me.

Having a baby, it's kinda tough to look your best all the time. Dressing up and maintain the look for an evening out with husband or friends is not an easy task to do. Sometimes I find my blouse gets stuck with baby's biscuit or my shawl went haywire. Thus, I have high confidence that accesorising my look with this bag would make me look hot even after a tornado hit me. *wink*wink*oh I want this bag so very very bad!*

Just some of the reasons why I would love to win this bag :

- It's light weight and easy to care for baby bag.
- Its so stylish that no one will know it's a baby bag!
- It has all the functions that makes a baby bag, an excellent one :
zipper top opening, two exterior pocket with drawstrings, customised printed twill dots for lining, three interior compartments, interior keychain holder for keys or small pouches, additional interior compartments for handphone and other items (very very useful not only for mama but but abah as well), one interior zipper pocket, roll up wipeable change mat that can be cleaned easily (very useful esp when you are on the go), two interior hooks to hook bag onto stroller

I just love the polka dot interiors, it looks fun and funky. Irfan would love to climb in and play inside the bag *lol*

Oh! Look at that. I could fit Irfan's whole wardrobe in it, and I'd still look sexy carrying it. It's a gRrreat bag, enough said.

So all the ladies and hot mama out there, what are you waiting for? If you want to win a free bag enter this contest; which have started on the 1st Februari 2009 and it'll end on the 1st Mac 2009.

Till then, cheerios ~ ~ ~

My SnuggMT y'all!

2009-02-03T13:16:00.003+08:00

After so long, finally.... presenting my SnuggMT.

Acute bronchitis

2009-02-02T13:20:00.003+08:00

Irfan is still sick. He's got acute bronchitis. His coughing is getting worse, phlegm still banyak. It's pretty sad to see him coughing hard and cried because he couldn't take it. Pity my boy.

And now I got infected too, sore throat, phlegm and flu. Last night all of us were so tired and worn out, we only woke up OCE to feed Irfan. He plak didn't cry his heart out like he used to, just merengek2 a bit so a couple of times we just kinda ignored his rengekan. Hehe bad parents we are.

Anyway, his paed at Hope Children Specialist said if he doesn't get better in 2 days time, we're gonna have to go and do the nebulizer. I hope for everyone's sake that he'll get well soon.

Mak said today he is still clingy. Just now she went to the loo and no one else was around. She left him and he was really screaming and crying. Then after she was done and picked him up, Irfan hugged her so tight, macam tak mau let go. Manja tau!

Btw, I already got the Langkawi pics in my notebook..but haven't got the chance to post it in here. Will do it soon I hope.

Of Fever and Langkawi Trip

2009-01-28T16:27:00.003+08:00

Kesian Irfan, demam and sore throat. Phlegm, runny nose. He's being extra clingy today, pagi2 nangis and nak mama dukung. Just now mama and abah fetched him from maktok's house and brought him to the clinic, he was sleeping but once he saw his abah, his eyes were wide open. Smiling and clapping his hands.

However, we can see that he's kinda tired. Even mak said that he only crawled half way to the kitchen when she went to the bathroom this morning. Usually he would crawled all the way to the bathroom door and bang on it until she opens up.

This morning mak suap the porridge I made for him. He ate it but after that he throw up, so we have to stop giving him anything besides milk for a while lah. If he keeps on throwing up I'm afraid it would hurt him, kecian plak.

Apala Irfan, dah best2 enjoy kat Langkawi, now sakit2 plak. Takpa..next time we go for a holiday you'd be stronger coz now u r getting used to it dah kan. First time sakit la sikit kan. :-D

On to the holiday story, I'm quite satisfied with the trip. Banyak yang telah diborong. :-D Will post bout it in another entry.

Now, I better go and catch up with the mounting works.

Irfan

2009-01-23T13:52:00.004+08:00

Irfan is 10 months old now. Last nite at Tesco, Amin was saying to him "Anak abah dah besaq"..and tetiba I became nostalgic. 2 more months and my son will turn 1 year old. I enjoyed the past 10 months with him, eventho at times I wish I could be with him alllll the time. But what I have with him now is special and enough to make me feel complete. I love my son. I won't trade him with anything or anyone in this whole wide world...

Anyway...Irfan's milestone since 7-10 months :

- Stand up on his own
- Now he's trying to stand without holding on to anything. Bravo dearie! Tho some people sibuk saying that ..slownya, dah 10 months takleh jalan lagi...anak dia tu anak dia ni 9 bulan dah jalan - to heck with u guys, dun u know that EVERY child develops at his/her own rate? tak belajar ka?
- Clap hands
- Wave goodbye
- Eats A LOT...so far I've started him on cheese and fishes besides veggy, and he LOVES IT! esp cheese (at 9 months plus)
- Throw his bottles and pacifiers when he's mad (maktok kata ikut mama!). Nasib la kan kena kepala siapa..hehe
- Shake his head No!No!No!
- Cheeky smile..imitate everything we do like sneeze, cough, shhhh (this one trying to imitate but tak reti haha)
- When alone with maktok, she'd call out "Elephant!Come take Irfan, Irfan dun wanna sleep", and he'd quickly crawled up to her and sleep on her tummy, konon takut la.haha
- Pandai berlakon..when ppl get mad at him, dia buat2 nangis. No tears whatsoever. Nangis pun suara gatal..haha
- Likes to dance (mama will scold him when he do this)
- 8 batang gigi, he loves munching his food now..god boy :-D

A LOT of other things but since time is limited, I can't list everything down here. I'm so happy that I have the chance to go through all all these developments with my sweetie pie, and it's very very fulfilling to see your child grows in front of your eyes.

But sayang mama, please dun grow up too fast k! Mwahs.

P/S : Will be off to Langkawi tomorrow. Will update about that when I get back. Till then, HAPPY HOLIDAY peeps!

Signs of A Bad Babysitter

2009-01-22T13:29:00.002+08:00

It's not always easy to know whether your child's caregiver is doing the job she's supposed to. To find out, you may have to do some sleuthing. Some parents who suspect something may be amiss rent surveillance equipment. But it's often possible to tell whether something's wrong without going to that extreme.

You may have trouble on your hands if:

• Your baby isn't happy to see the sitter and has become anxious and withdrawn.
A regular caregiver can never replace Mom or Dad, but a baby needs to trust and love his babysitter. Perhaps your child and caregiver haven't bonded, or the babysitter just isn't providing the kind of warmth and comfort your child needs. As in every human relationship, having the right chemistry is important. (If you suspect something more serious is wrong, educate yourself about the signs of child abuse.)

• Your babysitter seems secretive about how they spent the day.
How your baby and his caregiver spend their time shouldn't be a secret. When you come home, you're probably eager to hear about your child and what happened while you were apart. If your caregiver isn't forthcoming about it, either she's not good at communicating with you or she has something to hide. Even a caregiver whose English is limited should be able to convey the ups and downs of your baby's day, and will understand why you want to know.

• Your baby has been in one too many easily avoidable accidents.
A babysitter must keep her eye on your child and know what he's doing at all times to prevent injury. She may be leaving your child unattended as he sleeps or plays.

• You notice your requests aren't followed.
Both of you are working together to care for your child, so a caregiver shouldn't act as if she knows more about him and childrearing than you do.

• Your babysitter often shows up late.
An undependable caregiver will leave you in the lurch time and time again. Find someone who you know is committed to the job and considerate of your needs. Tardiness and unexplained absences may mean she's unreliable in other ways as well.• Your baby often looks unkempt and dirty. If your little one's caregiver can't take care of the basics, it may be a sign that she's not on the ball when it comes to meeting your child's needs.

• Her stories don't add up. Never tolerate someone who steals, lies, or deceives you in any way. You have to be able to trust your caregiver for the relationship to work.

(Source : babycenter.com)

Palestinian War : Israel Bar Code

2009-01-21T14:19:00.000+08:00

A "Bar code" is a number that tags any product, and you will find it at any pack written with Bars plus numbers (bars are detected and translated into same number, for example on a super market, chasier uses bar code to detect info) ...
A bar code starting with 729" indicates that this product is made in Israel
Please engrave this no, # 729, in your mind, your children's, and everyone
you can.

Israeli product carry the unique code starting with # 729
Most of the products have a bar code to identify them.
729 Israeli Bar Code Association - EAN Israel

Palestinian War : Products to Boycott

2009-01-18T17:19:00.006+08:00

So this list was taken from an email forwarded to me by a friend :

SYARIKAT: Phillip Morris
PRODUK : Rokok dan Makanan Jenama : Marlboro, Virginia Slims, Benson & Hedges, Winston, Gold Coast, Merit, Parliament, Alpine, Basic, Cambridge, Bristol, Bucks, Chesterfield, Collector's Choice, Commander, English Ovals, Lark, L&M, Players and Saratoga, C? e d'Or, Philadelphia, Polo, Milka, Malabar, Marabou, Prince
FAKTA : 12 % keuntungannya adalah untuk Israel, setiap hari umat Islam membelanjakan USD 800 juta untuk membeli rokok mereka, keuntungan purata 10% atau USD80 juta sehari.
JADI USD 9.6 JUTA DUIT ORANG ISLAM PERGI KE ISRAEL SETIAP HARI

SYARIKAT : Coca-Cola - McDonalds - Burger King - Pizza Hut ?KFC
PRODUK : Minuman Jenama : Light Coke, Fanta, Sprite, Canada Dry, Crush, Schweppes, Minute Maid, Nestea, Dr. Pepper
FAKTA : Sejak 1966 Coca Cola meyokong penuh negara Israel. Coca Cola telah menerima anugerah tertinggi dari kerajaan Israel kerana lebih 30 tahun menyokong mereka serta membantah boikot Liga Arab terhadap Israel.

SYARIKAT : Nestle
JENAMA : Kit Kat, Perrier, Libby, Nescafe, Maggie, Buitoni, Nestea, Freskies, Vittel, Pure Life, Nido, Smarties, Lion, Polo, After Eight, Coffee Mate, Nesquik, Aero, Quality Street, Felix (cat food), Crosse & Blackwell, Milkmaid, Carnation, Shreddies, Baci Baby Ruth, Butterfinger, Milkybar, Frutips
FAKTA: Syarikat Swiss ini dimilikki 50.1% oleh syarikat Israel, Osem Investments. Pada tahun 2000 mengumumkan untuk melabur berjuta-juta dolar di Israel dalam R & D. Pada tahun Peter Brabeck-Letmathe bagi pihak Nestle menerima Anugerah Jubli daripada Perdana Menteri Netanyahu.

SYARIKAT : Disney Produk : Disneyland, Euro-Disney, Jenama Disney, Kartun, Filem
FAKTA : Pameran Walt Disney Millennium di Epcot Centre Florida menonjolkan Jerusalem sebagai ibu negara Israel. Kos US 8 juta untuk pameran ini dibiayai US1.8 juta oleh Israel untuk menentukan isi kandungan pameran. Ini adalah kempen Israel menggunakan Disneyland untuk menguasai Jerusalem sepenuhnya.

SYARIKAT : Delta Galil Industries Ltd.
PRODUK : Pasaraya, Pakaian dan Kasut
JENAMA : JC Penney , Carrefour Nike, Reebok, Converse, Calvin Klein, Gap, Boss, Ralph Lauren, Banana Republic, Bauer, Wrangler, Dim, Old Navy, Dockers, Celio, J. Crew , Caterpillar, Lou Riders, Pryca
FAKTA : Syarikat kain terbesar Israel. Pengasasnya Dov Lautman adalah kenalan rapat Presiden Israel ketika itu Ehud Barak.

SYARIKAT: Nokia Produk : Telekomunikasi, talipon bimbit dan elektronik FAKTA : Nokia melabur begitu banyak di Israel dan memanggilnya PROJEK ISRAEL.

SYARIKAT: Danone
PRODUK: Makanan, minuman dan biskut
JENAMA : Evian, Alpina, LU Biscuits, Tuc, Volvic, Strauss dairy, Jacob biscuits, Danone yogart, HP foods, LEA & PERRINS, Sant? Galbani, Danao, Danette Fakta : Pada tahun 1998 Franck Riboud bagi pihak Danone menerima Anugerah Jubli daripada Perdana Menteri Israel, Netanyahu. Anugerah tertinggi negara Israel untuk syarikat yang memperkukuhkan ekonomi Israel. Institut Danone, satu institut Penyelidikan dan Pembangunan telah di tubuhkan di Israel pada tahun1998.

SYARIKAT : Johnson & Johnson
PRODUK : Kesihatan.
FAKTA : Pada tahun 1998 Roger S. Fineon bagi pihak Johnson & Johnson, menerima Anugerah Jubli daripada Perdana Menteri Israel Netanyahu.

SYARIKAT: Revlon
PRODUK: Kosmetik
FAKTA : Jutawan Ronald Perelman yang memilikki Revlaon adalah seorang Zionis.. Penyokong kuat Zionis Merupakan pemegang amanah Pusat Simon Wiesenthal Center yang menggunakan Holocaust untuk mendapatkan sokongan Zionisma dan Israel.

SYARIKAT : AOL Time Warner
PRODUK : Media Elektronik dan Cetak
JENAMA : ICQ, Warner Bros, CNN, AOL, Times magazine
FAKTA : AOL memperuntukkan 30% daripada portfolio keuntungan di Israel. Pada tahun 1998 AOL menerima anugerah Jubli daripada Perdana Menteri Netanyahu.

SYARIKAT : IBM
FAKTA : Mempunyai 1700 pekerja di Israel. Satu dari 3 syarikat yang disanjung semasa Jamuan Makan Malam Liga Persahabatan Amerika-Israel Untuk Demokrasi pada 25 Jun 2001 bersama Ariel Sharon.

SYARIKAT : L'Oreal
JENAMA : Giorgio Armani, Lancome, Biotherm, Garnier, Helena Rubinstein, Donna Karan, Vichy, Cacharel, Maybelline, Redken, La roche-posay, Carson Fakta : Setelah disaman US 1.4 juta kerana menulis surat pada Liga Arab bahawa mereka menutup kilang di Israel, mereka kemudian malbur dengan begitu banyak di Israel. Kongres Yahudi Amerika amat berpuas hati dengan L? real dan menganggap mereka sahabat akrab.

SYARIKAT : Intel
PRODUK : Perkakasan komputer
FAKTA : Intel adalah penyokong kuat Israel. Pusat pembangunan pertama di luar Amerika didirikan di Haifa pada 1974..

SYARIKAT : Est? Lauder
JENAMA : Clinique, Tommy Hilfiger, DKNY, Aramis, Origins, Ko Malone, La Mer, Prescriptives, Bobbi Brown Essentials, Aveda, Jane, MAC Cosmetics, Kate Spade, Fragrances, Stila
FAKTA : Pengerusinya, Ronald Lauder, pernah menjadi pengerusi Persidangan Utama Kesatuan Amerika Yahudi. Juga adalah presiden Tabung Kebangsaan Yahudi yang fungsinya ialah untuk menghalalkan pengambilan tanah rakyat Palestin oleh Israel.

SYARIKAT: News Corporation
PRODUK : 20th Century Fox, Star, SKY, New York Post, National Geographic Channel, News of the World, The Times, The Sun, Nursery World, The weekly Standard, Daily Telegraph, Harper Collins Fakta : Murdoch's New Corp. melabur dengan begitu banyak di Israel..

SYARIKAT: Kimberly-Clark
PRODUK: Huggies, Kotex, Kleenex, Scott, ANDREX products Freedom, Scottex
FAKTA : Pada tahun 1998 Robert P. Van der Merwe , Pengerusi Kimberly Clark , menerima Anugerah Jubli daripada Perdana Menteri Israel Netanyahu, kerana sumbangan mereka dalam membangunkan ekonomi Israel.

LAIN-LAIN SYARIKAT
SYARIKAT : Procter and Gamble
PRODUK : Kesihatan, sabun, syampu
JENAMA : Head & Shoulders, Pert Plus, Pantene, Always, Tide, Crest, Pampers, Lux, Palmolive, Camay, Zest, Ariel, Fairy, Signal 2, close up, colgate, Monsieur Propre, Oil of Olay, Petrol Hahn, Pringles, Sanicroix, Tampax, Tempo, Vicks, Vizir, Yes Swiffer, Ace, Action500, Bonux, Mr Clean

MARS INC - Bounty, M&M's, Mars, Snickers, Twix, Uncle Ben's, Whiskas, Pedigree, Balisto, Brebbies

HASBRO - Parker, Pokemon, Star Wars, Episode I, Monopoly, Brothers, MB, Playskool, Tiger

GILETTE - Braun, Duracell, Gillette, Oral-B, Paper-Mate, Parker, Waterman

COLGATE PALMOLIVE - Ajax, Palmolive, Tahiti, Axion, Bingo, Fabe, Felire, La croix, Mennen, Murphy, Paic

Haagen Dazs, Ben & Jerry, CAMPBELL, Kellogg, Canderel, Levis, Raid Heinz

Related links : http://www.inminds.co.uk/boycott-israel.html

Let's pray that they'll be given hidayah

2009-01-16T11:55:00.004+08:00

Looking back to the past one year of my life, I was brought back to the reality. I had been too busy with my new life as a wife, and then a mother to a cute lil baby; that I had no more time to read benda-benda ilimiah. I actually kinda miss feeding my soul with all those knowledge as I did before I got married.

Furthermore, it's been such a long time that I hadn't properly listened to the long talk/tazkirah by my dad that all of us used to enjoy so much. His talk really can give you insights to perform your duties as a Muslim.

I stumbled upon this blog while bloghopping, and ot got me sad to think that kaum munafik are really adamant in destroying our faith in Islam and Allah. Vulgar words are thrown at our beloved Prophet, and yet what can we do to stop it? When we curse and laknat them, when we defend our views and belief, they would spread fitnah that Quran is asking us to use violence against ppl of other religion.

I used to get so worked up when reading blogs - especially if it is kononnya-Muslim blogs -that potray us as stupid, arrogant and violent bunch. It's frustrating to know that all these murtad people are trying their damnest to turn us into non-Muslim just like them and bad-mouthing (fitnah) their own religion. But come to think of it, maybe they're getting paid to do it by the missionaries and whatnot, who knows kan. So now saya hanya mampu berdoa agar saya dan family / rakan2 dan kaum muslimin muslimat tidak ditempatkan bersama golongan2 sebegitu, and also I pray that Allah will throw hidayah into their heart to see the real truth behind our existance in this world.

*Amidst all these havoc from the Palestinian war, kita patut lebih bersatu hati, bukannya kutuk mengutuk sesama Islam, betul tak?? That's how the Jews got to be so powerful, because they UNITE. So why can't we?

Damn The Israel Laknatullah

2009-01-15T22:28:00.008+08:00

It's like 9.30pm and we just got back home. I'm darn tired, but I need to post this today. I need to post it in here to make it happen, so that I could look back on this particular entry and be reminded to keep my promise.

With what's happening to the Palestinian, I think it's about time that I start to contribute in helping to ease their pain. Sure we could give them money, but we can't be sure that it'll reach them safely, can we? I'm not saying that we shouldn't give derma to them, we should, we really should with a sincere heart; and I do try my very best to do it whenever the opportunities arise. But aside from that, what else can we do? How can we be involve in the jihad against violence towards our own sisters and brothers in Islam?

Earlier this afternoon, I printed out the listing of products that contributes to the Israelis economy and brought it back home (to mak's house). Mak and abah saw the list, and abah gave his long lectures on the mission of Israels to destroy not just the Muslims but the world population and to have total power over us.

Their evil schemes were all revealed in few books such as Pawns in the Games and a few more that abah mentioned earlier; which I couldn't remember now. Shall try to get my hands on the books,as I'm curious to learn of their devilish scheme.

Anyway, InsyaAllah starting today our family will start to boycott products that we know will/are contributing to the economy of the Israel. They are many out there, and some has been used for decades in our household. It might be hard to eliminate the usage of all these products at one go, but we'll try our damnest with hope that one day, we won't be contributing even a single cent to their evil mission in destroying and taking over the Palestinians' land. InsyaAllah..If all of us unite in boycotting their products, there's a big possibility for us to cripple the Israel economy.

So for a start, Mr Hubby and I shall make a list of the current Israelis / American-contributing-to-the-Israelis' products we're using and shall find an alternative products that we could use instead. The list shall be uploaded in here soon.

I must admit that I will miss eating McDs, KFC, Pizza Hut and what not. I would drool looking at all those BabyGap stuff, thinking how good my son will look in it. But it'll be much much more rewarding to know that my small contribution will help in giving justice to the Palestinians. To know that I still have that humanism in me, knowing where and what my priorities are in life. And it'll be very rewarding to know that I've done something in this life, something that will help putting back smiles on those terrified faces, something that will save the lives of many and be rewarded with much better gifts from the Almighty.

So help me God, help me in realizing our modest 'mission' to save the Muslims in Palestine.

P/s : Ami, nampaknya no Bobby Brown for me lah. Uwaaaa!!Alangkah sedihnya saya manakala gembiralah suami saya kerana wang tidak lagi akan disia-siakan begitu saja :-p

A little something for us

2009-01-08T12:45:00.005+08:00

I'll be a proud owner of this :

When? Let's just hope it's today. :-D

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It has arrived! I can't wait to go back and carry my little bundle in it. Thanks Liza for the good service and fast delivery. Na na na na na na.. On a different note, my red pouch I left at Jakel has not arrived. The guy said he posted it but why is it taking soooo long? And he isn't answering my calls / sms-es. Did he not post it? Hubby told me to let go and even said he'd get me a new one, but I DON'T WANT. That's my first sling ever, it's precious to me (Eventho it's the wrong size). And...ooops...wait a minute. The guy just sms-ed me, he said I'll receive it tomorrow. Let's cross our fingers then that it WILL arrive tomorrow.

Let's all Say No to...

2009-01-08T09:31:00.009+08:00

I'm saying a BIG No!No to McDonalds for now. The ridiculously increased price for prosperity...what for? To buy more weapons for the zionis? Sorry babe, you won't get a dime from me to support your mission in destroying my fellow muslims.

Orang-orang yahudi dan Nasrani tidak sekali-kali akan bersetuju atau suka kepadamu (wahai Mhammad) sehingga engkau menurut agama mereka (yg telah terpesong itu) katakanlah (kepada mereka) "sesungguhnya petunjuk ALLAH (Agama Islam) itulah petunjuk yg benar".Dan demi sesungguhnya jika engkau mengikut kehendak hawa nafsu mereka sesudah datangnya (wahyu yg memberi) pengetahuan kepadamu (tentang kebenaran).maka tiadalah engkau akan peroleh dari ALLAH (sesuatu pun) yg memberi pertolongn kepadamu..
- Surah Al Baqarah ayat 120

*Let's give our prayers for the Muslims in Palestine; boo-hoo to USA.

I'm reminded to be thankful for everything

2009-01-06T09:31:00.002+08:00

I had been an ardent reader of this mummy's writing for quite sometime. Being a SAHM, I spent a few hours a day blog hopping, on days when Irfan behaved himself. I haven't been reading her blog for quite sometime now, and when I did just now I was kinda surprised to see that she'd given birth to a premature baby boy.

And I was even more surprised and much saddened looking at the condition of the baby, whom surely must feel the pain of what happened to his arms and legs. I pray that Allah makes his pain berable and his parents stronger in facing this trial, ease their burden. Most importantly, I pray for people not to put the blame of what happened on the parents. People, stop speculating and doing fitnah on what they did in the past/during pregnancy. It would just add to their burden in handling the delicate situation.

Well, I kinda know the feeling because some of them in my husband's clan are the kind who still believes in this old-fashioned thoughts. During my pregnancy; among other things;They reminded me again and again when I was pregnant not to clean the chicken/fishes because according to their so-called wisdom it could cause the baby to have incomplete organs. Upon reading this mummy's entry, I realized that if I was in the same situation as her, I'd definitely be blamed for not listening to the elderly.

But for me, many of the old believes are kurafat. Not because they were OLD, but because many of it don't have strong foundation or reasons for it. Maybe it happened that you gave birth to a child without arms or legs, and it so happened that you did the basic chores of cooking for your husband (and it includes cleaning the chicken et. cetera), so how do you relate it to your child being arm-less? Is it because you cut away the chicken legs that God wants to punish you by making your baby crippled?

"...biarlah orang kata macam2,… memang ramai orang tanya, Mami ada penyakit ke? Mami ada makan ubat ke? Mami ada pegang parang ke? Mami ada potong binatang ke? Abiy ada buat itu ini ke? family ada history ke?… bagi kami ini anugerah dari Allah. bukan sebab apa2. dan juga sesungguhnya bukan sebab breastfeed Abang Hafiy masa pregnantkan Fahry. bukan juga sebab kejadian yang menimpa Arwah Tok Pa. tak.. bukan sebab2 semua tu."
...excerpts from the blog...

Well, if anyone have a scientific reason for it, please feel free to drop your comment here.

My prayers always with the family and may they have a beautiful life ahead. Amin...

A Package from Houston

2008-12-30T22:35:00.011+08:00

This is an overdue entry. A few weeks ago, I ordered some baby gap and old navy clothing online, since it's cheaper than buying at the local boutique. My dear sis in Houston agreed to post it for me..and she too bought some oshkosh clothing for Irfan. thanks a lot kakak..Both Irfan and his mama love it! Especially the cuuuuuute PJ Set! :-D

jeng jeng jeng

thanks kakak!!

aunty nai...irfan likeeeey!!

Ayu..remember this shirt??I chose white lah in the end! :-p

And here comes my MOST FAVOURITE...jeng jeng jeng...

THE PJ SET!!

cute kan cute kan???I likeeee!

Thanks again kakak! I'm a happy ladyyy... :-D

My cute red sling

2008-12-30T22:04:00.009+08:00

I first heard about babywearing when reading a friend's blog. It kinda appealed to me to wear my baby as Irfan always wanted to be held, especially at home when I do the household chores. Interested to know about it, I surf more websites to get more informations on this thing.

From my findings, I realized that there are some mommies out there who form a group malaysian babywearers and meet up/gathered every once in a while to learn the tricks and techniques to wear their baby.

I don't go to these gatherings, as yet. Being kinda busy with other things, I'm just beginning to learn a few tricks from a dear someone whom I met online, Ito.

This lady was so nice, she even voluntered to help buy a sling for me. With discount at that. So finally after getting precious informations from her, I decided to give it a try.

And I come to love it!

Ito, did I do it the correct way??

OMG! I'm so chubby! hehehe sempat lagi tu..Anyway, thsi is the sling I accidentally left at Jakel the other day. Luckily the staff found it and post it back to me after I called him..MILLION THANKS MR. IKRAM, u dunno how much it means to me. :-D

* For info on baby wearing, just google it kay. i'm kinda lazy to provide any links at the moment. hehe..

** I got this pouch from here. The price is reasonable and the pouch is very comfy. Well, so far Irfan loves it.

Eventful Saturday

2008-12-29T11:52:00.016+08:00

I had an eventful weekend!

I dun think I've ever had such a weekend before. What's so different about it eh?

Well, let me story you..

On Saturday, as per plan Amin, Mak, Irfan and I went to Jakel in Sg. Petani. I think they call it A'lamoda to be precised. We've been there once before to buy material for my bro-in-law's wedding in May next year. The last time we went I didn't get the chance to buy the material i wanted for Yone's wedding, so I noted to myself that we were gonna visit that place again someday, so off we went lsat weekend.

Upon arriving, mak and I went crazy looking at all the new arrivals they had. Earlier on mak was saying that she doesn't know how to choose material anymore since abah had been doing all the buyings for quite sometime now. But once she set her eyes on those kain, all skills came back to her in a matter of a few seconds! haha..

So we chose and chose and chose. We toured the whole shop from ground floor to up and down again. Mak end up buying like..what?4 materials for herself and one for my aunty, and one carpet and another tikar for the house. I satisfied myself with a purple beaded chiffon that i've always craved for, and lilac lining and hubby got a purple sampin to wear with his two purple telok belanga for two different weddings in May next year. And I got for myself another material for azim's wedding..also in May next year, tho I wanted to get antoher chiffon but since mami yah was quite vague on the theme colors, so I bought a cheaper material instead.

The brown/beige polka dot material cost RM85, I find the design quite rare but it does look a bit gloomy ain't it? The design of the material that mak bought is more attractive but I dun haf the pictures of hers with me. The sampin cost RM100 after less, abah bought his (same design and material but different colour) in Jakel Jalan TAR for only RM70! But well, the transportation cost more compared to Sg. Petani, so I consider the price quite reasonable. And finally, the purple chiffon complete with satin lining cost (plus minus) RM390.

And then..guess what? In the middle of choosing materials, hubby came up to me and said they're going to lelong some materials. Listen to the DJ carefully and so we did. They opened it at RM8 for 4 metres, material named Bella Moda! Never had I fought my way through crowds before like I did on that way..memang main redah to take as many as we could (selepas diarahkan oleh sang suami dan mak). We took whatever we could and I think we ended up with about ten pieces or more of the RM8 and RM10 materials. Among those I managed to get for myself :

Trust me..for RM8, these kain are really a steal! Oh..now I realized that most of it are yellow, and I have like only ONE yellow hijab..so now I haf more reason to shop! :-p

All in all, guess how much we spent in Jakel alone ? RM1090.00! That's inclusive of all the other beautiful materials for mak, my aunty and MIL and the carpets and tikar.

I hafta say that this trip is really satisfying for me, and I'd definitely shop there again. But not in the near future lah. haha. Unless if Jakel wants to give me some very good deal for promoting their goods in here hahaha :-p

(Oh..I left my baby sling there, called up the customer service and a guy named Ikram said he'd find it and post it back to us. Hopefully I'll get it back coz it's verrryy precious to me)

Later on, after accompanying mak to buy some hijabs she needed to attend some wedding receptions in KL next week, we had our dinner at Pelita and off we went back home.

Irfan at Pelita..he was so excited and kept making cute faces at the mamaks there, hoping for some teh tarik in return?

Something real bad happened on the way back..we met with an accident just before we entered Penang Bridge. Hubby only realized that the brake wasn't working a few seconds before we were to stop at the Penang Bridge toll and panicky, neither one of us thought of the hand brake. Mak was soundly sleeping at the back and only woke up when she heard me screaming at hubby to stop the car.

Luckily, the car in front of us weren't moving or else we would've hit the toll gate panel. I really thank Allah that eventho we met with the accident, he saved us from any harm, and most importantly Irfan survived it without any scratch. Hubby said this shall be a reminder to us as it's been quite sometime since we gave sedekah to the needy.

Thank you Allah for the reminder!

(Pics of the car shall be uploaded later)

*Updated*

The car after the accident

In the car, being towed to Caltex to wait for insurance tow truck

Online Photo Printing

2008-12-26T14:07:00.003+08:00

Pictures paint a thousand words. Pictures too captured memories that will otherwise be forgotten.

With new technology using digital cameras, people nowadays prefer to keep their "memories" stored in pc or notebook rather than have it printed out and stick in an album.

The reason for this? Most of us just hate the ideas of bracing the traffic jam just to drop the pictures to be developed, and later going through the same hassles just to pick it up from the store.

Well, fret no more coz I have good news for you guys out there.

Thanks to online photo printing service, our lives will be MUCH MUCH easier from now on. And the best part is we could print out and keep our "memories" stored in the lovely photo albums, without the hassles mentioned above, at a very reasonable cost!

One of my favorites and I'd say the best service provider of online photo printing in Malaysia is eoe Online. Just by uploading your favorite photos to the service website, it'll get printed and sent to your doorstep. Coolness isn't it? Aside from this printing service, they too offer a wide range of photographic products. For more information on the service provided, click here.

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I'm in Love...

2008-12-22T11:50:00.004+08:00

Wish I have the budget for kitchen like this.. *sigh*dreamy* (pic from Signature Kitchen)

A nice lunch date

2008-12-17T14:21:00.002+08:00

I've had the nicest lunch I've ever had in such a looooong time. It's not because I had it at an exclusive restaurant nor because the food was out of this world, but it's because I had it with Mr. Hubby.

Now, I can barely remember when was the last time he come fetch me during lunch, maybe never. But today he did! I was just so very ecstatic when he ym me asking "lunch skali arini mau?". Surely u can guees my reply was? "Naaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!yeay yeay!".

We had prosperity burgers at the nearby McD. It was really a short but fulfilling lunch. But Mr. Hubby pesan to me after he dropped me off "I hope this isn't going to be habitual ya"..erkk...kill joy laa you. :-p

(Not his exact phrase, just using the phrase that someone ACTUALLY used to scold me the other day..haih, i really hate that someone lah. hmph!).

Birthday dinner

2008-12-11T11:41:00.009+08:00

Irfan is back!!

Dah lama mama tak post his pictures in here. I got a few, not that much but bole la sekadar nak jadi memories later on.

On last Saturday, we went for dinner celebration of mak's birthday which fell on the 3rd of December (Wed). We didn't do anything much on the 3rd itself, I just bought an ice cream cake (pics shall be posted later) and we nyanyi2 as usual and mak was being ever excited as this is the first time for her celebrating birthday as a grandma. :-p

Irfan was cranky as he had fever that day, so mak and the rest of the siblings went to sleep at our house that night.

Anyway, back to the dinner story. For the birtday celebration, Amin and I treated the family to dinner at Amandari. It's an old yellow-white bungalow turned into a restaurant serving malay cuisine, located at Kelawei Road, Penang. As they were 13 of us, we ordered the ala carte' as the sets they have is only meant for 10 person, plus the biggest of their table can only fit 12 person after squeezing everyone in. So we took 2 tables and two sets of dishes. What we had were :

(According to MY tastebud)

Ikan Goreng berlada (something2): very nice. I give 4 out of 5 stars

Ikan goreng mangga ( different name, i dun remember the exact name; the other table got this ) : they said it's too sweet, no spicy taste at all. I dun think they like it. maybe 2 or 3 out of 5 stars.

Udang goreng mentega : I loveee!! nyum nyummmm!!!this one 5 out of 5 stars.

Ayam goreng indonesia(the name is different, something like seri wangi or what, but it is an indonesian style of fried chicken) : 4 out of 5 stars

Seafood Tomyam : 3 out of 5; i've had better. Pha pha tomyam is nicer.

Asparagus goreng berlada : ok. 4 out of 5 stars.

Desert of sagu with icecream (i think) : ermmm...not so nice. maybe 3 out of 5.

Service and Ambience : 4 out of 5

The food's not bad, ambience nice and for 13 people, the price is plus-minus RM500, not bad if you ask me.

Do try it out if you have the chance.

Alamak! Irfan kena drive ka mama???

O'oww!! Did I just hit something???!!

Eeee...takmau la..abah take over pleaseeeee.....

Food at table 1

Birthday girl..hehe

Everyone fussing over Irfan. Ler..makan farley's rusks ONLY??? uwaaaaaaa!

Kesian dia...

2008-12-05T10:41:00.003+08:00

I was mad at Irfan this morning. Actually, I was mad at something else that happened, but I took it out on him. I scolded him in the car, and he cried. I plopped him into his father's lap while he was still crying, and he looked at me and cried and cried. I just ignored him coz I was mad. I didn't even look at him when he was taken away.

Now looking at his smiling piccies on my desk, I'm regretting it. I love you son. I do. I can't wait to go back and take you home.

What changes when you have a baby?

2008-11-26T13:29:00.002+08:00

I got this from the babycenter.com. They are soooo true!

What changes when you have a baby?

A better question may be: What doesn't change? Here, writer and mom Rebecca Woolf lists her most notable post-baby observations. Then scroll down to read our favorite comments from readers about how their babies changed their lives.

1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms. (I love the smell of my baby when he just woke up from sleep..the nice smelly scent :-p)
2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.
3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.
4. You respect your body ... finally.
5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way.
6. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own.
7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child.
8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago.
9. Your heart breaks much more easily.
10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day.
11. Every day is a surprise.
12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!) (Erkk...please, I still pass him to others whenever I could when he does his lil bussiness)
13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.
14. You become a morning person.
15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power.

And from our readers...
1. "You discover how much there is to say about one tooth." — Ashley's mom
2. "You finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth." — Anonymous
3. "You now know where the sun comes from." — Charlotte
4. "You'd rather buy a plastic tricycle than those shoes that you've been dying to have." — Sophie's mom
5. "You realize that although sticky, lollipops have magical powers." — Roxanne
6. "You don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night." — Kellye
7. "Silence? What's that?" — Anonymous
8. "You realize that the 15 pounds you can't seem to get rid of are totally worth having." — Brenda
9. "You discover an inner strength you never thought you had." — Ronin and Brookie's mom
10. "You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule." — Thomas' mom
11. "You give parents with a screaming child an 'I-know-the-feeling' look instead of a 'Can't-they-shut-him-up?' one." — Jaidyn's mom
12. "Your dog — who used to be your 'baby' — becomes just a dog." — Kara
13. "You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late." — Tracey
14. "You learn that taking a shower is a luxury." — Jayden's mom
15. "You realize that you can love a complete stranger." — Dezarae's mom
16. You find yourself wanting to make this world a better place. — Arizona
17. If you didn’t believe in love at first sight before, now you do! — Ciara

Happy birthday to meeeeee

2008-11-20T20:27:00.002+08:00

I'm a bad wifey. I assumed that my hubby is hopeless at romance. The truth is, he's not. Not at all!

Last night at around 12am, Irfan woke up for his feeding and thus mr. hubby woke up from sleep too and went out of the room. I thought that maybe he couldn't sleep with all the noise the lil darling was making and thus decided to go online or watch movies on the pc. After a few minutes, he came into the room carrying a candle-lit-saucer in his hands.

My thought was that since I sulked with him for not being romantic earlier, he tried to make it up by bringing in an empty saucer and just light a candle on it. Supposed to make me laugh la, but knowing me I'd sulk even more with that kinda joke.But when I got up from bed, I saw a piece of my ever favourite cheesecake in it, with a single candle on top. How romantic!!!! I love i love i loveeeeeeee!!!!

So last night, I had the most delicious supper in bed, with mr. hubby feeding it to me! I felt like a queen. Yippee!!! :-p *wish everyday is like that, dreamy look*

Today, we had delicous tandoori at Kapitan, courtesy of mak. Irfan was being a good boy, sleeping all the way from the start of the journey until after we finished our dinner. Sayaaaang dia! Mwahs..

So Ayu, that's the update I have for my birthday this year lah. Pressie from hubby??kena tunggu january or february baru will get insyaAllah. :-D

p/s : oh by the way, I forgot to update in Irfan's milestone previously that when he was 7 months he was already playing hide and seek with me and main kejar2 with maktok. Maktok will do as if she wants to catch him and he'd be soooo gedik2 jerit2 and menyulur dengan sungguh pantas, turned back to her and the cycle repeats itself. Paaaandai anak mama. *anak mama ja la yang pandai*

Of birthday and milestone

2008-11-19T22:28:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to meeee...happy birthday to meeee...happy birthday to me-eeee...happy birthday to meeee.....

It's my birthday tomorrow..or let say in about 2 hours from now! And I'm doing nothing special but blogging while my two boys are sound asleep in the next room. :-(

I'm pretty sure hubby hasn't got any surprise coming tonite, he's soooo hopeless when it comes to this. I hate i hate i hate. Now I'm promising myself that next year there won't be any surprises for him as well, only for my darling baby. Hmph!!

Anyway, nothing much has been going on in life these past three weeks. It's routine and tiring. But I'm now more appreciative of my time with muchkin. Lots of things been happening to him, first the swollen eyes. A few days after that, he's got swollen fist. A few days after THAT, I woke up in the morning to find him (his neck actually) covered in blood!! Turned out, his neck melecet and he scratched it so bad that it bled. Then a couple of days ago, he hurt the back of his ankle while playing near the sofa at home. All of these happened within 2 weeks time. Sigh...kesian anak mama...

He's 8 months today. You're a big boy now sayang. He's so fond of imitating whatever we do now :

* Geleng kepala (mama ajaq :-p)
*Open and close his fist to the rhyme of cak cekok udang gamit (maktok ajaq)
* Do the clicking sound with his tongue (tok abah ajaq)

He can sit up on his own now..quite steadily eventho still not upright. He can sit up when he's on his back, front or even when he's on his four. No he hasn't take that first crawling step, but is now busy standing up and climbing up and down. A few days back when I was sleeping just besides the sofa, he crawled up onto the cushion. Lucky I woke up and got him, if not he might have fall off. Hish..tak reti dok diam langsung. Grrrr.....

He's a very pampered baby, seriously. Everyone lavishes their attentions to him as he's the first grandson, so now he's becoming more and more pampered. He'd make that kitty sound whenever we're mad at him, so everybody pun tak jadi la nak marah dia after that. I pray he won't grow up to be a pampered boy because pampered toddlers would annoy people for sure.

To Irfan, you just wait till maktok get another grandson/granddaughter next year, then u won't be the one and only anymore. :-p

Mata Sepet Itu...

2008-11-05T22:13:00.008+08:00

Yesterday was horrible for both of Irfan's parents.

We decided to send Irfan to Ibu's house in the morning as mak is still in KL. I had a very bad feeling of leaving him, not leaving him there, but just a very very bad feeling of having to leave him. When I passed him to Ibu, he was actually opening up his hand wanting to come back to me. I take it that it's because he wasn't familiar with her still. Anyway, as I usually did I just pesan a few things about his feeding time and bath time.

At around 10 in the morning, I just called the house to check on him and ibu said he didn't cry at all. He just pooped and so she bathed him after washing the poo poo.

A while later, I realized I had many missed calls from Abah and Amin and thus called them back. Abah answered the phone and told me that Irfan had an allergic reaction and they brought him to the hospital.

I asked to talked to hubby and he told the same thing : Irfan's eyes were swollen shut but he didn't cry so much, just a lil bit. I was just soooo worried but sadly I couldn't be there at that time. For the rest of the day I just couldn't concentrate on whatever I was supposed to do but kept on thinking of him and wanting to go back to be with him.

When I went to fetch him later at MIL's house that evening, I couldn't described the feeling I had when I saw him in that condition. All I could say is that it really broke my heart seeing him like that. So that's the feeling mother's get whenever something - no matter how minor - happen to their child. And now I realized that should anything ever happen to him, I'd definitely go insane.

Somehow, I managed to stop tears from flowing down - though God knows how hard it was for me.

That night, we decided to spent the nite at mak's house eventho she wasn't around. Abah was there and dengan rajinnya telah mengelap segala habuk in the room where we were supposed to sleep. Complete dengan change the bedsheet and all. :-D

Ibu was apologizing profusely when I talked to her, but it wasn't her fault pun. Things happened, and no one could stop it if it was fated to be. Besides, if it didn't happened then, I wouldn't know that Irfan has an allergy. Now I just have to be extra careful in taking care of him.

These pics were taken in the evening when I fetched him. They said it was much worse than this when it first happened, both his eyes were swollen shut. The doc told me that it was like he got two eggs on his face instead of a pair of eyes, sampai tak nampak langsung anak mata he said.

At nightime when he was getting better.

I truly hope I won't have to go through such emotions again, not in the near future. It made me feel like a bad mama as I should've mention about the sensitivity of his skin and such to ibu but it somehow escaped my mind.

Sorry kay Irfan, mama will be extra careful (InsyaAllah) with you from now on. Mwahs!!

The Carnival Theme Park

2008-10-31T19:37:00.015+08:00

Last monday, while the Hindus in our country were busy celebrating Deepavali, our little family decided to have a lil celebration of the holiday that we seldom have, at a theme park.

As we woke up rather late that morning - or afternoon I'd say - our initial plan to go to Bukit Merah was cancelled. Mr Hubby suggested that we should go to the one in Sungai Petani instead, as it's nearer to home.

So that afternoon at around 1, we pushed off to the Carnival. Arrived at around 2++pm, and the weather was quite hot. Irfan slept all the way, and was still sleeping when we arrived. Mama put him in the stroller and he was stiiiiiiillll sleeping when we entered the park. Both mama and abah decided to go for the waterpark as we were pretty sure that we wouldn't be able to take Irfan along on rides they have in the dry park.

After we rented a locker and went to change, hubby had to wake Irfan up for his shower before we dip him into the ever-so-cold water. Having to wake up from his afternoon nap made Irfan quite cranky and cried when we first brought him into the pool. This little manja guy only bathe in warm water at home, so I guess he found the water too cold to his liking, hence the cries.

Mr Hubby posing in his kain pelekat lalalala pants :-D

The place was quite pack with people, as it was a holiday. They have quite a number of pools but it couldn't beat Sunway Lagoon as the diversity of rides in The Carnival is not as good as in Sunway Lagoon.

I did enjoy playing in the water with Mr. Hubby and Irfan. Unfortunately Irfan didn't find it quite entertaining when we run under the pouring water, or when we put him under the water cascade. He was kinda screaming and reaching out to grab our shirts, clearly saying that NO! Please dun make me go through all these just yet!!! Hahaha..

But we did enjoy the Bubble Spa, where Mama and Irfan floated in the water in the big yellow pelampung with abah guiding us around.

Mr Hubby had his fun with a few rides on the slides. They have quite a few adventurous slides, and I'd say he had much fun with those. He even screamed so loud when going down one of them and later on told me that that one made his heart drop to the bottom. Haha! And then there was entertainment for the teenagers where few of the teenage boys were having fun shuffling away at the platform near the Bubble Spa. It was quite a fun show actually as I had always heard my two younger brothers talking about this dance (shuffle) and finally being able to watch it in-person made me feel kinda wanna show off to them later. Ahaks!

Overall, we'd give the place 3 out of 5 stars as the location is quite convenient to us who lives in the North, and the rides are not so bad either.

Dear kakak

2008-10-28T23:56:00.009+08:00

My sister in Houston read my blog few days back and found out that I want to get Irfan some babyGap clothing. She message me on FB and told me to list down what I want and she'd try to get it from there as they're waaaayyy cheaper there than here.

So after adding here and cancelling there, here's my finalist wishlist kakak ;-)

Herringbone cargo pants Patchwork driver hat

Will contact you further regarding this k. Anything just YM me kay..sorry la Skype tak dak :-D Thanks a zillion!!!

P/S : Amin suh tanya, can you get iPhone like waaaayyy cheaper kat sana than here? He wants to get one, FOR MY BIRTHDAY! hehehe

It's BIG PURPLE AND FRIENDLY!!

2008-10-24T15:02:00.014+08:00

Yesterday was a HOLIDAY for our little family!

Hubby took leave so we could settle some errants, bills and stuff. We went to tabung haji first to open an account for Irfan (yes!baruuuu nak bukak, didn't had the chance before). Then paid the bills before heading to mak's house to drop off Irfan.

After dropping him of we went to open my bank account (with C**B) and boy!can they be more unhelpful than that. We first went to the one in Jelutong but were asked to go either at the place we stay or at the place we work. Waaa...never knew that's the procedure to open a bank account. I thought you could just open one wherever, coz that was how it was with Maybank last time. Takdak pulak all these hassles of being told off and having to drive here and there just to open a stu*id account.

Then, we went to the one in U**. There was this one indian muslim lady who smiled at us (hubby to be exact) and told us to wait just for a sec. She was the one who entertained us at first, and she was being SUPER sweet towards my hubby!but NEVER towards moi :-p or maybe i was just being paranoid but whatever! yang i tak puas hati is she made such a big deal when i say i wanted to open the acount, like we need the of**r letter la and such. I was like no, I don't have it as they asked me to open the bank account FIRST before they could issue me the letter. Duh!

And then we saw Pakcik Ghouse's friend, and everything went sooo smoothly after that. See! It was just as easy as that, you shouldn't have tried to complicate the matters. Just ask your supervisor if you don't know the procedures next time yah! :-p

(Like abah said - there's nothing in this world that can't be done..u just have to find out how to make it possible)

After that, we dropped off some documents at one of the offices, went to the lawyer firm to get our properties documents and off we went to QB for a window shopping session! Yeay!

I went into all the baby boutiques that I could find in the mall, and boy! I was sooo in love with the babyGap line of clothing. Kalau boleh nak buy the shop itself so that Irfan could just come in anytime and pick his own clothes (more like mama will do it for him la kan) *wink*wink*

So from yesterday's window shopping, I currently have these among my wishlist. InsyaAllah will TRY to get it for him in the upcoming months (jika dibenarkan sang suami lah ye).

look at the colors! i bet my boy will look good in this :-D

awesome! :-p

cuteness...

ada berbagai2 la socks i want to get for him, this is among them..comei kan...

and this is my F A V O U R I T E !!

Well well...can't wait to shop for his kenduri clothes! :-p We didn't get anything at the mall actually except a lil barney for the munchkin. I wanted to get an elmo for him just becoz it's red and cute, but takdak la pulak the one that fits our criterias. It's either too big or too hard (we want a soft toy) so hubby said we'll try to look at other Toys r Us outlets next time. Oh! Btw Feezah if you are reading this, ada banyak Elmo kat Toys R Us QB, even ada yang send-a-friend Elmo tu but I loved the gigantic talking Elmo. Sangat sesuai for your Tehah. Go get one for her lah, then it can replace her smelly A'a. :-D

Tomorrow, most probably we'll be going to kedai kain to get some *chiffon for myself and whatever materials for the rest of them* for my brother in law's wedding next year.

P/s : Irfan is extra cranky today, most probably sebab tumbuh gigi. He has now got two cutest teeth on the bottom and 4 on top which are very jarang2. Ikut gigi sapa taktau :-D

If I Were A Boy

2008-10-21T22:53:00.004+08:00

After getting influenced by Ami, I'd been listening to this song by Beyonce over and over again. It's an excellent song, boys/men should REALLY listen to this tau. :-p

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
T ell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

You know when you act like that
I don't think you realize how it makes me look or feel

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed

But you’re just a boy...

M A M A

2008-10-13T13:34:00.003+08:00

I'm a truly blessed mother today. Irfan called me MAMA! this morning...it's really a day to be remembered. Hope there'll be more after this..

I heart you son. Mwahs!!!!

P/s : I told abah and he got jealous :-p

Handbagplanet

2008-10-08T14:59:00.002+08:00

I was bloghopping this morning and surprise surprise!!

I found out that Handbag Planet is launchin on the October 15, 2008 and they are giving away a free handbag every hour for 24 hours on the day of the launch!!! Terrific or what??As I'm a SAHM always on the go, I am always in need of roamy and funky handbags to store Irfan's, mine and hubby's stuff. This is just great chance for me to get a new, beautiful and unique handbag for free!

Anyway, for you girls out there, just sign-up in one easy step, and you can select the handbag you would like to win.

The BEST part is - There's absolutely no catch - this means no shipping/handling fees or credit card required.

So why don't you just give it a try. You could be among the lucky ones you know. :-D

Get on over to www.handbagplanet.com now and sign up keh!

Good luck!

Of Being Sick

2008-10-07T18:45:00.007+08:00

Irfan has diarrhoea. He got one when he was about 3 months old but it wasn't as bad as this time. He poo so many times yesterday that his bum bum sort of eroded (melecet). So everytime we washed him he'd shrieked as if we hit him or something. That made me dread having to wash him everytime he passed motion.

Early afternoon yesterday I went to do pap smear (it was not that painful as i thought it would be, but VERY uncomfortable). Since I had to go to the clinic near mak's house, Amin sent me off early in the morning to her place and later in the afternoon I went with Pah to the clinic.

Around 6 in the evening, Mak and Pah sent us back home and stayed for dinner. It was during that time when Irfan started to shriek real bad that they both decided to spend the night at my place.

Amin and I brought Irfan to the nearest paed, and as expected the doc gave us diarrhoea medication, dehydration salt and required us to change to soy-based milk for the time being.

Banyaknya ubat Irfan!! He loves them all! Siap tak sabar, tarik2 tangan mama everytime I feed him his medicines.

However, Irfan hates the new milk. He only drank 2 bottles throughout the whole day today. He refused the Isomil, siap pushed back my hands (with his hands) everytime I tried to bring the bottle to his mouth. (Padan la, the smell of the milk pun sungguh tak sedap apatah lagi the taste - kot) However, he fed hungrily on his solid earlier. I didn't dare give him his usual milk (Promil Gold - Wyeth) as I don't want his diarrhoea to get worse.

Samples we got from the clinic, tahan la dalam 3 days kot...

Anyway, I'm quite concern with him not wanting to drink his milk so I tried different ways of feeding him lah. Last2, I found that he'd drink it if I feed him using the syringe. Mak aih, tak ka berkurun nak feed 6 oz guna syringe for each feedings, tapi anak punya pasal takpalah. *tsk*tsk*tsk* :-p

sambil menarik2 tangan mama...nak lagiii nak lagiiii! :-D

Please get well soon dear. Penat la when you are sick like this, u become very manja tau *hish*

P/S : I miss the fasting month...

2008-09-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

Wishing all bloggers Happy Eidul Fitri, may everyone have a joyful one this year. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

With love,

Baizurah, Amin & Irfan

Irfan and his pacifiers

2008-09-25T21:38:00.012+08:00

Irfan has been on pacifiers since the first week of his birth. His first pacifiers ever was bought by his uncle, Mamu Pah (MP) right after 2-3 days he came back to the house from the hospital.

Since mama couldn't even stand up properly yet and mak tok had to take care of both mama and Irfan at that time, MP was asked to go to the mall and get one for the munchkin.

After a while, he came back with not only one but two pacifiers that was soooo big it covered half of the munchkin's tiny face! Look at him trying to hold the yellow thingy..

So, the other one that MP got for him was pink in karer. That one is the most controversial one as everyone would be asking mama why does he suck on a pink pacifier when clearly it should be a blue one? Well, as his abah always said, "confident men wears pink! you guys".

And here's Irfan's pinky one..

Irfan really cannot sleep wihout his pacifier. There was this one time when abah, mama and mamu Akhbar went to send mamu Din back to MRSM Taiping after a school break and his pacifiers (two of it) got lost during the trip. It was actually still in the car but got shoved under the seats. Mama was in a panic mode as Irfan was crying out so freaking loud that I was afraid people would think we kidnap him or something, hehehe...

So we had to stop by the Anakku boutique to get him the exact same one as he wouldn't accept another blue and green one abah got for him earlier because of the different shape of the nipple. Thus, that day he got an additional pair of the pacifiers of the exact same make. I'd say it was from Taiping with love. ;-p

A few months back when Uncle Awis was going to get married, mama felt like it was about time to get him some new fancy pacifiers so he could use it during the kenduri. So I got him this...

and this ..

complete with the pacifier holder of the same design so he won't drop it everywhere..

And after months trying to trick him into liking the cute pacifiers, look at what he chose when given a choice...

No!No! Go for the B.L.U.E one dear!

Owh! *sigh* so it's still the controversial one that you chose huh...

** Note the tiny reddish bumps on his forehead? they's mosquitoes bites he got at mak tok's house. So terbukti lah Irfan has got sensitive skin like his mama, especially cannot tahan mosquito bites. Mama has some on my face as well after spending the night at mak tok's last night.

The Birth of the Munchkin (The Continuation)

2008-09-22T13:18:00.006+08:00

After a few minutes of speaking in med terms, the doctor finally told me that my water is already a dark shade of green, which means that the munchkin had already passed motion, and a lot of it judging from the colour of the water. She was explaining on how it could be dangerous for him if he swallow it and judging from my progress, we'd still have at least 7 more hours to go before he'll finally pop out. So there's almost a 100 per cent possibility that he WOULD swallow it.

Not knowing what else to do and how to react to this, I just ask hubby what he thought of it. He said -in a defeated tone - that he didn't want me to go through the c-sect. Neither did I. We weren't prepared for this. And I really really have a thing against being cut open, anywhere on my body. Bukan apa, takut okie. kena paper cut pun dah bising sakit sakit, inikan pulak nak kena belah perut kan. Sigh..

Since we really couldn't decide on what to do, I called Abah and told him -tearily- on what the doctor told us. Abah said that if it's for the best then go for it. "It's gonna be an experience for you", that was among his words to me.

Then, the anesthesiologist Dr Redzuan, came in and explained again in a very kind voice of the situation. I was quite soothed by his words, I guess he knew what we were feeling and I think he even saw me crying everytime I look at hubby kot. :-D (hihi Emi said I'm a drama queen ahakz)

So we decided to go for the C-Sect. While the staff were preparing the OT, abah arrived and he came up to the labour room to doa for me. After first I was like, alamak! bole ka ni abah masuk, nanti doktor marah plak, but after that I just couldn't care less nemore. I was in need of support and thankful for all of it that I got from everyone.

After the OT was ready, I was wheeled in and both abah and hubby followed me up to the front door of the OT. Both were smiling encouragingly at me while I was busy wiping my tears (definitely a drama queen).

Dr Redzuan then asked me if I wanted to be awake during the surgery and I said yes. However, after he gave me a shot of something ( I still have no idea/can't remember what it was) I was totally knocked out.Throughout the surgery, I woke up once or twice, thinking that I was in a space ship or something as all I could see was glaring ORANGE lights and lotsa buttons(?) on the screen-like wall.

After 45 minutes long, the munchkin was born - on the same date as his abah's birthday! 19 Mac (1980/2008). The best birthday gift ever for abah. :-D

The surgery went well. I vomited a few times after that, most probably due to the pain control shot I was given earlier. After I gained consciousness, the nurses wheeled me back to my room. Mak and makchak was quite surprised that I was able to smile after the surgery. Turned out...patutlah, still on epidural rupanya. hehehe...

Post surgery..

After he was cleaned up, they brought the munchkin to me (in the room). It was such joyous moment for me, but sadly I was still feeling groggy and helpless thus I couldn't breastfeed him immediately. I was sad, really.

Hubby went to see Penang's mufti(?) Ustaz Bukhari regarding the name and our initial plan to name him Muhammad Adam Rayyan was changed. He is then officially Muhammad Aqil Irfan bin Mohamed Amin.

I stayed at the hospital for 5 long days. Day 2 saw me struggling to sit up, and walked a short distance to the toilet. It was darn painful but advisable as the longer you wait, the more painful it'd be.

Throughout my stay, hubby wasn't around that much. Mak was there almost all the time and I'm sooo thankful that I have a mother who really understand her daughter and didn't fret about me being manja and all when I was in pain.

Oh, and I have a confession to make. Yes, I had the baby blues syndrome throughout the confinement period. I was sad and depressed most of time. In fact, I think that the confinement stage was worse than the delivery stage. I hope I won't have to go through those horrible moments ever again, praying that for the next one (insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki) the confinement won't be so bad anymore.

The Birth of The Munchkin (Part 1)

2008-09-11T20:50:00.005+08:00

It's been almost 6 months and I've never blog about my experience of giving birth to Irfan.

As most of you know, I gave birth through C-Section. It all started with me taking 2 weeks leave from work to come back to Penang as we planned to give birth at one of the Maternity Hospital here. My EDD was on the 16th of March 2008 (Sunday), so we had 2 weeks of final checkups in Penang with Dr Rozit* before I was due to give birth.

On that Sunday upon waking up in the morning, my first thought was "OMG! I haven't felt any pain at all. camna ni???"..I was quite restless throughout the day as the doctor said that if nothing happened until the next day (which was Monday) I've got to be admitted to be induced. I so wanted it to come naturally, not wanting to be forced to give birth. However, the doc was quite strict and insisted that we came on Monday if nothing happens on Sunday.

So hubby took me for a walk at the Youth Park, sebabnya orang cakap jalan banyak lagi senang beranak kan. We walked from Youth Park until Waterfall and I really did enjoy our last moments together just as husband and wife, not yet parents.

Anyway, Monday came and I still didn't feel any contraction, nor was there any show to indicate I was to give birth any time soon. Mak (and MIL of coz) told us to wait and not go for induce yet as Mak said that she didn't gave birth to any of us until at least a week after her EDD(s). However since Dr Rozit* was a very strict doctor, we didn't dare defy her order lest something bad happen to the baby. Hubby did called the clinic and told the staff that we want to wait another day, and if still there's no signs of the baby coming out then we'd go on Tuesday. The doctor agreed, but not full-heartedly.

That Monday night we had a really nice dinner at Tari Cafe with mak, abah and the siblings. I ate all I felt like eating, but not too much as I didn't really had the appetite to. Maybe risau thinking of tomorrow.

Tuesday came, and still no sign of him coming out any time soon. So that morning hubby took leave and we went ahead as planned, to the hospital. I got admitted into the ward and waited for quite a while for them to start the procedure. Oh btw, we took a single room so hubby could be there with me throughout the whole ordeal, as I'm a very coward person and totally needed support from him to face the unknown.

So after about an hour of waiting, they finally gave me the induce tablet - they called it the vagin* tablet - and asked me to rest on the bed. That happened arond 10 in the morning and I waited for a long time but no pain came. Mak and abah came to send lunch and saw me still gelak2 and sitting happily on the bed watching TV. They went back and the nurse came to give me a second dose at around 5 in the evening.

From then on, the contraction came with the frequency of about 2-3 minutes per contraction. However, the earliest hour's contractions were very mild thus bearable to me (whose got an extremely low pain threshold). When my contractions were monitored through the CTG machine, the nurses kept on asking me why was I smiling even when the contraction reached it's peak reading. Well, I told them it was bearable. I thought that if that's how painful it'd get then I might be able to get through it breezily. Cewaahh...angan-angan betul...

The night came and my contraction became harder. Being manja, I was of course looking at hubby with tear-filled eyes and asked him to rub my back or do anything to ease the pain. Somehow that night was the longest night of my life as I was contracting every 2-3 minutes, but when the nurse checked I was only about 1+cm dillated.

I was sooo frustrated with my progress and kept on asking the nurse to check my opening, much to THEIR frustation. Hehehe...

That morning, I just couldn't take it anymore - thinking that I still have a loooooong way to go and no energy left as I didn't get any sleep at all the night before, I requested for pain control. I was only 2+ cm dillated at 8+ am and I WANTED MY SLEEP damm*t! (At that time, thinking over and over again that I shouldn't have went there to be induced, instead should've let nature work it ways).

At around 10ish in the morning, the doctor ordered that I be wheeled into the labour room so they could give me the pain control I requested (okay okay, I actually requested for an epidural). Afterbeing injected with the epi, I was laying back quite comfortably (the doc didn't give me the highest dosage as he said I still need to feel some contractions so that I'd have the urge to push the baby out later) before she poked my water bag. After that, I heard the midwife gasp*and the doc and midwife both spoke in their medical terms which I had no idea what it was all about* but still being contend with feeling less pain now, I just smiled at everyone in the room.

to be continued...

Of Exam and Weaning

2008-09-10T06:53:00.003+08:00

As promised to Yong, I'll write a short note about my exam the other day.

I got the letter informing me to come sit for the exam a day before I was supposed to sit for it. It wasn't even 24 hours, maybe only about 14-15 hours before, to be exact. It was for the post of Programme Producer, which I had no idea what it was all about. I called my cousin, Yong who is in the broadcasting line to ask her about the job. She wasn't so sure and told me to google it as she said SPA's website has got information on it, complete with examples of past exam questions. I did - googled it I mean - and found out that this post is all about journalism, broadcasting and such.

I didn't really have time nor passion to read those long exam questions. This is something that you have to learn in 3-4 years (read : doing you bachelor's degree) not overnight. Besides, I had the berbuka meal to prepare and a cranky baby to take care of.

So the day came, and as decided the day before, I proceeded to the university where I was supposed to take the exam. I know I knew nothing about the stuff but at least later I won't be regretting not knowing what could have been. We send Irfan to mak's house and then hubby send me off to the venue. There were only 5 of us in attendance, well..that's a bigger chance to get the job isn't it. Less competition whaaat...

At around 9 am, we were called to the exam room. Just before entering the room, I suddenly noticed something I haven't noticed before. There, written in bold letters on the board was the sequence of the whole process. First there'll be exams. Then it'll be followed by an AUDITION. After the audition, whoever gets shortlisted will be called for an interview with the board of inteviewers. I was already chuckling to myself. U know lah, an audition???? What the h*ck was I supposed to do during it. Sing a song??Acting like I was a news reporter or something??? Well, I have NO IDEA at all!

Anyway, we went inside and after we were seated at our seats, we were allowed to look at the question first before the exam will begin. I flipped through mine, and at that instant I knew I was only wasting my time being there. I don't really know about stuff such as "Beri definisi bagi *screenshot* et cetera. Okie, not really screenshot, I don't even remember what the question was. But what I did remember is I don't know any single stuff written on those pieces of papers.

So, I went to the person in charge and told her my story. Panjang lebar gitu..on how I thought I'd just come to see what kind of a job a Programme Producer is and how the question would be, and now that I had a look at it I know I wouldn't be able to answer even a single one as this isn't my line of work (nor study) at all. They just said ok and thanks for coming.

Haha...so that's how it went. I wasn't there for even 30 minutes before calling mak to ask my brother to pick me up. Lawak kan ;-p

So Cha, it looks like I won't be getting another nice dinner treat this time around*sob*sob*

Ok lah, on to another story.

Irfan weaned yesterday. He isn't 6 months yet, only 5.5 mths but he's just so hungry nowadays that his feeding frequency became less than 2 hours each time. And I believe a hungry boy deserves to have his meal in form of solid.

So after receiving much suggestions from friends and such, I finally started him with carrot and rice puree for breakfast yesterday. That was my son's first ever meal and I cooked it for him! It's truly an indescribable feeling to be able to do things for your son and I'm really enjoying each and every one of it.

Pictures of him weaning can be found here : http://bai-lunar.fotopages.com/

*Yawn*yawn* I'm going off to continue my sleep before Irfan wakes up. :-D

Today's happening

2008-09-04T21:54:00.007+08:00

I have a good and a bad news.

The good news is I've been called for a test to get a job at one of the universities in Penang tomorrow morning. (I'd been hoping to work here for quite some time).

It's a job that hubby applied for me some time ago. The bad news is it didn't really match my qualification. I mean, I studied landscape architecture but this job title is Programme Producer.

Tell me how do I learn all about it within few hours time, as the letter only arrived this afternoon at mak's house. Abah said most probably they've had candidate for the post and only called us for the test to follow procedures. That's how it works around here nowadays. *Sigh*

On to a brighter note, I love bathing my son so much because he really enjoys his bathing time. He loves water so much and will splash it at mama whenever he gets the chance. Cheeky boy!

This evening I was ym-ing with my cousin Intan and she asked what we're gonna have for breaking of fast. I told her we'd have ayam percik with nasi tomato but that was just me being ambitious. Haha. What we really had was nasi tomato with the usual ayam masak merah, yesterday's daging kicap, vege and potato wedges which were rather hard coz it was undercooked. But still hubby ate it all up and left only a bit for sahur. :-)

Nasi tomato yang tak brapa cantik but tasty tau! tak caya rasa lah ;-p

Ayam masak merah

Okie la. Gotta go and pack up stuff as we'll be spending the night at mak's house tomorrow. As for the exam tomorrow...errrr...just wish me luck ya.

2008-09-02T10:13:00.008+08:00

The munchkin would not go back to sleep. Arghhh! He cried when I tried to put him to sleep in the cot. So now he's lying in mama's lap, sama2 ber online with his mama.

I had an exam couple of days back. P*blic Mutu*l exam, in order to become UT agent. Ok. the truth is I didn't really have the passion to be an agent, but as hubby said that I might as well take the test and do it whenever I have the opportunity, I just agreed lah. After all, he's paying for it kan..so I see no harm here la.

But the thing is, I was too lazy to study for the exam. Whenever Irfan's sleep I'd prefer to do other things. Catching up on my beauty sleep for example (haha), do household chores, watch TV or surf the net.

So the night came when I was supposed to take the exam tomorrow, and I had not touch any single notes given to me. That night saw me kelam-kabut flipping through God knows how many pages of the notes, trying to absorb everything I need to know to pass the exam. Widad told me that out of 20 people taking the exam, usually only 3-4 will pass. So you can imagine how gabra I was la as we paid MONEY to sit for the exam kan.

The day came. Mak came over to look after Irfan, and Pah sent me to the exam center. Arrived quite early, and there were 3-4 lads and gals discussing the notes and such. I just smiled at everyone and kept my mouth shut.

Okie la, so I took the online test and surprisingly passed it! I was thrilled of coz, as I overheard a few of them telling each other that they flunked it. Luck was really on my side this time, alhamdulillah!

Anyway, with haste I called hubby and told him of the result. I demanded a nice treat at Secret Recipe that night as I'd been craving for their cheese cake for quite some time. He agreed. Somehow that night, Irfan wasn't really on his best behaviour so I decided be enjoying it more if we could have it at home. So on his way back from work, hubby bought it for me. And my craving was satisfied. :-)

A slice of bubble-something-cheese cake? Award-winning katanya. Memang deserved the award lah, very nice.

The usual choc banana yang telah separuh dimakan.

Choc indulgence kot...I'm not a fan of choc cake, tapi boleh la makan.

A few days after, I wasn't in the mood to cook and since I had not yet been treated to a nice dinner for passing the exam (mengada2, demand lebih plak!) we went to the Chef & Brew at Krystal Point. Well, frankly the food wasn't that nice if u ask me. We should have gone to the Fisherman's Grill near our house instead.

Yesterday, the first berbuka for this Ramadhan was at Makchak's house. The food was great, nasi kacang and the usual lauk plus kuih. But we all ate in the dark as we got a black out just about 5 minutes before berbuka. What an eventful day of Ramadhan.

Okie la guys, Irfan is calling for me to play with him. Happy Ramadhan to all and may this month brings us closer to Him and each other.

**update : After hours of trying to put him to sleep, munchkin finally terlena kepenatan dengan sendirinya while still making the playful bubbly sound. Haha punya la takmau tidoq anak mama sorang nih.

Comeback!

2008-08-26T11:41:00.010+08:00

Salam everyone.

It's been more than 5 months since I last posted in here. Believe me, it's been the longest and most exciting 5 months I've ever gone through my entire life.

The much awaited baby is here of coz, he's a big boy already. 5 months old. Being able to do certain things at his age, he always amuses his mama with his stunts.

Muhammad Aqil Irfan bin Mohamed Amin. That's munchkin's full name. If u remember, I wanted another name for him, but after Amin consulted an ustaz here right after munchkin was born, we got a totally different name for him.

Anyway, Irfan brings such joy to his mama and abah. And also to the grandparents, aunties and uncles and mostly everyone around him. A happy child he is. Always can be seen smiling at everyone and anyone. But whenever he's hungry or sleepy, ha! u better watch out then. He'd be soooo very cranky that even his maktok would surrender and call his mama to the rescue. :-D

O'oh, the siren is wailing. Mama is needed right now to tuck him in bed. Will be updating more insyaAllah. Here are some latest pics of the munchkin.

Of birthday and being pregnant still.

2008-03-11T21:27:00.002+08:00

Burp.

Alhamdulillah. I'm sooooo full today. Celebrated hubby's birthday tonite (pic ada satu ja dalam kamera fon abidin, will be posted later insyaAllah) as I'm not sure if we'd be able to do it on his actual date of birth, which is on the 19th this month. The EDD given for me to give birth is 16th, tapi usually seldom lah women give birth on the exact EDD kan. Anyway, as the twins (they're at home for school holiday) were out with friends to the mall today, I asked Abidin to buy ice cream cake from Baskin Robbins, a set of KFC and a birthday card. Konon2 nak surprise la tapi they were talking loudly about the cake, hubby pun overheard and suspected that we were doing a surprise for him. And then, when I was in the kitchen with Abidin to light up the candle on the cake, Mak pulak pi pecah lobang to him cakap "Takdak nyanyi2 ka?"...Cet!My surprise was spoilt. But hubby was happy with it anyway. :-)

I've becomed Garfield-like nowadays. My routine is like this : wake up in the morning and siap2 to go back to my mum's house. Woke hubby up to get ready for work. He sent me off to rumah mak before he went to work. Sampai, eat breakfast then sleep till almost noon. Then got up for shower (lambat gila mandi!) and prayer etc. Help a liiiiiiiittle bit with housework (depends on my mood for the day), then around 3pm tidoq balik. Got up around 4pm, watch TV, call hubby asking what time he'll be home. Watch TV some more. Mandi at around 6.30pm. Hubby arrived at 7.30pm/8pm, make some drinks for him. Then off to MIL's house to spend the night.

And the routine repeats itself day after day.

It's been only 2 weeks and I've already gotten tired of doing nothing. Dunno lah, maybe once the baby's here I won't feel bored anymore.

On pregnancy, I'm in my 39 weeks already. I've got until the end of the week till the due date. No contraction yet. No pain, no show. But I did had diarrhea on Sunday. We all thought that it was THE SIGN tapi nothing happened after that.

Baby's still active as usual, actually even more than before. It's like he's trying to enjoy his last moments in the comfort zone before getting thrown out into this world.

I'm still scared of how it's gonna be like. The pain and everything. And I still can't visualize the moment of me becoming a momma. It all still feels surreal to me.

I guess that's enough update for the time being. My back hurts duduk lama2 depan pc nih. I hope Ayu's satisfied with this entry ah...I'll update more lepas deliver nanti kot. ;-)

Till then, wish me luck guys. And pray for me and the baby kay.

Friday Blues???

2008-02-15T15:08:00.007+08:00

Gosh. PROCRASTINATE. Dah lama penyakit ni tak melanda...Now it comes back with a vengeance.

For the whole week..I'd been feeling lazy and sleepy + tired. Sampai ja ofis, checked my email then i'll blog hop. Lepas tu started to feel sleepy yang tak tertahan and I just had to take a nap. Tak boleh tidak. The sleepiness is like nothing I've ever experienced before. Memang ngantuk yang takleh nak angkat eyelids langsung.

Went to a clinic Last Tuesday with mak and Emi as all three of us had a fever. Jangkit from abang la nih. Masa check tu, doc said that 1 more week and my pregnancy will be full term already. So she advised me to be prepared as I could deliver anytime from then onwards. Omigosh! I do hope it won't be soo soon though I do have this feeling like "please, takmo pregnant dah. Tak larat!"...

Anyway, mak went back to Penang this morning as the twins will be registering into their new respective schools on Monday. I'm sure my parents were torn between going to send off Akbar or Abidin. But since Akbar's school is nearer to home both parents decided to send Abidin while Pakchak, Makchak and Pah will send off Akbar to Balik Pulau. Mak has plan to visit Akbar the next day tapi taktau la boleh ka tak. She'll be coming back to KL on Wednesday afternoon to keep me company till end of the month (the time when I'll start my loooong holiday. Yippee!!.)

Nowadays, everything I do jadi serba tak kena. I feel sooo uncomfortable most of the time. The band of my kain or pants always feel too taut and stiff on my ever-so-bulging tummy while my t-shirt feels too heavy on my chest. Baby's movement's hurting my ribs...pedih skit as dia banyak stretching rather than kicking nowadays. I can't seem to breathe properly, my chest feels constricted most of the time. I guess at 35 weeks, baby still hasn't engage as I can feel the solid lump right under my chest.

I don't feel like doing much talking. Not even with hubby. I don't know why, just thinking on topics of conversation can tire me out these days.

Walaupun begitu, when I heard that mak, yong and auntie Zee plan to visit Cha in Melaka next weekend, saya masih ada hati nak ikut depa okay. Of coz, keinginan saya terpaksa ditahan because we're afraid I might deliver in the car if I do follow them jalan sana jalan sini. Hahaha. I even secretly wished to stop by Abidin's school in Taiping later when we go back to Penang for my delivery, but mak already said before that abah didn't favour the idea as the road leading towards the school is hilly.

Ah..before it escapes my mind, been receiving quite a number of comments from you guys on the post "My emotional 34th week checkup". Thanks a lot for all your concern and prayers k. Yone siap called me after she read it, and offered her ears if ever I need to talk to someone. As she put it, "I'm just a phone call away"..Hahaha...Thanks cuzzy!

Btw, I wanted to post pictures of these feeding bottles I bought for my darling as I told Yone before but the pic's in laptop at home. Well, if the wireless connection is tip top tonite then I just might be able to do it.

Till the next one, take care people. Have a blast weekend!

Wedding

2008-02-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Went to a wedding at P*KNS B*angi this afternoon. Sesat2 eventhough the site for one of my projects is just beside it. Berkali2 pi pon still tak hafal jalan. But sesat2 pon we arrived there dalam kesesatan. Haha..

So here's some pics taken at the wedding..tak banyak pon. We were in a hurry to get back as hubby and the brothers were to go back to Penang after that.

The boys with pengantin. The groom is hubby's friend since skolah menengah until university.

Us with the couple.

Us at the dais. Tringin nak kawin skali lagi hubby said. Haha...Nak redo acceptable, jangan nak lagi sudah... ;-p

Entry sambungan..

2008-02-05T23:36:00.001+08:00

Just a quick update:

1) Been to Ampang Putri today to see the hematologist. She did the normal routine blood test that I've been asked to do before, just to check the iron count. It cost me double of what it usually did, of coz la kan..what do u expect dah nama pun "pakar". Such a waste of money and time. Sigh....
The result from the specialist : "Nothing to worry lah. Just continue with ur Iberet Folic intake -iron count dah naik sikit since I've started taking it for the past 3 days - and come and check again before u go back to Penang kay". (Proven that Doc Rozita [Penang] knows what she does after all). Btw, Abang A'a, to answer your question. Hematologist tu pakar darah. And yes, I totally agree with you. That's the best word to describe her...

2) After seeing the doctor, I went to Ampang Point for lunch. Tak tahan lapar. And without planning to...terbuat some last minute shopping la pulak. Tengah sedih2...memang soothing la retail therapy ni kan. Ahaks..
Neway, here's some stuff that I got for the darling...(totally unnecessary tapi tak tahan. Cute! Nafsu membeli orang pompuan..hehehe)

Apakah mengarutnya dah siap beli fan utk stroller. Hubby will definitely get mad ni, buang duit hehehehe

Cute lah romper ni...I like! And yang 5 pieces in 1 pack tu murah okay, I just had to get it.

Handkerchief ni pon cute..memula ingatkan bibs rupanya handkerchief. Beli jugak la...time baby kecik banyak nak guna kan ;-p

Well, this is me masa 7 months pregnant. Tak berapa nak nampak kan...macam gelap skit. Time ni I already weighed 58kg. Yeah yeah I know memang HUGE ;-p

Perut terlindung di sebalik cardiganz..nanti la esok lusa I take clearer pics. Lani dah memang bertambah bulat perotku..hehehe

3) After my retail theraphy, tunggu la cab kat depan Ampang Point nak balik umah. Man, people there memang takdak adab. Everyone asyik jump queue..some of them rebut eventhough u've already open the taxi door. Anyway, while I was standing in the heat of that evening..this one sweet and kind young lady (nampak mcm student Uni) came up to me and asked where I was going. I told her my destination and she said she'd hail a cab for me. Dia kata kecian tengok I. A few of the cabbies refused to go where I wanted to go so I told her to go ahead and take the cab for herself. She refused. Still insisted that she'd help me. Lepas I dapat cab (with her help) baru la I saw her hailing another cab for herself and hew other friends.

Terharu sangat saya, ada jugak public yang still have that good value in them. Bukannya nak kata takdak dah tapi tak ramai especially here in KL. Masa i was waiting for cab tu ada yang siap berebut with me, with my big tummy and all. I bukak pintu belakang, she (cina bukit) bukak the passenger door. Dahla potong queue..hangin betul saya. @#&*&(^)!#$%^^!

4)Oh, btw...the twins both dapat MRSM. Sorang Balik Pulau and the other one Taiping. Seronok sungguh depa. :-0

Ciao!

My Emotional 34th Week Checkup

2008-02-04T10:03:00.000+08:00

I wanted to write about my 34th checkup earlier but since i was fuming mad with my gynae, I decided against writing it down at that moment. This is to avoid from creating an entry full of swear words and stuff, coz then I would not be setting good example for the baby kan.

Anyway, hubby and I went for my now once-in-every-two-weeks checkup last Saturday. As hubby arrived in KL around 7 that morning and we knew the doc won't be in until 9, we thought of having a nap first. It was already planned that we’d be going there earlier in the morning so that we can have more time to spend at home. However, both of us ended up waking at almost 11am. Then after both of us got ready at around 12pm, I wanted to have lunch (or rather brunch) first as I was starving. Tau la pregnant lady kan, tak makan kalau mula la nak pitam la itu la ini.

Anyway, after lunch we straight away took a cab to the hospital (hubby came to KL by bus this week). Upon arriving, we waited for the doc to finish with her other patients. After about half an hour I was called to do the common procedures, urine test, weighing and such. Oh, btw I now weighs 60 kg (gasp!) and baby's weight is already 2.6kg (double gasp!!). Nampak macam there's no chance to deliver a baby who weighs less than 3kg lah..(ni semua wishful thinking gara2 takut sakit la nih kalau baby besar). Owh!takpala as long as he's healthy...

Moving on with the story. Once masuk dalam bilik doc, I saw that she didn't look very happy with me. Before that during my weighing procedures, her maknya assistant (ch*n*se aunty) did asked whether I've been for my hematology appointment and I told her : no, I haven't. So I guess she already informed the doc, thus the reason for her to be unhappy with me.

It was apparent that my guess was correct as upon sitting down the first thing she asked was whether I've been to see the Hematologist as per instructed. I said no, I couldn't get appointment on two Saturdays already, they wanted me to go on weekdays only. I said I wasn't free on weekdays, and hubby's not here bla bla bla.

Then the doc started to get angry with me. She told me in quite a harsh tone of voice not to be too dependant on hubby and all. Said that I didn't take my pregnancy seriously. Also said that she was sure I didn't even plan before I got pregnant, bodo-bodo went into it (her exact sentence okay i'm not exaggerating). Dia marah teruk gak la, melarat sampai cakap what if i mati time deliver, do i want that to happen bla bla bla...

Wah doc, itu suda lebih. Nak marah pun biarla ada limit. I know la it's my fault that I didn't went to see the hematologist like u asked me to. But no need lah to scold me like I'm a 3 year old kiddo who stole her friend's toys or something.

The thing is, with this gynae..hubby and I do have a lil bit of doubt about her motive :

1) I told her ever since the first visit that there's a high probability that I wouldn't be delivering the baby there, coz I wanna do it in Penang. So we suspect that she's trying to get as much money as she can from us during every checkup.

My 1^st argument : Most people I know don't do blood test more than twice. Tapi saya nih dah nak dekat 4-5 kali asyik buat blood test ja. Of coz, each test cost us hundreds of RM.

My 2^nd argument : She knew my iron count was low when I was in my 6-7 months of pregnancy lagi, but didn’t prescribed me the vitamins for anemia in pregnancy. Sebaliknya saya hanya diberi Pramilet, which is a common vitamins for ALL pregnant women, regardless of their iron count. She just doubled the dosage. After hubby (finally) made a call to my doc in Penang asking her opinion on my condition, she asked us to get the Iberet Folic from pharmacy, and I found out that while Pramilet only contains 5mg of iron per tablet, the Iberet Folic contains 105mg of that same substance. And yes, just as u’d think, Pramilet (as bought in her clinic) cost more than the Iberet Folic. Maka kesimpulannya, ignorant kah doc aku ni? *think think*
2) Call me racist, but I'd trust a malay gynae’s ketulusan dan keikhlasan more than I would other races. And this lady, she's not a malay. So go figure. (Again, sorry for the racism).
3) I'm quite sure there are many of us out there who got married and got pregnant without actually planning the whole thing in detail. The plan just form as the pregnancy progress. After all it's our first child, and we're not doctors who've been exposed to these sorts of things during our study years. We learn as we go along.
4) Says who I don't take this pregnancy seriously. For your info you sweet doc, I did go to birthing class and I did lots and lots of reading on my pregnancy. And yes, I did know about the cord blood banking even before you hand me the fliers. (I saw the documentary about it on TV3 many, many months ago okay).

Every time something happen to me I'd start doing research on the cause and effect of it on me and the baby. Tak caya tanya la my colleague. Sometimes I think I do more than most people I know, who spend more time and money on buying baby stuff rather than concentrating on the pregnancy itself.
5) How can she say I'm too dependent on my hubby when the fact is I've been going through most of the pregnancy (8 months now) all by myself?

Let’s see :

1^st trimester : Muntah2 everyday (not just morning but evening as well), no one was there to rub my back or hold my hands to make me feel better. Masa I craved for things to eat, I was here all alone. Paling kuat boleh buat pun I cried if the cravings got too overwhelming. Tak lalu makan: no one to pujuk me to eat or buy me foods to booze my appetite. I had to do all that by myself.

2^nd trimester : When I had this terrible cramp and thought it was due to sciatica, I had to endure it by myself. Terhencut-hencut lah pi klinik sensorang. Crying alone due to the unbearable pain. Started to pitam2. Pitam lah sorang2..pandai-pandai la saya bawak diri. Then, starting to enjoy my 2^nd trimester more and more coz I could feel the baby doing flip flops in my tummy. Who did I share the joy with? NO ONE, I smiled and laughed alone.

3^rd trimester : When I was admitted into the hospital due to bleeding I was sent there by my house mate, not hubby coz he was in Penang. I spent the night alone in the ward, had to hold my tears and be strong. Only Allah knows how scared I was that I might go into an early labor and had to do it alone without anyone by my side. That was the worst moment in my life, having to go through something I’ve had no previous experience and knowledge of, all by myself.

But it’s okay, I understand our situation where hubby can't be there for me all the time coz he's got to be in Penang. I tried to be strong for the baby's sake, tak mau sedih2 as people say that your emotions during pregnancy can affect your baby's emotion as well. Even when my bro in law first went to Pakistan, hubby said that he’d skip coming here for some (alternate) weekends as dia kesian his mom, knowing how sad she’d be when both her sons are not around with her. God knows how badly I needed hubby to be here with me, to share as much we could of these final months of my pregnancy. Tapi takpala, syurga dia kan bawah tapak kaki ibu.

So doc, considering all those things that I’ve had to go through during these past 8 months, takkan la I'm not allowed to manja sikit pun ngan my own husband. AFTER ALL I'M A PREGNANT LADY. PREGNANT LADIES TEND TO BE SENSITIVE kan. Takkan a lady like yourself, having 3-4 kids of your own couldn’t even understand that.

What hurt me is not the fact that she scolded me, but it’s the harsh words that she used and the way she tried to put all the blame on me.

Anyway, since that last checkup I got kinda tawar hati to follow up with her again. Nevertheless, since I'm already 8 months along, there's no choice for me but to continue seeing her. It's too late to change doctor dah pun. I just pray so bad that I'd make it in time to deliver in Penang as per our plan. From my few visits with her, I have this impression that my doc in Penang is more helpful and sincere in dealing with us. Besides, she's a Muslim doc and I'm more comfortable with the idea of her delivering my baby.

So everyone..please, please pray that I will make it in time and able to deliver my darling boy with Doc Rozita in Penang. If God permits...

A Song For My Boys..

2008-02-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

Dengar lagu ni tiba-tiba rasa chenta sangat kat hubby and the darling in my tummy... ;-p

Cinta adalah anugerah yang Kuasa
Sang bila terasa betapa indahnya
Sungguh lemah diriku
Tak berarti hidupku
Bila tak ada dirimu

Andai ku bisa akan ku balas
Semua yg pernah engkau berikan
Terima kasih dariku
Atas ketulusanmu
Menyayangi diriku

Aku ada karena kau pun ada
Dengan cinta
Kau buat diriku hidup selamanya

Aku ada karena kau pun ada
Dengan cinta
Kau buat diriku hidup selamanya

Andai ku bisa akan ku balas
Semua yang pernah engkau berikan
Terima kasih dariku
Atas ketulusanmu
Menyayangi diriku

sajajanakupdateforthesecondtimetoday

2008-01-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

I had a nice long chat with a colleague this afternoon. She looked sallow and dead-beat. Only 2 months pregnant and she already lost 7 kg of her weight. Looking at her, I was thankful that my morning sickness wasn't as bad as that.Yes, I lost my sense of taste, and my heightened sense of smell caused me to vomit my heart out a couple of times a day, most of the days.

But this colleague, she once vomited for more than 10 times a day which caused her to be admitted into local ward. Kesian gila..kena letak drip and all that coz she was already dehydrated and without no energy left by the time she got admitted into the hospital.

She was saying how come none of us in the office went through the same ordeal as she did during our early days of pregnancy . I said I did, I got my fair share of morning sickness but maybe because I kept mostly to myself during that time, only certain people who were closer to me knew of it. I lost a few kgs myself and heaven knew how I wish it'll go away. But I told her that once u got into ur second trimester, you'll feel heavenly coz by then u'll start to feel baby's movement..and u yourself will have no complaints of sickness whatsoever. At least nothing much. So time tu you better enjoy it to the fullest as time will flow by swiftly then. Cewah...macam terer ja dok bagi nasihat kat orang. Hehe....

By the way, can someone educate me on the danger of jaundice on newborn? Thanks peeps.

Anyway, just for preview....our new abode in Sg. Ara, Penang. Key belum dapat, next month. Can't wait to move in with my two boys ;-)

A letter to my boy

2008-01-28T14:44:00.000+08:00

My dear baby,

I can feel your vigorous movement today. Mama had had a hectic morning, thus I didn't pay that much attention to you. I guess you felt ignored, thus the strong kicks on my side. Naughty you eh baby.

Last week your daddy came "home" earlier than usual. I can see that he misses us more and more nowadays. We both can't wait for you to come out so we can play with you and love you with all our heart. Uncle Haikal and Aunty Emi bought you a stroller last weekend. It's the shade of a pretty green and grey and they were so excited to assemble the thing. In fact, I think they were more excited than me. Aunty Emi bought you a few cute stuff as she find them irresistable. You are a lucky boy and you should appreciate the fact that everyone can't wait for you to be here. So, mama hope you'll be a good boy when you come out later kay.

Later that night, after they both went back home, mama and abah took turn to push the stroller around the house and it was then that I finally saw your daddy's excitement and anticipation of your arrival. He was pretending that you were already lying in there and crying while he tried to console you. He looked real funny you know.

Mama feel excited too, eventhough I have deep fear of the upcoming labour. Everyone knows that labour is painful and hardwork, and I'm totally scared of how it's going to turn out for me. But when I think of the moment you'll be blinking your baby eyes looking around, trying to drink in every detail of this new world revealed to you...I get all keyed up and thrilled. I know it's gonna be worth the pain and hardwork just to hold you in my arm and have you by my side.

You know, mama gets a bit annoyed and fed up with people asking me how it's gonna be like after you're born. Of course I have my own plan,and abah has agreed for me to take unpaid leave to be with both of you in P*enang. Mama don't mind so much if people asked me out of curiosity. But most of the time after I tell them, they'd be giving their 2 cents which in my opinion, doesn't worth even a penny. Mama paling tak suka when these people started to suggest that I ask your abah to quit his job and come here to be with me. Hey...suka hati la it's our life. My husband earns more than I do (which means that he earns MORE THAN U DO TOO okay!), so why should I ask him to quit his job just so I can continue working here. It's not like it's gonna be the end of the world if I lose this job (which I've no intention in quitting YET, if everything goes according to plan). Sometimes, I feel so irritated with these people's behaviour and thinking that I DO FEEL LIKE leaving the job and everything that comes with it behind. I pray that you won't be like that when you grow up later kay my darling boy. I wouldn't want u to be a keypoh person and try to interfere with other's life.

Mama is a bit worked up now. I guess it's the pregnancy hormone that makes me want to lash out at everyone who crosses my path nowadays. People say I'm more garang now, I say just bear with this pregnant lady okie. Or else, don't cross my path. :-p

My dear boy,

I need to continue with my job now. I will write more to you when I have the time. Till then, you take care and be good in there kay.

Awaiting your arrival,
Your Mama

The Thing That Changes Us...

2008-01-25T12:11:00.000+08:00

My colleague commented on how I've been ignoring this lil blog of mine for quite some time now. No more updating it like I used to. Oh well, I guess I'm just being lazy and I've run out of ideas to write (in here). Or maybe, I simply no longer enjoy writing as much as I used to.

I'm all stressed out actually thinking of work and things I need to settle before my maternity leave.Dah la dok pitam2 tak abeh...and my gynae plak time ni la nak asked me to see haematologist regarding the iron deficiency thingy. Awal2 dulu tak pulak. And the one she refered me to banyak pulak songehnya...takble nak jumpa on weekend la nak kena on weekdays. Hello! I'm working okie...hubby won't be here pulak. Fedup lah aku macam ni.

Oh how I long to take a long break from all these.

Anyway, while blog hopping just now I came across this story. I hope the blog owner wouldn't mind me pasting it in here to share with you guys.It was written beautifully, and the message is so clear and precise.I bet all of us at some point had this question lingering in our mind and I hope this story can help us understand the reason behind it.

Why Do We Read Al-Quran Eventhough We Don’t Understand A Single Arabic Word?

An old American Muslim lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading his Quran. His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in every way he could. One day the grandson asked, “Grandpa! I try to read the Quran just like you but I don’t understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Quran do?”

The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and replied, “Take this coal basket down to the river and bring me back a basket of water.” The boy did as he was told, but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house. The grandfather laughed and said, “You’ll have to move a little faster next time,” and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again. This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home. Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead.

The old man said, “I don’t want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water.You’re just not trying hard enough,” and he went out the door to watch the boy try again. At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got back to the house. The boy again dipped the basket into river and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty. Out of breath, he said, “See Grandpa, it’s useless!”

“So you think it is useless?” The old man said, “Look at the basket.” The boy looked at the basket and for the first time realized that the basket was different. It had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket and was now clean, inside and out. “Son, that’s what happens when you read the Quran. You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, you will be changed, inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives.”

"How To Save A Life"

2008-01-03T21:22:00.000+08:00

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears youAnd pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Blood Stain...

2007-12-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

Both of my twins brothers got 8A’s for their PMR!! And I sorta promised them something that I'm beginning to regret! And now they keep taunting me with the promises made…Hehehe..

Anyway, Raya Haji was spent at my mum’s in the morning, followed by lunch at MIL and dinner at my auntie’s. This time it was a hectic holiday for me. Everyday we had something to do / errand to runs.

Baby’s stuff is almost ready. Went shopping with Mak for some simple vest for daily use, what she had in mind was what she got for us like what? 27 years back? Mana la nak ada dah yang macam tu with that price nowadays kan…so we settled for some plain white vest with price not like what she had in mind but still cheap for today’s standard lah. We also got some fancy baju (which I cannot resist the temptation to buy) and mittens and booties plus cap. Tapi tak banyak lah as people (mak included) keep on telling me not to buy too many as the baby will outgrow it all quickly.

Hubby lagi la teruk, whenever we go shopping for the baby (that was like only twice so far) every single time I pick something, he’ll chant his favourite mantra “YOU ARE SPENDING TOO MUCH ON THE BABY”. Tensen betul. Even the salesgirls will smile when he chanted it. Buat malu saja.End up, I’d put it back and pull long face at him. Baik pi shopping ngan mak lagi puas hati.

Anyway, I came back to KL (by bus) on the Christmas day. The bus push off at 10am and reached Old Railway Station building at almost 3.30pm. Serious lembab gila driver tu bawak. I bought lunch at the nearby mamak store and came home to catch up on my sleep (without having lunch). That night after shower and prayer, I reheat the lunch I bought earlier and had it for dinner instead. Right after dinner, I noticed that my caftan felt wet so I checked it out. Lo and behold! There was a fresh blood stain right in middle of my back.

I was panicky of course and called hubby. He sounded confused, worried and didn’t know what to do. So I told him that I’d call him back later, said goodbye and put down the phone. And then I dialed the number of my housemate’s mobile, who at that time was out having dinner with her boyfriend (who happens to be my colleague). When I told her that I have some bleeding, depa pun start to panic la jugak. They arrived home in no time at all.

Oh! Before that, right after I called Nor, I went to wash the blood but came upon this little darkish blood clot. I was in horror thinking "Omigod!This can't be a show can it? Please dun let me give birth now. Not tonite. Not when abang or mak isn't around. I'M ONLY 7 MONTHS ALONG FOR GOD'S SAKE!"...haaa...macam2 la dok pikiaq time tu. After dah calmed down a bit, I took a shower just in case I'm gonna have to be in the hospital for a long time that night..I mean I didn't know what was gonna happen kan...

So to cut story short, we went there and only few nurses were on duty as it was Christmas Day. So I told them about the bleeding and showed the blood stain kat my caftan. She then look at her colleague, nod and said "Oh!Betul la..Like 5th day period!". Then they asked me if I have any pain / contraction and I said no. I was already takut la gak coz it sounded like they expected me to go into labour anytime soon. Then the nurse called my gynae and doc asked me to be admitted into ward for the night. All those while, Nor was around of coz..and I fired her with instructions to call everyone concerned to inform them if anything happens that night.

Anyway, after I got admitted, the nurses started to strap me into the boxy machine to monitor baby's heartbeat. Okie ja...kuat and laju...macam bunyi kuda racing. And he was actively kicking and moving in his little coccoon, nurse2 pun cakap "Amboi...aktif sungguh si kecik ni..." Hehehe...Anyway they said that baby's in good condition and there's no need for me to worry. They only need me to be there till morning so they can make sure whether my bledding continues. Okie la, so that night was spent alone in the ward. Very lonely lah..I hated it..but for baby's sake takpala.......

The next morning, when Dr Liew came the first thing she said to me "Hey, u look sooo pale lah. Tak cukup darah tau. Why la..U tak suka makan ka??". Hehe..then she asked the nurse to wheeled me down to her room for check up and ultrasound. From the check up she can't find anything wrong with me, she said that my pangkal rahim is in good condition (no infection whatsoever that can cause the bleeding) nor am I dilated..so InsyaAllah I won't go into early labour lah. They concluded that it must be due to stress and my travelling/ too much walking. So she gave me MC sampai New Year and told me to rest and not to do any heavy works.

Btw, she passed me my blood test result that shows I have quite a bad case of iron deficiency. Normal count is 9-26 but mine is about 2.7, thus I'll need to take extra dosage of iron sampai lah deliver nanti. And if I breastfeed the baby later on I'm gonna have to continue taking the supplement.

That morning, Emi took compassionate leave and she and abang came to take me back home. When I called mak to tell her that I got admitted, she asked me why I didn't called her earlier. I said I didn't want her to worry as the nurses said it was nothing serious. Then mak cakap patut la she dreamt that I was admitted into hospital for operation that night. Wah...talking about mother's instinct.

So, for the past few days I've been doing nothing but lying in bed, watching TV. Auntie Zee came the other day to cook for me. Hubby arrived this morning with abah and he'd been doing all the household chores dengan sungguh rajinnya. Kesian pulak tengok... :-)

Okie la, abang and Emi will be here in a shortwhile for dinner and I need to do my prayer now. Will write more when I have the time. Till then, take care everyone.

New look

2007-12-17T19:54:00.000+08:00

As requested by Ayu, I decide to post some pics of myself in my pregnant mode. ;-) However, these are definitely NOT my latest look as I haven't really got a chance to take pics of myself recently. I've gained weight rapidly these past few weeks, and the bump's definitely more obvious now. But anyway, I hope this will satisfy ur curiosity lah ayu...

Will put up more pics after Raya Haji insyaAllah. :-)

This was taken during Raya Puasa. I was then 4+ (almost 5) months preggie.. I look short and kembang eh ;-p

A week after raya...starting to put on more weight..(Taken at Hyatt Kuantan, on business trip accompanied by beloved hubby)

There you go Ayu...u can clearly see the bloated tummy now eh. Notice that I look fat rather than preggie? tsk tsk tsk...

Anyway I dun have that many clearer pics on my new look. Maybe after this I should start to snap more photos as a token of this pregnancy kan. Will try to lah...

On baby's progress, he now already weighs 1.1kg. His kicks are stronger..suka 'tickles' especially when I lie down in bed. Anyway, at first I wanted the gender to be a surprise to everyone but us but I didn't realize that I wrote "him" "he" and "his" in my last post so I guess...no more surprises lah for everyone. :-) But still, people said it could be wrong kan...

According to an article in a website, this week (my 27th week) my baby has started to have dreams when he sleeps. How cute is that! Haha..I wonder what he dreams about? Toys kot.. ;-)

Oh..I need to go to the loo. Will update more later.

Pregnancy Progress

2007-11-22T12:01:00.000+08:00

(Warning : This post is intended as a record on my pregnancy progress. It might be dull to most of you, so I’m advice you to skip this if you have no interest on how I’m progressing.)

I’m in my 23 weeks of pregnancy now. The tummy’s starting to show…bulat skit la. But still I think I look more fat than pregnant. Been gaining weight quite steadily, banyak gak la since raya that day.

Anyway, the baby’s moving all the time now. Paling active di waktu pagi dan malam. Especially after I’ve had my breakfast and dinner. I love feeling him move that sometimes, when he didn’t, I’d prod my belly gently to make him move. Haha.. bad momma.

One of my favorite ways to tease hubby nowadays is to say “I miss you”..and when he said “I miss you too” I’d say “No la I wasn’t talking to you. I was talking to baby”. ;-p That’d get him starting his lecture on how it’s imperative that I would not pamper the baby too much after he is born nanti. Hehehe…

Lately, I’ve been having more and more of the fainting spell (as I call it). It’ll start with me feeling not too well, rasa lenguh2 badan. Then after a while my head will start to feel heavy, sounds started to diminish all around me (sorta like block ears) I’d sweat heavily and after that all I could do is to lie down and willed it to go away quickly while praying that I won’t pass out. A couple of times, it happened (even) when I was sitting down at my desk. After a visit to the gynae that day, she told me that my BP is normal, thus she insisted that I go for blood test as soon as possible. (That’ll be this weekend InsyaAllah) .

Furthermore, I’ve been having this pulling / shooting pain at the back. Tapi only one side of it..it goes from my right backside and the pain sort of shooting down the leg. At times it became so intense that I’d have to stay in whatever position I was in for such long minutes. The doctor said it’s due to the womb pushing against my spine to allow space for it to grow. And the spine is straightening up from its former curvy form. I got 2 days MC from the doc to just rest in bed and do nothing. Heaven okay.. hehehe…

Anyway, my current favorite pastime is to browse through pregnancy website to learn more on preggie stuff. Among my favourites are babycenter.co.uk and tommys.org . I don’t really buy (pregnancy) books this time, I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m thinking that money will be tight once this lil fellow comes out and with me taking my long unpaid leave to be with them (babe and hubby).

So while I was searching on issues regarding labour pain tadi, I came across this woman asking opinions on whether c-section is a good option as she’s extremely scared of labour pain. There are lots of different responses to this, some said that they’d had emergency c-section and some even opted for it, and though it was painful afterwards, it was okay for them as long as their baby is healthy. Others (narrow-minded women if u ask me) were strongly against it, saying that their kids were born via natural birth without any pain relief and it’s in their strong opinion that woman should not always take the easy way out. What’s frustrating to me is that some women who gave birth the natural way feels that they’re superior than those who take pain relief and opted for c-section and all. I mean you may be lucky that you’ve got a high pain tolerance, but you’ve gotta realize that others may not be as lucky as you are. It is in MY opinion that woman should be respected for whatever decision she made in delivering her baby into this world. It’s her body after all, you can talk all you want but she’s the one who knows her body better than anyone does. And in the end, she’s the one who has to go through it all. Talk is cheap. So stop bugging them and when your time comes, YOU can make your own decision on how you want it to be.

Okay. Beside the fainting spell and the shooting pain, another thing that bugs me during this 2nd trimester of pregnancy is that I’m becoming more anti-social than ever and I’m no fun to be around with anymore! I hate the idea of socializing with friends and I’d prefer to keep to myself most of the time. Stupid jokes would irritate me so much, and I can’t even pretend to laugh whenever friends come out with one. I’m becoming an expert in maintaining a stone face now. I know it’s bad, but I can’t help it okeh. *shrug*

Oh! Before I forget, I haven’t been to any antenatal classes yet. The hospital hubby planned for me to give birth at will have one in December 2nd, and I already put down my name for it. Hopefully it won’t be too late and I won’t be THAT huge as I’d be almost 7 months by then. (hah…wishful thinking la tu, I mean the not HUGE part). 

It’s almost time to go back now. Will update more when I have the time.

Updates..

2007-10-23T11:06:00.000+08:00

Raya was okay-okay only for me. It wasn't anything to be shout about, everything was as expected. This time, it was a bit more hectic as I had to lari here and there between MIL and mum's place. We decided to spent alternate days at both houses. Now that we've double the amount of relatives compared to before, almost everyday were spent visiting relatives houses. Sigh...we've got no time at all for ourselves. Even kalau spent some time together (alone) kat luar pun, will end up coming home with guilty feelings, which I hate to feel. So end up, no time alone for us except when we go to bed. But still, no complaints from me lah...

Went for house- scouting with hubby. Found a few place we liked but I have my eyes on this condo http://www.ivory.com.my/ivory_projects_files/plaza_ivory_condominium.htm as I like the location and it's facilities. However, we do find the place a bit small to our liking. Still undecided whether to go for it or look around still.

On my pregnancy progress, went for check up at Pearl's Maternity Penang. The baby's fine, and the doctor sorta identified it's gender already :-) But still it could be wrong kan, so I guess I won't reveal the gender of the baby yet lah until confirmed. Masa ultrasound tu, baby bukan main active doing flip flops...looked as if he was enjoying swimming in mummy's tummy. Sampai nak measure his tulang peha pun agak susah la..One minute he was lying on his back, then the next minute dah pusing kot lain plak. Buas betoi anak aku ni. hehehe...

My morning sickness has gone away, instead I'm now "infected" with the fainting spell. Just this morning as I was walking to the toilet, I started to feel dizzy and my vision became blurry. I had to sit down quickly so that tak pass out again like before. It happened a few times already, and I've got to remember to check it out with my gynae during my next checkup lah...

Will be going to Kuantan on Friday. I looked forward to this trip before as I hope I'd be able to relax after the meeting, but now not anymore lah. Hmphhh....

Tagged for FOOOODSssSs...

2007-10-23T10:12:00.000+08:00

Mickey said in her blog that since i'm a preggie mom, it'd be interesting to look at my list of foods i feel like having a.k.a my cravings. Note that all (almost all) my cravings involve local food (no more fast food for me please!the baby has such melayu/mamak taste!) or things that I used to eat that can no longer be obtained as the people who sold it were either deceased or no longer in business.

Name 5 FOOD you feel like having right now

(If truth be told, I don't even feel like eating. But well, generally...I'll list down what my appetite are like these days lah erk..)

1. Nasi dalca
2. Air Tebu (Drinks also can lah ehhh)
3. Bihun Goreng kuah Laksa (Al-Mashoor's canteen)
4. Nasi Lemak (Al-Mashoor's canteen)
5. Nasi Tomato Che' Puan (deceased)

Name 5 favourite FOOD for breakfast :

1. Roti bakar + telur separuh masak @ Mamak Hutton Lane
2. Roti bakar + gulai ikan @ Mamak Hutton Lane
3. Roti canai + daging @ Argyll Road
4. Nasi lemuni
5. Nasi Tomato Che' Puan (deceased)

5 FOOD for dinner today (I wish to have, but definitely wouldn't be able to) :

1. Nasi Lemak by my mum
2. Fruit custard
3. Air Tebu again
4. Mee Kuah Asma (near my home in Penang)
5. Putu Piring

So that's it. I'm tagging Yong, Yone, Cha, Abang A'a and Kak Yan plak k. Do ur part guys!

Ramblings. And more ramblings..

2007-10-09T14:54:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday marked the first time in this fasting month that I got to Iftar outside. I mean, somewhere NOT AT HOME. Earlier during the fasting month, housemate and some friends did asked me to join them for Iftar outside, but I told them that I’d not be joining as my appetite still wasn’t that good and the only thing that I felt like eating at that time was piping hot home cooked meal. Even if it’s a simple plate of plain rice and ikan kering. I didn’t even joined the Iftar they had at the office last week as I knew the menu wouldn’t be to my liking.

Anyway, all last week I had a craving for A & W chicken, curly fries and float. I was a chicken-person before the pregnancy, but ever since I got preggie I loathe even the smell of fried chicken and it tasted horrible to me. Thus, haven’t been eating the meat for the past 4 months, I can’t wait to try out whether my throat finally can accept it again.

So off we went that Saturday, to the A & W outlet in PJ to have our Iftar. I was feeling extremely gluttonous and told hubby I want to have coney dog, fried chicken, waffle with ice cream and float for berbuka. He grinned at my greediness, but insisted that I have Milo instead of float as the drink is gassy and could harm the baby, he said. But I wouldn’t take NO for an answer, so after much persuasion he got me the tallest glass of float I’ve ever drank in my entire life! (or so it seemed at that time..hehe).

Time nak tunggu azan tu was like the most torturous moment ever! I was drooling over the fries, the curliness of it just got to me. And the crispy looking chicken and it’s smell, darn! Bila nak azan ni.. Thus, u can imagine la how I got once the azan sounded. I stuffed the scrumptious fries and chicken alternately into my greedy mouth and slurped on the tall glass of the mouth-watering float. Hub kept on repeating that he was sure the food will go to waste once my appetite got satisfied. But surprise! I ate like I’ve never ate before. I finished 1 piece of chicken, half of the coney dog, the tall glass of float and half of the waffle. Ha terer kan.. After that, memang mengantuk tak ingat lah…

Oh. We met Cico and his mum there. He looked splendid in his brown baju melayu, complete with sampan and songkok. I was *drooling* over him too, resulting in me getting pinches after pinches on the arms, courtesy of hubby. Aha! ;-p

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I can’t do work no more. I’m so in the holiday mood, can’t wait to go back home for Raya. No, I didn’t get any special Raya clothes this year. I didn’t even get the tempeyek I ordered from a colleague. But I know this is gonna be the best Raya ever, as it’s my first time celebrating it with lovely hub. I’m psyched!

Now, I’m gonna go daydream on the sweet sweet celebration to come! Daaa…

P/s: Since my internet access at the office is limited, I can’t acces my blogspot account. I can’t post and I can’t comment, I can only read your post. So, I just wanna apologize if I haven’t been replying to your comments and all, but I still read it tau.

Of Nasi Kacang and Fainting Spell

2007-10-04T15:55:00.001+08:00

Last week, I had a craving for nasi kacang (the yellow rice cooked with kacang dhal) for a few days. So after discussing with hub, I decided to cook some for iftar on Saturday. Invited some of them cousins and siblings to come for berbuka but only Yong, Cha and Awis could make it. So, after confirmation has been made, I prepared the list of groceries to be bought to cook for six.

Saturday morning, I woke hubby up earlier than usual as we had some marketing to do. Walked about 20 minutes to the nearby market –one which we’d never been to before - only to find that it’s not open on Saturday! What a bad luck..

So since we couldn’t get our supply of meat (for meat curry), I texted Yong to get some for me when she goes to get her supply at Giant. She agreed to send it to the house later.

So we headed to Carrefour instead to get other things needed to cook the iftar meal. As I forgot to bring along my list of groceries to buy, we spent more than an hour browsing through shelves after shelves and finally when we went to queue up the line was sooo terribly long that I felt like living the trolley there and head home instead. But we queued up anyway.

After we paid for our stuff, just as hub was putting things back into the trolley, I was beginning to feel dizzy. I told him that I needed to sit down for a while. He said of coz and kononnya nak guide me to the nearest food court, which was like meters and meters away. And I was like “No!No! I need to sit down NOW!” and the next thing I know I was seated on a stool, mumbling to him “Nak duduk…nak duduk” with my head resting on his shoulder and my whole body sweating profusely. Hub said “Okay seat properly now, I’m gonna go get you some drinks”, and off he went in search of some milky drinks for me.

By this time, I was confused as to why people around were staring at me, but then hubby came back and insisted that I drink the cup of Milo he bought for me. I was..of coz la malu nak drink in front of everyone time-time puasa ni kan. But since he insisted and I was feeling very weak, I took a mouthful lah.

A few moments after, we walked a bit and stop at the food court to sit and relax while I finished my cup of Milo. It was then that hub told me that I blacked out for a while there (about 2 minutes camtu ja la), lembik lutut and all. I think he panicked for a while there (later that night he told me he felt like crying masa I blacked out tu thinking that something bad happened to me). Luckily the kakak at the nearby tudung stall saw us and urging hub to seat me down at the stool she got there. Hubby was very thankful that he was around when it happened, not when I was out alone or anything.

Anyway, after we went back home, I tried to get some sleep but couldn’t. So I started preparing ingredients for the nasi kacang, meat curry and fruit custard that I was gonna make that day. Hub yang kononnya nak help me around dah terlentuk pun ataih katil. I knew he was still tired from last night’s journey, so I just let him sleep lah.

I started preparing to cook from 1 ++ pm and only finished cooking and cleaning just a couple of minutes before Iftar. Halfway through it, hub woke up and helped with the preparation and all.(Rajin la jugak laki I ni) I even had to asked Nor to help with cleaning up as I run out of time. So penat! Even when Yong and Cha arrived, I still wasn’t properly dressed, or even showered for that matter.

So that night we had nasi kacang, meat curry, kerabu timun, ayam goreng and sambal tumis udang and iced orange for break fast. Yong and Cha prepared the sambal tumis udang and ayam goreng, while Cha bought some delicious chocolate cakes from Melaka on her way down to KL. After prayer, we had some custard which turned out to be a bit cair lah. Should keep in mind to add more flour or less water next time.

That night, hubba hub went out with brother to see some friends and Yong and Cha lepak at the house for a while longer. We chatted a bit and watched some Malay drama on TV*3. I was tired but not sleepy. After Yong and Cha went back, I stayed up to wait for hubby and Nor said “Oi..tak tido lagi ka. Superwoman ka hapa kau nih”..ahaha. I didn’t want to sleep as I knew hubby would be hungry when he came back coz dia makan tak banyak during Iftar. My guess was right, as upon setting foot inside the house at around 1am, he said “I’m hungry lah..”. Sigh..buat la pulak the simple Coney Dog for him - which recipe I got from the net.

After that…baruuuu la dapat tidoq dengan nyaman (before bangun sahur plak). Sigh...what a day...But at least, my craving for nasi kacang had been satisfied. :-D

My Little Angle, I Miss Looking At You!

2007-10-04T15:13:00.000+08:00

After much delay, I finally went for my checkup at the go*v clinic near my work place this morning. I went there with HernieYonnie as she was the one suggested the place when I said that I want to do my checkup at least once at the go*v hospital / clinic so that I have a record with them. As expected, the place is swarming with pregnant mummies. It took us almost 3 hours to complete the whole thing.

Both of us, being a first timer there (I’m 4 months along while Hernie is in her 5th months) didn’t know the procedures, so agak tercangak – cangak jugak la asking around on what we’re supposed to do. Initially, the nurses seemed quite standoffish when we asked on the procedures. She asked me where I stayed and why did I go to that particular clinic and why not the one closer to my home. As luck has it, my office is nearby so I gave that as my reason for going there. (The real reason was because I just followed my friend here whose mum resides close by).

It was real luck that we went together as the procedures took a long time to complete, and we’d have been bored out of our wits if we’d gone on our own. When my number was called I was greeted at the counter by this chatty sister (or rather makcik) who asked for our surat nikah, hubs copy of IC, pay slip et cetera. I didn’t have it with me, not a single thing of the required documents as they didn’t ask me to produce it during my previous checkup at the private. She membebel la sikit saying that I should have it in the purse in case of emergency, but I just smiled it off. She even commented on us (hubby and I) living apart from each other, saying “Haaa…nanti laki awak cari lain baru tau”. I dalam hati “Ishh…makcik ni memang tak sayang mulut lah, bulan Ramadhan dok doa benda tak baik kat orang”. Grrrrrr….

Anyway, after I completed all mine and hubs personal details in the pink book, we proceeded with the weighing – I lost another 0.5 kg in1 week – and check on BP. We were then asked to complete the urine test and lo and behold! I actually couldn’t make anything come out into the tabung uji ! I tried for almost 5 minutes and finally out came a few drops of cloudy water. (yikes! I know it sounds disgusting kan..) I was embarrassed as this was the first time I wasn’t able to produce during urine test but the nurse didn’t say anything so I guess it’s a normal occurrence for them la kot. (However, she did say my urine is kotor, it’s fasting month la..I don’t get to drink enough water maa).

After the urine test is cleared, we proceeded to have our blood taken for HIV etc etc test. I was so nervous and jumpy this time (I hate needles!) I actually could hear my heart pounding loudly against my chest. Dah la kena cucuk 2 times baru dapat extract blood from me, it was bloody painful okay. Lucky the kakak was nice and soft and apologized when I told her it hurts. Baru la sejuk sikit hati ni. As I was saying to Hernie “ How la kita ni, nak amik darah pun takut, camana nak beranak nanti?!”.Oh well…

After that, we were given a short talk on breastfeeding and then proceeded to have our details taken – AGAIN. Then came the part where I looked forward to – seeing the Doctor! I couldn’t wait to do the ultrasound scan as I wanted to see the baby again; I miss him/her already okay.

But much to my disappointment, the doc only poked me here and there (on my TUMMY lah :-p) and that’s it. I didn’t even dare ask her any question as she looked fierce sitting there on her stool writing on the pinky book. She said “You can go now” without even looking at my face. No news of my little angle whatsoever. Oh..my gynae is sooooo much sweeter and nicer than her, I would definitely continue with my monthly visit to Damai.

So, we ended the session at 11.30 am (from 8.30 am) and both of us departed ways with promise to go there again at the end of the month.

Frankly, I don’t know if I’d go there again, but let say I do. I know I’d still be seeing my gynae on regular basis. I’d want to be able to ask silly question about my little angle and myself without feeling stupid and getting smirked at, even if that means having to pay a little extra in the process.

This is my first pregnancy after all.

TAGGED AGAIN!

2007-09-27T13:15:00.000+08:00

As usual, my morning routine was to browse through a few blogs in my links to check for any updates. Soon after, found out that I got tagged by Yone a.k.a Jienekiel (dah agak dah mesti saya di tag punya. Cess!). Anyway, let’s see if I’m up to it….

Five things in my bag ( that would be my handbag of coz, what else??)

1) My phone (which my colleagues dubbed as the Mat R*empit phone and others call it phone baling anjing..oh well… )
2) House key attached to the Koala keychain I got from Kayla (souvenir from her Australia trip)3) My Cherry Nivea lipgloss and Clinique lipbalm which I never use. Oh yeah, Clinique compact powder too (which is used like a couple of times a month *eyes roll*)
4) My off-white Guess purse which was one of my hantaran gift
5) Lots of coins littering the bottom of my bag. And oh yeah, crumpled (but clean okay!) tissue papers.

Five things inside my wallet

1) Mykad
2) My driving license (yes!yes! I do have driving license, just pengecut to drive)
3)
4) Money, which I bet wouldn’t stay that long in the purse
5) Hubby’s pictures (gambar masa boyfriend2 dulu).

Five things in my favourite room Just like almost everyone else, definitely the BEDROOM! (That’s because I dun have a reading room, if I did that would definitely be my MOST FAVOURITE!)

1) My books
2) My newly acquired rug/carpet (the tikar Sarawak style - I dunno what u call it) - which Hubby bought and I love coz it match the closet.
3) My made up bed – with too many pillows in it and my comfy sunny-colored comforter.
4) My RED Ikea table lamp.5) My HEAVY wedding album wrap in too many layers of bags.

Five things I would like to do

1) Eat more for baby’s sake (hehe), and take the vitamins religiously.
2) Go on a shopping spree with unlimited cash in hand (girls would be girls *wink*wink*).
3) Be a full time housewife and mom (Oh I wish I dun hafta go to work!sigh..)
4) Vacation with hubby.
5) Organize our happening family day in a remote Island - like Redang maybe?(ah…blissful!)

Five things I'm currently on

1) Doing this thing lah!
2) Trying to organize my desk
3) Searching the BEST boys/girls name for our baby (think I’ve got it).
4) Blog hopping
5) List all the tasks that needs to be finished before the day ends.Phew.

Siap jugak, and Yone, I did it in less than an hour tau. Coz I copied yours some, ehhehe. So now I’m going to tag you guys AYU, MICKEY, SYUHADA, ACIN annnnnd ILLIS (she update ka her blog?).

Okie la guys, gotta be in the meeting room in 30 seconds from now. Daaaa!!!

WELCOME BACK, RAMADHAN AL MUBARAK.

2007-09-18T15:31:00.000+08:00

Ayu – again – insisted that I update this dusty blog. Oh well, maybe I will..

Ramadhan this year is a bit different for me. Not only was I excited to be able to break fast and sahur with hubby this time, but with a growing fetus in my tummy draining me of energy during the day, I get tired and cranky easily. But okie lah. As long as you’re growing well, I guess I’ll be alright lah kiddos.

The thing I miss most is being sangat berselera during berbuka as now I don’t have much of an appetite (especially here in KL), very picky about foods and worst, those foods that I used to love so much now taste just like other dishes. I cannot (over)eat much even if I want to as I’d only vomit afterwards. And one of the biggest challenge for me is having to refrain myself from drinking AIR TEBU, which is like my MOST FAVOURITE during the fasting month. What with housemate drinking it in front of me and all! Sigh…memang dugaan sungguh.

Anyway, last weekend was spent in Penang breaking fast with the families at Makchak’s house. It was fun, so many foods and best of all we’ve got nasi ikan for berbuka. Besides that, we have the common dishes such as fried chicken, sambal tumis udang, masak lemak, tauhu sumbat and kuah kacang, bubur kanji (bubur lambuk here) and lots of kuih muih and mix fruit custard for desert. I definitely overeat this time, and ended up vomiting my heart out that night.

Oh. Another fact, totally unrelated but.. I think hubby looked splendid in blue that night. Haha!

So, as this is gonna be our first Raya together, hubby and I decided that we’d take a leave this Friday (insyaAllah) so that we can go shopping for our dresses and shirts. Since I haven’t tempah any baju kurung this time around, I’d have to make do with some ready made ones. Hopefully I won’t grow much kalau tak rugi ja baju nanti takble pakai dah.

This Saturday, gonna go for my monthly checkup at Damai. The gynae there is quite nice, soft spoken and all. Mak asked me to signup for antenatal classes, it’s just that I’m not sure when is the best time to go for it. *Mental note to self* Will have to check it out with the gynae. Anyway, since the hospital is lcoated on the way to Kg. Bahru I planned to head there for free bubur lambok afterwards. But just a few days ago, Abg Nasir said someone told him that bubur lambok masjid Kg Bahru is not as tasty as it used to be. However, there’s a surau (dunno the name) located near to the masjid that give out tastier bubur lambok. Guess, we’ll go redah and cari ja lah.

I’ve run out of ideas to write. Feeling extra sluggish today. Will update more when I could think of something interesting to write. Till then, be good you guys and don’t ponteng-ponteng puasa kay!

Tagged By Ayu The Kenit

2007-09-04T16:06:00.001+08:00

Saya telah di tagged oleh Cik IdAyu. Saya sangat malas untuk buat ini benda, tapi memandangkan dia insisted saya to humor her, there goes….

8 things (MOST) people dunno about me

1) I have a habit of covering my feet when I go to sleep.
This weird habit started when I was a kid, reason being takut hantu geletek kaki masa tidoq. So as a kid I always had to place both my feet under a pillow. Haha stupidly funny eh. But somehow, the habit stick with me up till today but now I wear socks and cover feet with blanket.

2) I feel awkward around babies.
I find it easier to relate to kids than babies. I’m not good in baby-talk and I feel weird and self-conscious playing with them. So we just hafta see la how I’d manage with my own baby nanti. ;-)

3) Terrible mood swing
But to strangers, I might seem all friendly and pleasant as I’d always be smiling among outsiders. Most of the time anyway.

4) I haf this habit of hitting my finger on tabletop when I’m eating
Hubby was the one who noticed this particular habit of mine.

5) I cannot just look at strangers without wondering about their lives and their thoughts.
I wonder what their problems are, are they happy with their partners, are they content with their lives and such. It’s the busybody in me I guess.

6) Daydreaming.
Somehow my daydreams are usually based on movies I watched or books I read. Most of the time, I’d prefer the heartbreaking ones. Ahakz!

7) I don’t fantasize chocolate cake
Unlike almost everyone I know, I have a strong dislike for chocolate based food. I like chocolate, yes, but only the sweet tasting ones e.g Cadbury. I dun eat bitter chocolates. W*ll’s Mini Poppers, chocolate cakes and muffins is a definite no-no for me. Chocolate flavored ice- cream? Bole la makan…but definitely not my 1st choice.

8) I can be obsessed with beautiful things.
The reason I like craft is because I love LOOKING at things I deemed pretty. Bila dah rasa cantik tu, I won’t be able to stop gazing at it, sampai la the thing lost it’s attractiveness in my eyes, then only I’d be able to stop staring at it.

So Ayu, I’ve MANAGED to finish this meme somehow. Great achievement for me, kena belanja ni. ;-p

Neway, do I hafta tag other people?? Awww…well, I tag all of you in my link lists then. ;-p

The Deathly Hallows

2007-08-10T12:46:00.000+08:00

Well, what shall I write about it? Hmmm….first thing to say is that it’s not the best book in the series but, like Ayu said, it’s still a good book nevertheless.

I have to say, this time around, whenever I started to open the first few chapters, I wasn’t able to resist the urge to sleep. I was tired alright, and I can assure you it’s NOT due to lack of exciting plots and excitement in Harry’s journey towards defeating He Who Must Not Be Named (Hey!don’t make me say the name okie..it’s Tabooed!) .

The part I enjoyed most in all the previous books were the Hogwarts part, and even though J.K Rowling has mentioned in HBP that those three wouldn’t be returning to Hogwarts for their educations, I was still disappointed when Hogwart was mentioned only towards the end of the story. Nevertheless, I was truly touched, glad - and all other emotions mixed up - that almost everyone of the wizarding world ever mentioned in the previous series turned out at Hogwarts to “duel to kill” (as Mrs. Weasley said to Bellatrix) Voldemort and the Death Eaters.

I love it that Ron and Hermione still played a BIG role in this book, tagging along with Harry wherever he went and helped him out in his quest to destroy the Horcruxes. I was a bit disappointed at first that Harry didn’t get any help from Dumbledore but as my reading progressed, it became clear that Dumbledore was still helping Harry and The Order going through the dark times, albeit indirectly.

Among all the characters that got killed, I was the saddest when Fred died. I just can’t help but kept on imagining how would George’s life be without his soul mate to share everything with him. The Weasley Wizard Wheezes (or what’s the name of their joke shop again?) surely could not go on without one of the brilliant twins, but come to think of it, maybe George would keep operating the shop as he knew that it’ll the one thing that Fred would really want him to do.

The part that I love the most in this book is the ending; when Voldermort announced to the general crowd of Harry’s death; in hope that everyone would then bow to him and give him their full allegiance. However, what happened was I think beyond his imagination. Neville was heroic in his attempt to stand up to the Dark Lord and with the bravery it’s undeniably that he deserved to be prized with the Gryffindor sword.

I love the scene when out of nowhere; there came hundreds of man and a horde of centaurs thundering across the ground to battle the Death Eaters and their master. It’s amazing how easy Voldemort got defeated by The Boy Who Lived, despite all his arrogance and so-called outstanding magical power.

However, I do think that the final chapter of the book was done as if Rowling was in a hurry to finish it. It was such a sweet little ending that didn’t blend well with the rest of the book. But who am I to say, it’s her story so she deserves to do it whichever way she wasn’t to, rite?
It’s just depressing thinking that there won’t be anymore of Harry Potter to look forward to after this. I just hope there’ll be other stories as good, if not better, than HP in the years to come.

Tentang Buku yang Membuatkan Orang Tak Tidur Lena...

2007-08-03T14:59:00.000+08:00

Saturday was one fine day, for me. The night before, I waited for Mr Husband’s arrival from Penang and he rang the bell at around 2 in the morning. Before she went to sleep, I reminded Nor to knock on the door the next morning if it seems like Amin and I haven’t wake up.

So that night (or rather morning), we had less than 3 hours sleep. I woke up to the text sent by my house mate saying “ It’s time to wake up, muggles!”. Haha. We were very excited, so please don’t hate our silliness.

Anyway, after I had a quick shower I woke hubby up. I was like nagging him on how late it was and looking at the rate we were going, surely I’d not be in time to get the goodie bag and stuff. Hubby said that he was sure by the time he finished showering, I won’t finish getting dress and all. I was glad to prove how wrong he was.. Boo hoo!

Nor, who didn’t pre-booked the HP book went out at least 10 minutes earlier than us – which was around 6.30am - in her eagerness to line up at Carrefour to get the much awaited book.

I, on the other hand couldn’t stop pulling long face at hubby cause I wanted to be there as early as possible. Heck! I wanted to be the first in line to lay my hands on the book!

Nevertheless, I was the 10th person getting in line, and I guess it wasn’t that bad after all. Looking around and being all alert, I couldn’t stop moaning and; jumping up and down once I saw the workers pushing the trolley containing the Harry Potter goodie bags. Hubby was all smiles when he saw how excited I was. Since this was his second time, I guess he already get used to how silly I’d get when Harry Potter is finally there!

After I got the book, we proceeded to go for a checkup – good news for us. J And then, we went to have our HUGE breakfast, before hurrying back home so I could start on the book.

Nonetheless, I’d have to admit that this time it took me a much longer time to finish the book. It was almost 4 days before I got to the end of it as I couldn’t concentrate on the book when hubby was around. He said “ Now I know I come first before Harry Potter”. Aha..Of coz la dear. ;-p

I’d write about the book when I have the time and mood as I don’t want to rush into it and do it injustice.

But all I could say for now is that there are a few things that disappoint me, such as finding out that Dumbledore were once flawed. (I guess I just wanted him to be all noble even when he was still a child).

However, I think that the overall plots are well thought of and quite strong. That’s all I’m saying for now peeps!

The Oh!So-Long Wait

2007-07-17T16:56:00.000+08:00

*Heart pounding* Masuk ja M*uggleNet..dah baca macam-macam cita about the 7th H*arry P*otter book ni. This is why I tried not to read anything about it before. The excitement is killing me...oooh!

Seriously..I'm too old for this. Now, I just can't imagine how I'm gonna be able to endure the loooong wait. *Sigh*

2007-07-17T16:33:00.000+08:00

A Hectic Dinner - She Called It

2007-07-17T12:56:00.000+08:00

Soraya and family are here in KL since last weekend. I invited her to the house for dinner on Saturday. Cooked daging goreng kicap and a few other dishes, Amin even cooked one dish on his own -that is "Rasem" (I dunno how to spell it) and it turned out quite nicely. However, the Mickey's family couldn't make it for dinner due to some reason.

So I end up eating the daging goreng kicap for 3 days in a row dah..konon takmau membazir la. But I'm beginning to get sick of it already lah...

Btw, for those who doesn't know, Soraya a.k.a Mickey is my best friend since secondary school and she's the one and only friend who was with me the moment I became a Mrs. Siap jadik pengapit lagi masa nikah tu. And that's the reason why I was sooo chatty masa nikah tu coz I had my best friend sitting beside me. Bila tengok balik dalam video malu ja. Pokpek pokpek minah nih (ME!)...Cett...

The said lady with hubby.

ANYWAY, last night she texted me saying she'll pick me up for dinner. I was a bit tired but I agreed nevertheless as it's been more than 2 months since I saw the lady. At around 8.00 pm, we made our way to one of their favourite eating spot during their studying days, at Damansara. Acin was starving after taking care of the kids the whole day when their mama-mummy-mom (Ayman call his mom many many things) had to attend a seminar in U*IA.

While we were in the car, everything was quiet and peaceful. Both of them told me that it's sooo tiring to take care of 2 growing up sons, but they nevertheless enjoy it. I said what could be so tiring about it, I mean just look at Ayman (the big brother) sleeping serenely at the back and Ammar... well, he was sitting demurely on his mother's lap at the front seat, how hyper could he get rite??

BUT once we reached the eating spot, these 2 extremely cute ANGELIC looking kids didn't even take a second to sit down. They were so in awe with the ambience of the place, Ammar shot straight to the pool and tried to catch the gold fish with his own bare hands. And he's only 1 year plus...mind you! Haha...Mickey even asked me "ey, the fish won't bite his hand do u think?" hahaha...I dunno dear I dunno...

He's soooo adorable looking isn't he?

Ayman who just woke up from slumber, just leaned on some railings and look into the running water below. That was AT FIRST. But when he started to gain his momentum, he began to run here and there with this one little lady whose family also dined there, whom he called "Friend". For the whole time we were there, he played with the little girl and at one point he even tried to lift her up. Mickey's reaction to this was " Alamak, takdan apa2 dah dapat menantu la aku". Kweng kweng kweng...

Ayman - extremely talkative and VERY SMART when it comes to "debating" with his parents

We didn't actually get to have a "civilised" seated dinner that night. The parents had to take turn to eat while watching over the kids. But I tell you, it was enjoyable and fun as we were kept entertained by the kids pulling all sorts of hilarious actions and stunts. And I got to do some catching up with my best friend who, btw, is undeniably a SUPERMOM!

One question asked to me by Mickey towards the end of the day : "So, are you ready to have one of your own?". Aha...that's left to be answered once I'm ready to answer it... ;-)

(All photos are from the parents own collection)

Transformers. Robot in Disguise.

2007-07-16T13:50:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed my Transformers weekend very much. Well, the initial plan was to watch Transformers first AND Harry Potter after, but since the cinema we went to had a function for HP, the earlier plan to watch it was canceled.

Hubby wanted to watch Transformers as he didn't had the chance (nor time) to watch it with his buddies. I'd watch it a week's earlier with friends, but definitely wouldn't mind watching it again. Since I'd watched it before, I couldn't help being a spoiler and a Mrs-Know-It-All, explaining to him what I thought he wouldn't understand and point out things I thought he'd miss. Also, I kept on announcing "Oh! Here comes my favourite part!!" again and again but he just kept a stone face and tried to concentrate hard on the MOVIE , instead of getting annoyed with the chatty women seated beside him. Hehe..

The movie was great. I'd say it's by far one of the BEST movie I'd ever watched in quite a long time - besides LOTR of coz. Hubby said those are of two different genre, thus both are the BEST in their own categories.

Yes, Bumblebee is such a sweetheart, but it's Optimus I fell in love with. He's such a good man - ooopss... ROBOT with a good heart. He's got that leadership qualities, and oh!-so-manly voice! Sigh...He's just like Aragorn in LOTR... *woot*woot*

The effect is good. Sound effect, special effect, semua okie. Only sometimes the motions become blurry, maybe sebab cepat sangat and they zoom in quite a lot.

Anyway, IF and only IF there's any of you out there who have not felt tempted to watch it, think again. I assure that you SHOULD at least go and give it a try. I wasn't interested at first you know, but after I watched it the first time, I definitely wanna watch it again and again.

AyuUya

2007-07-13T13:41:00.000+08:00

Waaaa....I ate a lot today! *Burp* alhamdulillah..

Anyway, I've been feeling very-very down and emotional these past couple of days. Makcik at the office said that I looked demotivated and sad and without energy ever since I got married. Well, what do you expect. My husband is far away, AND I don't like working here anymore than I like spending time at the studio during the university years (apart from the happy times with friends of coz).

I guess when you are trapped in an environment filled with M*lays with typical M*lay attitude, you either become like them or you'd be shunt aside, BY them. Me? I made the decision to isolate myself from the rest, and do my own things in my own cube. Most of the time, I won't go out with them during the long Friday lunch break. I feel like I've got nothing in common with any of them, aside from the same nature of work.

I can't talk about books with anyone here as no one would be interested enough to layan my small talk. There was this 1 lady whom I thought shared the same interest as me, but when I got to know her better, it turned out that she only talked about books (coz she used to work in one of the leading local bookstore) but don't bother to read it actually. *Sigh*

And worst of all, no one here is sharing my excitement for the release of the latest and final H*arry P*otter book. *Deep sigh*Let's not get deeper into this or else I'd not be able to stop harrasing you guys with my complaints and thoughts and dissatisfaction and anger and emotions bla bla bla..

Anyway, my initial thought for this post is this...

I was feeling very down last night and texted Ayu, hoping that she'd be able to cheer me up. I typed long long windy sentences and she only replied like...what? 2 to 3 sentences. But somehow those few words were able to lift up my spirit and before I knew it I was smiling with joy at her texts. How she does it, I just couldn't figure it out. Whatever it is, thank you very much friend.. for making me laugh last night. It was a much appreciated laughter as it doesn't come that easy anymore nowadays. ;-) Just hope I could do the same for you.

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Just for everyone's info, the HP and the Deathly Hallows will be released this coming 21st July. Trying to think of an excuse not to follow Mr Husband to a function that night, but still haven't come out with a good one. You guys have any good excuses in mind???

P/S : I crave for Strawberry and Mango Yogurt drinks in the tiny bottles, but am very lazy to go out and get it. Can anybody deliver it to my house today? (Hoping Amin will read this right now). ;-p

HUGE THANKS FROM US...

2007-07-12T10:22:00.000+08:00

This entry is meant as a token of appreciation to everyone involved in the planning and execution of the wedding. It's kinda late I know, but now is the only time that I have the chance (and the right mood) to do this special entry for those who helped me before, during and after the wedding. If I were asked to rate you guys, I'd give everyone an "A for effort"! Applause! Applause! ;-p

Anyway, I'm not gonna be writing lotsa crappy stuff like I usually do. Let's jez get up close and personal with these people. Behind the scenes of the wedding...

Introducing... The Family

Mak - Planning of the wedding and executing the plans from the big, big thing to the small, small things. Cups painting (the wedding favours) sampai sakit belakang. The worst, having to put up with MY temper and tantrum. Thanks so much. (If you ever read this)

Abah - Helping with the preparation, more on the outside jobs ; caterer etc.

Abang - Drive here and there (adaka??). Since he was also in KL so lots of things during the preparation. Oh! Sponsored the invitation card too.

Emi - Many, many things too. Shopping companions not only for the wedding but also the engagement ceremony before that. Ideas and such. Worked together with Yong for pelamin decorations and such.

Huzaifah (not in the picture)- Driver and ad hoc jobs. Tukang kena marah ngan mak when she was in pressure. Dan yang paling best, he sponsored the ice carved sculpture!

Kakak - Spa treatment telah disponsor oleh kakak.

Awis - Photographer for all occasions.

The Twins : Bungga manggar boys. Tukang kena marah ngan mak when she was in pressure also. Many ad hoc jobs, this time I warned them - many, many times - earlier, not to pull long face when asked to help with stuff. So nampak cam abide by it la.. ;-)

The ladies - Efficient bunga telur ladies.

And then comes.... The Aunties

Makchak - Mak's advisor, helping her with the preparation, providing (lending) wedding stuff, accesories and decor, sponsored food & beverages for the nikah ceremony. Many other little, little things that helped in the success of the wedding.

Mami Khairun - Brought me to Auntie Maria of the Maria Cakehouse for three-tier wedding cakes (short notice but she still took the order because she was Mami Khairun's friend). Packing of F & B for the nikah ceremony. Muffin for guests during the berinai ceremony. Brought mak to the flower decor shops. Many, many other countless stuff too.

Aunty Nee (helped by daughter Pipi, standing beside her) - Hantaran maker. Turned out nicely, and I still haven't been to see her to "settle the debt". Schmuck! Have to go soon la, one of these days.

Aunty Jan - Sponsored the gorgeous royal icing cake for hantaran. New design and all.

Mami Timah - Free flowing of food, food and food! Mami Timah is the chef in the family.

Mami Yah - Ad hoc jobs. Gave me the BEST wedding gift ever! ;-)

(It definitely couldn't have been done without...) The Cousins

Yong (and abg nasir, not in the picture) - The planner. Shopping companions. From titbits (flowers and beadings) to the bigger stuff (pelamin) . Sampai demam-demam buat keja.Nanti saya blanja tengok Harry Potter naah...

Yone - My sidekick. Dari driver, to counsellor, and a real help. Sponsored the flower girls costumes. I owe you a lot cuzzy!

Ayu - the CUP PAINTER. Buat glass painting pun takut-takut nanti Kak Yah tak satisfied. Hehe..Thanks a lot! Nanti Ayu nya turn Kak Yah wat la plak...tapi jangan yang susah2 tau..haha ;-p

Cha and Fatin - Ad hoc stuff. Cha was the emcee too. Oh! She sponsored eggs for the bunga pahar.

Meor - The Emcee Cum VIP Waiter. Hehehe...it turns out that our caterer didn't spare any man to serve the food, even at the main table! Lucky we have this man here who noticed that something's missing..and cepat2 came to serve us. Very efficient. You should hire him. Haha..kidding kidding..

Azim Chauffeur of the newly-weds. Also helps in ad hoc tasks. Very the cool. Yang paling slalu kena tanya "You bila plak?" whenever there's a wedding around. But he's cool with it u know..hehehe...

Intan - Very the vogue. Sponsored chocolates for hantaran. Very-very the many chocolates and very-very the delicious. Hehe..kami curi makan skit senyap2 ;-p Lotsa other ad hoc jobs too like food packing and stuff.

AND EVERYONE ELSE ...

And to all whose name I didn't mentioned in here or whose pictures I didn't have up here due to laziness on my part, millions of thanks....You made it a reality.. (cewah, cam hapa2 ja)

* All photos by romantis-studio.com *

"Akta" Berkenaan Cinta.

2007-07-11T13:37:00.000+08:00

Love is simply the food that nourished the relationship, you need water, substance and something more to keep it alive...

~Mrs. Mickey~

So true babe...so true...

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It's a funny thing how thoughtless, ignorant and stupid people can be at times. All these while, colleagues had been complaining of certain people who smokes in the office. At their own cube. Dalam bilik air-conditioned and all. As the men in my life are all smokers, I'd become quite used to the smell so it didn't bother me that much. Nevertheless, these stupid smokers should respect lah orang lain yang tak tahan bau asap rokok tuh. Why can't you go out to the toilet or the stairs to do it. THOUGHTLESS jerks.

And today, these jerks AGAIN do something just as irritating. Bole tak makan durian kat tengah-tengah this air-conditioned room. Ramai yang complain "Please eat it somewhere else, we cannot tahan the smell"..but u know lah what their reply is rite?? "Eleh..mengada-ngada tak tahan bau konon". Shi**t man! What's it got to do with being mengada-ngada. If that person cannot stand the smell, then be it lah. If people kentut bau sampah kat your cube tau plak u nak complain...why can't u tahan the smell.

It's up to individual la whether they like the smell or not. And this is public place okie..go do your thing somewhere else and please have respect for other people if you want them to respect you. Just so you know, it wasn't me who complained about the smell. I don't mind it that much, though it does made me a bit nauseous just now. It was a technician, and she seriously sounded serious when she asked them to take it somewhere else but she got laughed at. *Sigh*

Typical M***y g*******t jerks.

Painful Week

2007-07-11T11:49:00.000+08:00

Last week was no fun for me..no fun at all....

I was in pain for most of the days last week. It's got something to do with a back problem. Anyway, it started on Tuesday when I was having bladder problem..had the urge to empty my bladder for like every 15 minutes. I was scared at first but the problem disappeared after a while so I kinda forgot all about it.

Then on Wednesday I started to have mild back pain...lenguh2 macam tu ja la. But when night comes, it started to be a real problem, the pain was so severe that I trashed in bed for almost an hour. When I couldn't stand the pain anymore (daya tahan terhadap pain saya sangat lemah, sangat tak tahan kalau sakit), I gulped down some pills, called up hubby and he talked to me until at last I fell asleep at around 2am.

Then the pain sorta disappeared the next day, and the day after. But come Friday, it came back but with only a mild attack. Then, Saturday nite it got worse and when I couldn't stand it anymore, I called up Mr. Hubby and cried on the phone...AGAIN. I told you that daya tahan saya sangat lemah. "Manja ketaik" mebbe..I don't know..

So Mr. Hubby, being a dear that he is..drove to KL on the Sunday evening after his best friend's wedding to be with me. It was supposed to be a private affair between me and him, hubby coming to KL I mean. But as it turned out, everyone in the family knew about it, all thanks to Mr. Hubby who - I guess - got too worried that he informed abah and abah then informed the siblings.

MIL got worked out too and somehow I regretted telling Mr Hubby in the first place about the pain. Mebbe it was nothing, mebbe I exxagerated it. But well, what to do, benda dah jadi.

So I guess next time, I should go sendiri check at the nearby clinic/hospital (oh, now I know already where to go if I get sick)before deciding to burden hubby with it.

And by the way, this is embarassing I guess, but the doc said it was nothing but "the symptoms of the newly-wed"..erkkk.... ;-)

I'm signing out..

Little Princesses...

2007-07-06T13:18:00.000+08:00

Why didn't no one wanted to make me a princess when I was their age *crushed heart..auuuwww!*

The disappoinment / Starlight

2007-07-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

I wonder why when people (like my parents, lecturers and now bosses)wanna scold me, they usually call me by my full name B A I Z U R A H. (stressing on the last letter - H).Tersentak sangat bila dengaq camtu. That's even worse than having them yell at me tau. Isk isk isk..

Haiyah people! Next time u wanna scold me, scold me properly la. Dun la cakap in that low but disappointed voice, then call me THAT. Hish...I soooo cannot take it lah. *sigh sigh*

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I miss A M I N !! It'd be another 2 weeks before I get to see him. *pout pout*.

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STARLIGHT - M U S E

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

Far away
The ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-c94VVU7zc

Pictures Tell A Thousand Lies

2007-06-29T09:29:00.000+08:00

When I put my own pictures as my desktop background, people here LOVED saying that I'm obsessed with myself. Maybe I do..so what? Aren't you obsess with yourself too?

Then when I went to these people's cube, had a look at their monitor, and I couldn't have been more surprised. There it was!! A picture of themselves that is BIGGER THAN LIFE, terpampang di skrin monitor mereka. Duh! Who's the obsess one now?

At least I have the courage to mengaku that yes, I love putting my OWN pictures as my background and if you think that's an act of self-obsession then be it. I dun give a darn of what you think. But you..you are so chicken you don't even have the guts to admit that you enjoy having your pictures over there. Instead, you made up stories that your husband made you put it there. Oh! I think, what a sorry excuse you had lah.

Come on lah. Just admit it. There's nothing wrong with having your own pictures as your desktop background kan. People do it all the time.

Hah. Sorry for the emotional entry. Just had to vent out some pent up anger at the world in general. I'm fine already. :-)

Now, I should really go on writing the paper, been sitting on the desk for like..FOREVER!So, Tata for now.

The Woman of Our Time..

2007-06-28T16:57:00.000+08:00

I read about this young women quest in freeing her father from imprisonment. It touched my heart how - when she was only 18 - she had to take on the responsibility and burden as the eldest in the family, to fight for justice on behalf of her daddy, while always having to be tough for her mummy's sake as well.

I might not be able to stand the pressure, if I was in her shoe. Thus, my applause and unconditional respect goes to this young woman with heart of gold.

Regrets, they say, are a part of life. A life led without regrets is a life not well lived. I’ve had regrets, as I’m sure most of us have.

I am not regretful of how my life has turned out, but instead, I am regretful of how slow I was in becoming committed to my ideals, in joining the movement to create a better world.

Life for me began with a certain sense of normalcy. It was definitely devoid of any feeling of youthful idealism until * 199*, when my father was wrongfully imprisoned.

*certain month* of that year saw me as a young teenager without a strong sense of conviction or idealism. They say ignorance is bliss; perhaps that categorically explains much of what I was feeling at that particular time — a time of busy studying and hanging out with friends, unconscious of worldly cares. That month, I wrote a letter to my dear father. It was his birthday present, since there was little choice of material presents in the dusty town of T*****, where I was studying. I wrote it while I was ignoring my lectures and missing my family, especially my father.

I knew little of my father’s student activism back on campus, except for the things that my uncles and aunts would tell me. Father would often joke about his ca***** experiences — or rather, mishaps — about his leadership at one of teh local university, the famous demonstrations that we kids know so little about. His earlier incarceration in 197* was never discussed thoroughly with the rest of us. I wondered how he overcame that particular challenge.

In my letter, I asked him to tell me about all of these experiences, and I eagerly awaited a response. But, as God had planned it, that particular month of 199* arrived the next month. Before I knew it, ironically, we were living the answers to the questions I asked.

Everything happened at once. The world, filled with such innocence and lighthearted candor before, slowly became blurred with uncertainty and apprehension. It was a period of pure darkness and fright, when our only solace came from our belief in God, and the phrase that was constantly repeated was that whatever happens, whatever anyone does to us, God will somehow save us.

A small flicker of hope appeared about a week after my father’s detention. Destiny had it that I should travel abroad — to further the cause for reform in my country, to advance the call for justice, and to reach out to the outside world for their support for our efforts to promote democratic reform in our country. It proved to be one of the most difficult and formidable tasks that I have ever had to perform.

Challenges and choices present themselves in a most peculiar way. I had to decide whether I would meet with the presidents of A & B Counrty to ask for their help. I was eighteen years of age, clueless about world politics, and extremely discouraged.

But there is beauty in being naïve because you never lose sight of hope — hope for a better tomorrow, or in the Asian context, hope for a more constructive diplomacy. I caught a glimmer of that hope as I shook hands with President of A Country and President of B country as well. I remember the risk these leaders took and the kindness they granted to me, the daughter of a prisoner who was wrongfully accused. Yes, maybe it was natural for me to champion my father’s cause, for I am his daughter. But for them, and for the hundreds of thousands of people who have thrown caution to the wind to support our movement for democracy and reform? How did they find the courage to take such risks?

Then, stopping myself, I started to remember the many political prisoners through history who have spent each restless night in an empty, dark, and lonely cell. How on earth did they cope with the bleakness of reality? These people had suffered greatly, but their souls remained strong, their convictions harder than steel.

And slowly, it came to me. I could no longer hide in my cocoon of safety and not knowing. I had to embrace the challenge of being a voice for change, and accept it as the will of God. For, according to the Koran, “On no soul does Allah place a burden greater than he can bear” (Al-Baqarah, verse 286), and there exists hikmah (wisdom) in every experience that graces our life.

As I write this, it has been three years since the imprisonment took place. The reform movement in my country has taken on a quieter tone, with repression of speech, the total government control of mainstream media, and the jailing of opposition leaders. The S*eptember 1*1 te*rrorist att*acks in the United S*tates have led to an increased crackdown on opposition. But all this should not be a seen as a despondent time in the struggle. My heart quaked in fear every time my father made reference to the laboriously long struggle of N*elson M*andela, who spent twenty-seven years in jail before apartheid was successfully abolished. But yet, it did provide a sense of solace and a glimmer of hope for the future. The three years we have spent fighting for reform is not a long time, judging by the normal standards of a struggle, and we will certainly pass through many trials and tribulations before we succeed. “And fight them on, until there is no more tumult or oppression, and there prevail justice and faith in Allah” (Al-Baqarah, verse 193). “And do thou be patient, for thy patience is but from Allah; nor grieve over them, and distress not thyself because of their plots. For Allah is with those who restrain themselves and those who do good” (An-Nahl, verses 127–28).

In living through these dark moments, I have found my answers — the answers to the questions I asked my father, and my own answers for life. These experiences have shaped me into who I am now. In some ways, I am not different from the young, impressionable teenage girl I was before. In other ways, everything — from how I greet each coming day to how meaningful a fatherly hug can be — has changed forever.

We will all encounter questions in this life — simple questions dealing with the mundane to philosophical questions dealing with the meaning of our existence. The important thing is to remember to reach out for the answers, to try with all our might to fulfill our mission to reinvigorate humanity. Never take happiness, love, justice, and all things virtuous for granted. Hold them dearly within your heart, for in all of these virtues lie the essence of God.

And to all this, and so much more, I have one main person to thank and to cherish for the rest of my life — my beloved father.

The Redness that is sooo irrestible..

2007-06-28T14:30:00.000+08:00

I have a small box of cute looking and yummylicious strawberries right in front of me (compliments from Mrs. Mariam). I'm currently having a hard time resisting to pop it all in my mouth, coz I'm hoping to get hold of a bar of chocolate, go home, melt it in the oven and cover the strawberries with it before I savour it. Wanted to save some for Mr. Husband but I don't think the strawberries could stand it. Haha! More like me couldn't stand the thought of it being in the little fridge, untouch. Erkkk..whatever am i typing? Please ignore my ramblings lah. I'm just feeling a lil bit dizzy because of the heat, the aircond is not working properly these past few days.

On to a different story, eversince married, I realized that a whole new world has opened up for me. (erk...rasa cam dah penah guna ayat ni ekk??Penah ka??) I mean like, everywhere I go..there'll be talks about babies, people trying to have babies, people having such meaningful life with babies around, mummies wanting to buy their babies this and that. I've a few friends at work trying all they can to conceive, and I pray that they'll succeed. It's a wonder when you look at some people who want to have babies so bad, they'd try to do everything in their power to be able to have at least one. Even do painful procedures in order to be able to conceive *shudder at the thought*. On the other hand, there are many out there who gave birth to illegitimate childs they don't want and many more dim-witted mothers who killed their babies due to reasons known only to them.

But whatever it is, everything comes from God and eveything yang God buat ada reasons behind it. It's for us to contemplate and ambik iktibar from there kan. So, to those yang tak dapat baby yet be patient and TRY HARDER! heh hehe..

And to those yang dah ada baby or babies, jangan plak dok berlagak sangat kata dia ja yang power la apa la. Semua tu dari Allah jugak, He can take it back whenever He wishes to. Bukan mendoakan yang tak baik, but just as reminder la... (coz I actually have a few friends yang macam ni though I doubt they read my blog)

Anyway, I just wanna take this opportunity to ANNOUNCE it here that our friend HernieYonnie has been blessed with a baby..baru dalam perut la. She's pregnant yayy!!! Happy for her, cuma rasa lawak sket la when I first heard the news coz I can't imagine her being pregnant at first. Haha.

But she still come lepaking at the house as usual, as her hubby is far in Perak. She's same like me lah...weekend wifey!

Emmmm.....the call from the strawberries is getting hard to ignore lah! Maybe I should have just a bite...maybe?Erkkk...later then! Tata..

I'm A City Girl!

2007-06-28T10:32:00.000+08:00

"I'm a city girlll...in a city worrrld..." (nyanyi cam lagu Barbie Girl..huhu).

I love this new layout. It makes me feel so much ALIVE. I feel like a girl living in a BIG BIG city! A city Full of people. I'd be among thousands of others spending time at the city park...playing frisbees! Or maybe just browsing the net u know - seated on the park bench, writing blog... Weeehooo!!

Anyway, thanks to Soraya for making this new layout for me. Kalau harap myself, tak reti and malaih nak baca2 and find out how to do it. So semuanya diserahkan kepada my so-very-nice-friend here, and I only decided on the skin that I wanted to use (courtesy of Fedora Girl - whoever she is- from blogskin.com).

So Ayu, awaknyer bila lak nak tukaq??? ;-p

Weekend Wonders

2007-06-25T13:21:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired. My body aches all over. Despite that, I enjoyed my (last) weekend very much.

Amin got here at around 3am on the Saturday morning, Awis sent him straight to the house. Woke up VERY late that morning and went for lunch at the nearby departmental store. After lunch, since Amin told me a couple of days before that he wanted to have spaghetti for dinner, we went to get the supplies needed. Called mak and she suggested that we have Abah over for dinner, so called up Abah and they agreed to come.

As soon as we got home after that - which was around 4pm - I started with the preparation of the ingredients untuk buat meatballs and spaghetti sauce. Boy I never thought that cooking can be so tiring, especially after standing and walking here and there for 4 straight hours. Even with help from Amin, my body still ached after everything was completed.

It's the first time really, that I had people over for dinner. The meal was simple of course, and I didn't even have the complete set of pinggan mangkuk and stuff. We had our meal on the floor as we still haven't got dining table at home. It wasn't the perfect dinner like some of those newly weds hosted for their friends and relatives, but I think the fact that everyone enjoyed gathering that night was enough. So the imperfections tu kira forgiven lah kot. Betoi dak Emi?? hehehe.

And that night, Amin thanked me again and again for hosting the dinner - though for no reason that I could see as it was my family who came over.I guess he was just plain happy. :-)

Oh. And Yong, sorry tak invite you coz it was really an impromptu decision to invite Abah for dinner. Takut plak everything didn't turn out okay so tak berani nak invite ramai2. Next time, we'll make it proper and insyaAllah will ajak everyone. :-)

On a different story, I can't help but notice this one gentleman - who's also a boss in another department - giving me a cold, silent treatment. I've noticed it for more than 2 months now, and I have this strong hunch that it was because of what my ex-partner (in my ex-department) said in one of the departmental meetings previously. This ex-partner, though a guy, has a tendency to talk bad about people even worse than makcik - makcik.

Maybe he felt that what I did was wrong but it doesn't give him the right to go and spread it all around to everyone, does it now?And this judgmental boss pulak, what has it got to do with him that he decided he had to be cold towards me. Macam saya buat salah kat dia pulak. And being egoistic, I now will look another way whenever I pass by him, just the way he would when he passed me by.

Have to attend a meeting in a few minutes time. Will update more later.

Hey Now Now!

2007-06-22T09:43:00.000+08:00

Today's Friday, and Friday has always been the much anticipated day for me. The reasons were quite obvious if you ask me; firstly tomorrow is cuti day. Secondly, Friday is the day where hubby will be taking a coach to come see me here in KL.

I miss him a lot..I do! *wink*wink*

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Anyway, last couple of days I went to this meeting at somewhere in H*ulu L*angat. It was a technnical plus s*ite meeting attended by us, various consultants and the contractor. Held at one of the park, at the site office.

The meeting started around 3 in the evening, and it finished quite later into the night. As I didn't managed to get the driver to send me there (coz I didn't booked earlier as I forgot that I had a meeting that day..sigh...I'm so senile nowadays!), I had to call a cab to go there in the first place. Thus, when the meeting ended I started to worry as to how I was gonna go back. The area was quite sunyi and bila dah malam tu..of coz it became dark and empty. What's more, it's quite hard to get a cab there. Even if I call the cab service I wasn't sure how long they'd take to arrive there.

The bosses lived nearby, and I didn't really counted on them to send me to at least the nearest commuter station. However, since I didn't had any other choice I did asked help from one of them to send me there. He seemed quite reluctant, and that made me hated my job and the agency even more. I ( can't stop) cursed and cursed all of them, but dalam hati only lah. Even the main c*onsultant was reluctant to drop me off somewhere as they said they only used the highway to go back to their office.

Anyway, this one lady engineer overheard me asking the boss and while I was about to go out of the room she came to say hi. She was new in this project as she'd just joined the company and took over the task from the previous engineer. She was nice. She asked me where I was heading to and when I told her my destination she said it's not that far from hers. She said that her staff is going to drop her of at the commuter station before he headed off to the office so why not follow them. I was so relieved at this point that I quickly nodded my head and smiled as wide as I could.

In the car, I noted that when this lady talked to her staff..kekadang tu ada kluar familiar accent, so I asked her..orang utara kah. And yes, it turned out that she's from AS. We clicked instantly, most probably because she's the type who talks a lot and sooo friendly and nice. I mean if it's left to me..I'd just keep quiet during the whole journey but as she had a lot to ask and tell, her cheerful demeanour sort of rub off on me.

Anyway, most of the time on the train, we were discussing on the challenge of working women nowadays. Especially for women with jobs like ours. How it is that we think it's better for women to actually be a housewife so that she can give full attention to her husband and family, but at the same time the demand of the world today left us with no other choice but to work. Unless if your husband is filthy rich, then that'd be a different story altogether lah.

Cakap punya cakap, we reached KL S*entral in no time at all. There we headed off into our own separate ways. But before we separated, we traded personal phone numbers so that we could keep in touch not only through business. We'll be seeing each other in a month's time as the meeting is done once a month.

I'm glad that I finally made friends with someone I feel comfortable with. At least now I won't be bored out of my wits everytime I attend the meeting. :-)

Pepsi Song

2007-06-22T08:52:00.000+08:00

Hey now now, they'll find you when you're sleeping
they'll reach in and grab what you're dreamin'
cut it up and slip it back in, and I know, and I know, and I know, and I know it

Hey now now, the smallest things are crushing me now
the crush crush crush is so comforting now
did the earth just slam in the sun, and I know, and I know, and I know, and I know it

won't undo their past by walking and talking backwards

Hey now now, we're goin' down down
and we ride the bus there and pay the bus fare
or we find a new reason, a new way of living
and we breathe it in and try to dream again
Hey now now, they'll find you when you're sleeping, now now
they'll reach in and grab what you're dreamin', now now
cut it up and slip it back in and I know, and I know, and I know, and I know it

Hey now now, the smallest things are crushing me now
the crush crush crush is so comforting now
did the earth just slam in the sun, and I know, and I know, and I know, and I know it

won't undo their past by walking and talking backwards

Hey now now, we're goin' down down
and we ride the bus there and pay the bus fare
or we find a new reason, a new way of living
and we breathe it in and try to dream again

p/s : Anybody has the mp3??can please send to my email kah?? :-)

The So-Called Classy Girl...

2007-06-19T14:47:00.000+08:00

In my entire life, I can't seem to run away from people who considered themselves to be of greater class than me and people who loved putting me down.

There's this lady in my current life who - I suspect - thinks that she's better than everyone in terms of looks, style and every other aspects of personal being. She looks okay I guess, but only because she went to such great length to maintain her body. Whenever she started bloating she'd go to slimming centers and such, everytime. I don't mind that she wants to do everything she could to maintain her beauty..maybe that's what her husband expects of her. Maybe that was what made him fell in love with her in the first place. But the thing that I couldn't stand is how she'd put down others - especially me - whenever we got together for a chat.

Recently, one of my favourite past time is to look through various websites, and the entries that usually caught my eyes are the wedding entries.

One day, the lady in question said something to the effect . "Did u have a look at *this particular* photographer's site?Notice tak ada gambar this one GEMOK lady yang tangkap gambar daring daring? Euwwww...that's just so geli. Kalau kurus takpa la". (see how mean she can get sometimes). I noted that when she said this, she managed to make ME feel as if I was the one she was talking about.Don't ask me how, you just have to be there to know it. And she was making such disgusting faces when she said this that I wanted to smack her and shout "Hey! Go look into the mirror and look at your disgusting face with all your skins peeling out. Surely your husband-to-be would be disgusted to kiss your cheeks ekk". Oh well, that was too harsh I know, but dammit. This lady...she thinks worldly of herself. And I can't help but wishing that something would happen to make her realize that she's not THAT good or perfect after all.

I used to love speaking to her. Asking her opinion on matters I thought I wasn't very good at. However, one day another friend of mine expressed her wonder on the reason for me to keep on going to this girl when obviously, she was belittling me. It made me realize then that everytime after I talked to this lady, I'd feel bad about myself. I'd feel like I'm the ugliest, fattest girl there ever is. I'd feel like I'm so uncool compared to everybody else in this world. The way she speaks about things, it'd made people think that she's the grandest one ever alive.

And then I started to see the real picture. I started to see that she's not that grand after all. Of coz she talks as if she wears ONLY good branded clothes and she owns only qualities expensive stuff, and she's the better one among us with a more than a perfect life. But that's because she wanted to make up for things that she wasn't able to achieve. Maybe she got satisfaction by making people THINK that she's better than them, but after I took a good, careful look at her and compare it with myself, I guess there were times that I did better than her, in certain things that is.

The conclusion I made about her is that the girl is so full of herself, she cannot accept the fact that some people has more than her, in certain things. Especially those she looked down on.

Today, she made some other remarks about my wedding day. I only had to laugh when I heard about it, as I saw it as another attempt of her to cover up her jealousy and telling herself that she's better. Haha.

I say good luck little friend. I hope you find happiness with whatever it is that you're trying to achieve. And mean as I am, I still pray that you'll truly find happiness always.

Amin nya weird name..kahkahkah!!

2007-06-16T15:34:00.000+08:00

Your Uncommon Name Is:

Zack Gaylord Crooker

What Very Uncommon Name Should You Have?

2007-06-13T15:16:00.000+08:00

Your Uncommon Name Is:

Divina Delila Swims

What Very Uncommon Name Should You Have?

Ami used to say "All Old Times Are Good Times"..

2007-06-13T10:28:00.000+08:00

Been reading a college girl's blog yesterday, which brought back memories of my own college (university) years.

I still remember the euphoric feeling I felt the day I knew I got accepted into the university...

The thing is, when I received my SPM result, the first thing that came to my mind was "Owww!! I expected something a lil better than this." But after a while, comparing my results to few of my close buddies, I thought that "Hey, I didn't do that BAD after all". The relatives all congratulated me on my result. Eventhough some in the family had done better, but still my result was quite okay during that time.

However, the duration during the penantian (suatu penyeksaan) for the UPU application to get through was about the worst time of my life. Everytime I called, the operator would be saying "Maaf, dukacita dimaklumkan rekod anda tiada dalam sistem" - or something to that effect. Abah was disappointed in me when he himself, just like the rest of the family (myself included) thought that I'd failed to secure a place in any of the local U. He'd be lecturing on and on about how he'd told me to study hard and this was the reason for it. He'd be saying that maybe after this I could go to work at the local factory or something and start to earn my own living. Mak was being a tad more helpful by offering to send me to private college.

I, being a rebellious girl who thought she was being mistreated, of coz would sulk and storm off into THE room, locked up and cried my eyes out after each "torments" from abah. I thought that maybe I should not bother with studies anymore and go to work after all. At these times, the only solace I found was in the company my two best friends, Mickey and Feezah.

Anyway, not long after Mickey got into UiTM (which was earlier than the rest of the gang) I found out that both myself and Feezah got accepted into another local university. I was at my happiest during that time, as I got to prove to all that my result was good enough to be accepted into that university.

Registering into the Matriculation center, I was in awe with the campus life. As I'd never live in a hostel before, I was kinda excited when I found out that I'd be sharing rooms with other girls. And I got to do whatever I pleased whenever I wanted to. The only thing that spoilt it for me was that we had to do every chores by ourselves. But still, I was not to give up my new found freedom over those small matters, would I?

However, not long after, I found that I didn't enjoy the campus life as I thought I would. I missed my friends terribly, and I missed being at home. I missed pinching my little brothers (out of sheer boredom) until they cried, and I missed playing with them. Eventhough Feezah got into the same university, but we rarely saw each other anymore. She was adapting with the new surrounding and new friends more easily than I did. Even Mickey enjoyed her new life in UiTM, and I felt more alone than I'd ever felt in my entire life.

Following this, I started to isolate myself from the rest of the university students. I went back to my grandma's house (at Kelana Jaya) almost every weekend, and sometimes even on weekdays. Poor Yong had to pick me up from campus weekly and bring me back to Toksu's house. There, I felt more at home being with my young cousins, joking around, going to movies and malls and so on.

It was during the matriculation years that I got into a couple of relationships that turned out badly for me.

I feel like I learnt a lot more about life in the 1 and 1/2 years of my matriculation than I did in my former years of living.

Going into main campus, I started to adapt myself to the campus life. I actually found myself enjoying living at the college (Hafsa) and sharing rooms with different people for every semester. Some of my roommates were cool (especially this one Aussie girl), while some annoying. But still, as I always had a compartment to myself..I was able to be alone whenever I felt like it and be with companies when I desired..the whole arrangement suited me nicely.

And it was in my second year here that I got to know this man whom I'd never thought I would be spending the rest of my life with. :-)

I made more friends during my university years than I did in my entire life. Eventhough I found that the friendships with these new friends were not as true as those with my school friends, I learnt to accept whatever that it has to offer.

A few years back, I never thought I'd say this. But whenever we take a stroll (drive actually) around the campus these days (at night usually), I felt a kind of melancholy looking at the peaceful college buildings and the empty classroms. I miss friends who added colours to my life. I miss going to the TV room and watched TV with strangers (other students whom I didn't know). I even miss the Teh ais sold at the college canteen , and I miss my peaceful (beauty) sleep in my purrty purple room.

And now I just can't help admitting it... I MISS MY LIFE IN UIA. ;-)

Diva attitude

2007-06-12T11:02:00.000+08:00

I'm going to write about something a bit sensitive today. It's about racial issues and judgement we passed on other people.

Just the other day, I went to this photo shop to print out our wedding pictures untuk di distributekan to all relatives. There were two young girls behind the counter who - from my first impression - looked like a typical uneducated malay girls. It's not that I have anything against uneducated people. Only that I've had bitter experiences with some of them - NOT ALL - especially ladies. Let's just say that the conclusion I made from those encounters with these people is that they like to speak without using their mind.

And so, here I came into the shop to print the photos. Handing over my USB drive to the girl - let's call her Miss A - I told her that I wanna print those photos. While Miss A plugged it into the port, the other girl - shall we call her Miss B? - with heavy makeup plastered on her face, sitting "demurely" on the metal stool, looked briefly at me and then continued flipping through pages of albums. A minute later, a picture showing Amin and I during the cake cutting ceremony appeared on the screen.

At that precise moment, I heard a voice said out loud "EH! Hitamnya boyfriend diaaa!!!", coming from the demure Miss B. I felt blood rushing to my head at the very moment. Without looking at her, I just give out instructions to Miss A on which pictures to print and how many copies to make.

Dissatisfied with my passiveness, Miss B came over to the counter and asked me "Kakak kahwin ngan I*dia ke?* . I looked at her with a determined look in my eyes and said "Tak". Then she asked "Abis tu mamak ker" and my reply was "Yes. Why?". And then, she was like..."Takla...akak ni cantiiikkk...ermm...ermmm..".

At that moment, aku memang dah hangin sangat la ngan budak ni. "Apsal, TAK BOLE KA????", my voice started to become high-pitched dah. Luckily Miss A interrupted saying that "apala kau ni, dah jodoh orang lagi sibuk nak tanya itu ini". After that Miss B started to question me on the reception, such as "buat kat mana tu"..."nampak macam dewan, mesti mahal kan" and other kind of passing comments. I just gave her that talk to the hand look without answering any of the questions.

From that 10 minutes encounter, I came to the conclusion that Miss B is a poor kampung girl who dreams of marrying a rich, handsome man. Preferably one with a title. Furthermore, being uneducated I think her only way to live up to the dream is to dress up like a diva (in her mind maybe she thought she managed to look like one) and wait for her Prince Charming to come and print his photos there, take one look at her and fall head over heels in love.

Oh, good luck then Miss Diva. May all your dreams come true. If not in this lifetime, maybe the next one. (Kalau tak paham lagi, tunggu kucing bertanduk la maknanya tuuu...)

“You can educate a fool, but you cannot make him think”~
The Talmud Quotes

Here By Me

2007-06-08T12:51:00.000+08:00

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me

‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you

The things I thought you’d never know about me

Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?

Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,

And living without you…

And everything I have in this world

And all that I’ll ever be.

It could all fall down around me.

Just as long as I have you,

Right here by me

I can’t take another day without you

‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own

I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you

And to be back in your arms where I belong

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say

But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away

Inside of your love…

And everything I have in this world

And all that I’ll ever be

It could all fall down around me.

Just as long as I have you,

Right here by me

As the days grow long I see

That time is standing still for me

When you’re not here

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say

Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away

Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world

And all that I’ll ever be

It could all fall down around me

Just as long as I have you,

Right here by me....

The Much Awaited Vacation.

2007-05-31T16:09:00.000+08:00

Until today, I still sigh longingly when I think of our Redang vacation. I can't help but pity people who feels like that place is not worth a visit, simply because of the long and supposedly tiring journey. They simply miss out on the fun and excitement of the island.

I love beaches. Even when we were still dating, I'd always made Amin bring me to the beach in Penang. I'd be contented just sitting around, enjoying the touch of warm breeze against my face and listening to the sound of waves splashing. One of the best thing I like about being at the beach is that all worries are forgotten, everytime. It's guaranteed, at least for me.

Thus, considering the fact that I am an islander myself, I never thought that I could get giddy with pleasure from the simple act of gazing at the sea. Nevertheless, the many many shades of blue and green of the Redang ocean left me wanting for more. I can't help but say this again after hundreds of time, Redang is the Island I'd recommend you to go for a relaxing vacation. The freshness of the air, and the virgin forest and sea was just splendour. Even when everyone else were fast asleep in the ferry on our way to the Island, I had squatted on the seat to look out at the breathtaking scene before me. (I had to squat on the seat as the windows were a tad too high for me..*wink wink*). Amin of coz, was sleeping soundly along with everyone else.

As we arrived earlier than the check-in time, Amin and I decided to stretch out at the beach. One of the very first thing I noticed about the beach is the fineness of the sand, and how pasty white they were. I took off my shoes and my feet simply sink into the sand with much pleasure.

The second day of our stay, we went snorkelling. The boat trip was quite unpleasant, both of us were quiet seasick due to the heavy swaying. But once we got into the cool water and started to swim around and gazed at the beautiful corals and colourful fishes, we kinda forgotten it all. The fishes were quite tamed, swimming around us in that friendly manner. Amin even saw Nemos among those other marine life. Alas, I got tired and wanted to go back to the boat after almost half an hour in the water.

(There was this incident that happened when we were snorkelling, but I'd have to get Amin's permission before I can write about it in here. Hehe..a funny one I tell you. Ayu, I'm sure you would love to hear about it. *wink wink*)

I felt like our 3days 2nights at the island simply wasn't enough. I definitely would love to go back there once the opportunity present itself. *hubby, it's a hint*

Till then, I guess I'd just have to be satisfied with memories of it.

A Wedding Entry...NOT!

2007-05-30T11:51:00.000+08:00

I realized that up until now, I didn't post any entry about my wedding. I got tired of the wedding to tell you the truth, coz that was the MAIN thing that occupied my time like almost a year before the event took place.

Besides, those small numbers of you who read my blog probably attended the wedding, thus I could say that the event speaks for itself la kan.

Anyway, here's some of the pictures I got from my wedding photographer ; most are of the Nikah Ceremony (since I cannot upload the pics here due to server error, I'll just give the link)

http://romantis.fotopages.com Entry title : Baizurah + Amin : Nikah Ceremony.

The Rambling Of A Wife..

2007-05-23T16:35:00.000+08:00

Yes. I'm a married woman now.

How does it make me feel, being married I mean. Well, there are changes but thankfully things are not changing too drastically. Of coz now that we're married, Amin and I has more responsibility toward each other. Every weekend is reserved for him now as we're still living apart - me in KL while Amin in Penang.

The first week of our marriage, I felt as if I was dreaming. The sweetest dream I've ever had in my entire life(yeah yeah! sounds corny I know). I couldn't believed that I was married to this man I've come to know and love for as long as I could remember. Ooopss..a bit exxagerating there, it's actually 6+ years of courting before we finally tied the knot.

As of today, it's been 19 days of our marriage. Everything's still looking and feeling sweet like honey. Still in honeymooning mood la katakan.

Last Friday, I cooked my first complete meal as a wife. The very2 first meal was actually sambal sotong I cooked at mum in-law's which somehow turned into "sotong masak hitam", so that doesn't count la..haha. Anyway, that Friday morning after he arrived, we did our shopping for groceries at the stores near home. Then, I started slicing all the ingredients for chicken curry while Amin clean the chicken. Rajin jugak rupanya suami aku ni.

The next day, after lunch we went out to buy some basic furnitures for the room. I tell you, it was much fun to actually build your life together, from zero. Yeah it was hard, with me having no transportation and he didn't bring his car here, so we had to depend on public transport i.e cab/buses/lrt. But then it makes us closer to each other and people do say that you'd appreciate something when you don't get it easily. Sometimes when our destination is just a few blocks away (15-20 minutes walk) we'd just walk down the street holding hands. Waa I tell you, I feel like a school girl in love! -Yone, if ur reading this I know you'd be laughing like crazy. Hehe...

Being a wife now, the thing that I enjoy most is being able to call him "suami saya" when speaking of him among friends. As a newlywed, I tend to chat a lot about my husband with colleagues and they simply smile and listen to what I've got to say. Newlywed la katakan...

But I'm sure all of those are only a small portion of what marriage life is all about. There'd be ups and downs I know. And I'm determined to go through it all with patience and perseverence to make everything works out okay.

So tata for now!! :-)

Harry Potter...lambatnya nak release!!

2007-04-24T13:04:00.000+08:00

12 more days till the BIG day. I'm feeling nothing. Just sorta floating in the air, not feeling extra happy nor sad.

Relationship with Mr. Fiance..hmmm..just like usual. He's busy with work. I'm busy with work too but trying to ignore the huge amount of papers scattered on my desk.

Feeling extra sleepy today. Feeling useless...just can't wait to go on my leave. TIRED la of work!

:-)

Can't wait to go to Redang!! Just imagine..the sandy white beaches...beautiful corals..colourful fishes...transluscent water....sigh...HEAVEN. Maybe I'd bring my story books along so that I can stretch under the shelter and READ!! Yea!! If only Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows dah release..that'd just complete the whole picture. Sigh lagi...

2007-04-13T16:38:00.000+08:00

Haih...so penat la just lepaking at the office without doing anything fruitful. Makin nak cuti ni makin malaih plak nak buat keja.

This morning two chaps from MPPP came to present their works on recreational programs. It was such an interesting presentation. Even boss saya pun was captivated with what they did to boost the public participations in programs held at various parks in Penang. Yang paling bestnya programs at Youth Park @ Municipal Parks la...baru la saya tahu rupa-rupanya banyak sungguh activities that was held kat park tu. Yang paling dekat will be in August 5th this year, Penang Biathlon. Macam pertandingan kayuh basikal laju-laju sapa sampai dulu dia menang la nih.

The presentation was very refreshing as it was more on public's involvement on various programs. Penat dah asyik dok dengar crita-crita technicals during presentation nih. What's more, their enthusiasm in carrying out their job sorta rub off on me...for just a while lah. ;-)

Ermm...gotta go. Boss's calling...will update more later. Tada!!

The Bachelorette Season 1

2007-04-12T12:07:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday was a memorable one for me. Had my bachelorette party with the girls from Uni. It all started just as a playful suggestion that came out of my big mouth. Then Kayla, Noe and Hernieyonnie sort of went along with my rambling about how pinkish my party is gonna be. And how I'd asked all the married girls (yes, they're included coz many of my friends are married whaaat..) to tell the stories of married life and all.

Then, I smsed Angah asking her opinion on that, and as usual Angah was full with wonderful ideas. Still, I thought it'd be just plans as it's quite hard to gather everyone nowadays : masing-masing bz ler kan ngan families and careers and what not.

Anyway, a week before the party Angah smsed me asking : "so canner? jadi tak ur bachelorette party nih? I'm going to book a hotel room if jadik". So, without much delay I went and ask everyone to confirm whether they'd be able to make it or not..and we ended up with 7 of us agreeing to go.

On Saturday morning, I woke up feeling too lazy to do anything but lying in bed for the rest of the day. But since promises had been made and Ijah had come all the way from JB in the middle of the night, I forced myself to go get ready.

Then around 10.00 pm baru ler we gerak from my house - much to Angah's dismay coz dia dah sampai dah pun kat situ. On the way to Sentul Park we made a stop at KFC as I needed to buy food for all of us to consume. Lapor! Btw, KFC kat situ most of workers dia were mute and deaf. It was amazing to see them at work! Sangat efficient dan aman..

Sampai at Sentul Park/ KL Pac, we walked a bit to find a suitable spot for our makan-makan.

Angah tgh arrange the furnitures, Kayla jadik mandur di situ!

And show ur teeth everyone!!

Cantik kan the view??

Lajuuu lajuuu buaiku lajuuu...aku nak kaweeeennn...ngan anak ...uhuk uhuk! pak yassiiiinnn... hehe

(to be continued)...

La La La La La....

2007-04-12T11:48:00.000+08:00

Lately, Mr. Fiance and I seldom gayut on the phone for hours anymore. We only call each other to say hi and bye. So, I was having fun talking on the phone to Mr. Fiance last night. It was kind of a long conversation we had after such a long time (for the period of more than a month now - like I said we only had short short conversations everyday).

Anyway, Mr. Fiance said this : "Believe it or not, in a couple of weeks time when I'd be going there to take you home, that'd be the last time for you coming back home as a single woman". And it had me go "Ooooooowww! Am I really NOT going to be single ANYMORE?!? Schmuck!"

Haha..

But really..The thought of me going to be a W I F E ..I better be truly prepared.Sheesh. :-)