It's been only 2 days since i last wrote in here...Well, i'd been browsing through some of my friends blogs and most of their 1st entry revolved around how they gotta know and introduced to bloggin'...but me.... i straight on put my entry as if I'd been doing it for years.
Actually I was introduced to BLOG quite some time ago..it's just that I didn't get the chance to use it...coz i saw no point in going to CC just to do the bloggin' thing...I only go to CC if I have something important to do.But now that I'm working and have sooooo many free time, it seems brilliant to fill some of my time with writing down anything that's bugging me,making me happy...or in that case just anything at all....
Hmmm....yesterday I got back from work at around 6:30pm,and damn! i was so tired though God knows i had nothing much to do at the office. I was damn hungry too...so AFTER having my early dinner, i went straight to bed.My 1st intention was to lay down and rest a bit...but when i opened my eyes again it was already 10.30pm...But that didn't really bothered me as it happened quite often since I started working...What really bothered me was this...
Have you ever waking up with an empty feeling in your heart and stomach...Not the emptiness cause by being hungry...but, I dunno...it's just a feeling of being lonely...Yes!That's what I felt waking up last nite...I've been experiencing it for as long as I can remember actually...Especially when I sleep in the evening after Asar...It's a feeling that i dun wanna hafta experience...but when it happens I'd be pondering it over and over...like I'd be mulling over how sad I am that no one seems to understand me(????), of how GOOD it would be to have someone with me right there and not waking up to an empty room (btw,it only happens when i'm all alone)..BUT the thing is, at the time that feeling occured I'd be sort of enjoying it..really.....
There were many times when I found myself enjoying being SAD...enjoy crying and feeling self-pity...well,i guess many of us have the same experience....I wonder...when we feel sad and blaming others for making us so...wishing that we could lead a different life and be happier....do we really wanna be HAPPY or do we enjoy being SAD and feeling discriminated against somuch; that we dun even make the effort to cast away the distressing mood that has been bugging us?Hmmmm...that's something to be think over........