Quote : "Life is interesting!! It will become more interesting when we can share it with someone we love with all our heart.."

My life's not interesting. It sucks big time. If only I could share it with someone I love too... :-( Poor Me!!




A sad song....everytime i listen to it, it made me feel void inside...

I HATE THIS SONG!!


I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it’s wrong to love you
Then my heart just won’t let me be right

Cause I’ve drowned in you
And I won’t pull through
Without you by my side

I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I’m looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you’re so far
Like a distant star
I’m wishing on tonight

I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight




1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.
3. Enjoying a ride down the ocuntry side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say something good about you.
14. Watching the sunset.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Feeling this movement in your body when seeing this "special" someone.
1 7 . Having a great time with your friends.
1 8 . Seeing the one you love happy.
1 9 . Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
20 . Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
21 . Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU"

P/S : Taken from: Yone's blog. U don't mind, do u Yone??..after all good things should be shared kan.hehehe ;-)




Woke up this morning with THAT feeling inside me...Stared at the ceiling. The loneliness hit right in the middle of my heart.

I'm the kind of girl who likes to dream. In my dream, i always was the most important girl in everyone's lives. People need me like they need air. It's a beautiful dream, really.

But when things happened that cause those dreams to shatter, i always get hurt more than before. But i still keep on doing it. Still dreaming...

I wanna feel needed. I wanna be loved unconditionally. I want to be the most important person in someone's life. You know, i could always get all those i wish for in my dreams. Only in dreams, never in reality....

So this morning, when the loneliness hit me..i realized how alone i actually am. Yes, there are thousands of people surrounding me everyday. But i'll never bond with any of them. Because i'm different. Because my heart wants something that no single soul in this world could offer. I'm all alone. And i will have to start accepting the fact, before i could move on with life.

And I know i'll be able do it. Because I'm a tough girl. And tough girls don't need a shoulder to cry on. Tough girls dun need anyone to take care of her. They dun crave for love, dun crave to be loved unconditionally and they dun crave to be needed by anyone. Yes, that's what i'll be. A tough girl...with beautiful dreams...




Owww My Gosh!

I'm darn nervous!

Went to a meeting just now. Was bored and sleepy. Meeting adjourned after half an hour. Was EXTREMELY glad to be back at my place.

Walked into my cubicles happily...Saw an A4 sized envelope on the desk.The small red paper caunght my attention.."P*rlimen : Tindakan Serta-Merta!". Oh SH*T! I hate this!

When one of my colleague was called to "bertugas di P*rlimen" couple of months back, i prayed that the day would never come for me. But now...my time has finally come....Gotta be there in April. LAte April. And I got about two months to worry about it. Damn!

:-(

I'M SUCH A NERVOUS-WRECK!!!

Oh! Did i tell u that i almost cried the other day IN FRONT OF THE BIG BOSS!!And THAT happened because i was damn nervous to see him and asked for something that i thought he wouldn't approved of (and my instinct was correct u know). When he kept on throwing me questions after questions, i just couldn't help it anymore. Air mata pun start la bergenang....And i'm 99% confident that the boss saw it. Gosh that was terribly humiliating! Seriously, i thought that i've outgrown the urge to cry everytime something went wrong,but evidently NOT! *Sigh* I guess what my lil brothers once said to me was true "Kak Yah ni is such a cry-baby laaaa..."

AM I????




Huh?What the heck is that???

If u must know, according to my own direct translation, it means something like "The Goddess of the Ring".In elvish. ;-) So, who's the so-called goddess of the ring? ME, of course! Hahaha..

"One Ring to rule them all One Ring to find them,
One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them ..."

Just so u know, my entry this time has got nothing to do with LOTR. Only that when the idea (for this post) struck me, I was instantly reminded of LOTR coz u know, i used to be obsessed 'bout the movies (hehehe).

Anyway, to start off...let me tell you that my story this time IS about the ONE RING...

Iwas in the weekly meeting this morning @ the ****. It was a long and boring meeting, something that i have to attend almost every week. As usual for me, whenever i got bored my mind will start to create a pleasant mental pictures of...erm,well..anything pleasant to keep me entertained. And while i was daydreaming this morning, my hand -unconsciously- started to twist the gold ring on my finger.

Now, the ring might not catch the attention of another women as it is not a fancy ring with lustrous diamonds. In fact, it's just a plain gold band (cincin belah rotan) with a lil' bit of geometrical design. However, what makes it special is because it was given to me by someone I love when his family came to "risik" me.

The event wasn't picture perfect. In fact, it was a bit higgledy-piggledy (to use Ayu's term) as my family didn't have any experience in organizing such events before. Looking back, even the moment when the ring were slipped into my finger was a bit kelam-kabut and funny (and i know it'll make me smile hugely whenever i look back at it).

But somehow, I love the ring. I LOVE THE RING.

I love it so much. I love the feeling when people look at my finger and congratulate me for being engaged (though i'm not yet enganged, most people thought i was because of the ring). And I love the feeling I get when touching the ring, knowing that out there, there's this guy who loves me with all his heart and wanna make me his goddess.

So you see, that is why I feel that my ring and the ring in LOTR has a similarity. They are both S P E C I A L !




Hey guys...I'm using the old address back!

Too much hassle with the new address lar.Had to notify everyone personally and all that..so i just decided to use the infamous "baizurahidris" address back. Hehehe..No offense Ayu! ;-p




A long, long time ago, a small town girl had a big dream. She wanted to work with a big corporation and work as a LA which she thought was the coolest job ever created on earth. She dreamt and dreamt and dreamt...

Finally one day she was called to report duty with the big "corporation"... YES!! She got the job that she'd been dreaming of all this while! She thought to herself.... "Am i the luckiest girl on earth or what??!"

But now she thinks otherwise...

Why???

Because she no longer has a life..now, everything revolves around work, work and more work!

And what's more unbearable to her...she doesn't get to be near -the love of her life-!

*Sigh*

Anyway guys, dun mind all those rambling up there...the monday blues still wouldn't take it's wing off me.. And by the way, thousand apologies for leaving this blog dusty for quite a few months...Been a lil bit bz..

So here's an update to the development of my life....

• Telahpun selamat dirisik pada 14/01/2006. Perisiknya..siapa lagi kalau bukan "the-one-sharing-this-blog-with-me". ;-)
  

• Insyaalah akan bertunang dalam masa terdekat (the date will be informed later) - Mickey, Ayu, Illis : You guys will have to come to the engagement no matter what!
  

• Got meself a new boss - coolest boss I've ever had!
  

• Thinking of applying to a new job (same position as the current one) in Penang : guys, pray for me!
  

• Financially broke!!
  

• Has gained a few kg since i came to kl..i now look like a hot air balloon floating on the ground! *Sigh*
  

• Still hates my life and hates everyone around me..though when u ask me to specify who exactly do i hate..i can't do it. It's just the HUMAN RACE in general, but no one specifically.
  

Anyway, i guess that's about it. Can't think of any more complaints to lodge here.

Till next time...cheerio!

Ladies...

Here's my new blogspot address. Still the same old blog..only changed address. Just to be a lil bit more discreet of my identity...hehehe...

Anyway,

http://here-with-u.blogspot.com


Regards,

-The New Identity-