I called Amin just a couple of minutes ago. Hearing the rustle of winds against the phone, i was prompted to ask where he was heading to. And apparently, the direction is towards the smoking room.

And suddenly, it made me ponder..

There are two things in life Amin's addicted to. One is cigarette; and I can understand why he's sooo addicted to it (which is due to the addictive substance-nicotine or whatever sh*t it is). The other thing is his FRIENDS....and i can't for the life of me figure out what's so addictive about them. I'm not saying that he's got lousy friends, no i'm not. They're actually kinda cool people but no matter how cool ur friends are, can it reach the point of getting addicted to??.Heck!!Do people actually get addicted to their friends??

Here now. I'm not writing about just one friend of his or a couple of friends in particular. I'm talking bout all of them.

From the first time i got to know Amin, he is very much of the loyal-friend type. Back when he was still in the Uni, his hang-out gang were my brother; Awis and another ex-school mate of mine; Zam. They spent so much time together, people actually dubbed them "The 3 Stooges". I even went out on a date with him acompanied by my brother. And believe it or not, when I started going out with Amin, they vowed that no matter what will happen between Amin and I, they won't let it affect their friendship. That's how close they were..

Then, the university days ended.Everybody went their own ways and lead their own lives. Circle of friends changed...

Started his working days in Penang, he began to get very close to Boy-as we called him. They went everywhere together, shared stories and secrets (hmmm...mesti banyak secret yang share ngn Boy but not with me kan???HumMmpphh!!). They were almost like ants and sugar "Dimana ada semut di situ ada gula"..Never did a day passed by without him mentioning Boy's name to me. And i always teased him bout it.."Pi la kawin ngn Boy tu". He thought i was jealous of Boy, but the truth is i admired their friendship.

Looking at them, i was transferred back to the time when i used to be able to confide EVERYTHING to my best friends. But after going through many painful and ugly experiences, being exposed to people with different kind of manners, i became more and more detached and reserved. I no longer trust people as easily as i used to.....

And that's the price i had to pay for growing up i.e Losing the intimate feelings i used to share with my best girls. Darn..how i wish i could freeze the time when i was still in school. I miss those days terribly, i miss u gurls and i miss our silly jokes. I miss sharing those so-called secrets of those silly high school crushes, i miss daydreaming about the crushes. Heck! I even miss the tingly feeling i got everytime i received letters from one of those crushes-though i dun miss him. (So Amin, dun u dare getting the wrong idea here!I miss the feeling; not the person..okay??)

Having contemplated the subject, i arrived to the conclusion that Yes! indeed, one does get addicted to one's friends. It's only how u handle urselves that determines how addicted u can get to them. Some people might be more introvert than others, thus they'd have a smaller group of intimate friends. Others would need a large circle of friends to keep them happy and content. They're even those who feels like they're happy being with themselves that they don't need any friends to gain blissful lives.

What about me??? I DO need friends and i can't live without them. Only, i'm an introvert kinda person, so i need only a small group of friends to keep me happy. Not that i dun like to make friends, i do. But the point is, i need only be in present of some close friends to keep my day blissful.

And I'm lucky to have a love who's also my BEST friend....Oho! Now i figure out why just talking to Amin about nothing on the phone made me giddy with pleasure. No!Not because he's my love..but because he's my BEST FRIEND!! I'm addicted to you... best friend! :-)