Too many bad and sorrowful things happened to me these past few days...I just wish there'll be no more of those in store for me, at least not in the near future....

The chronicles of the unfortunate events begins a few days back.On Monday to be precise..

Something happened in the afternoon of the 15th August 2005 that made me want to scream until my throat gets raw, but i didn't-of coz- as i was afraid that once i start screaming, i won't be able to stop until only God knows when. So, i resort to crying instead. But it was a very quick one, just shed a few drops of tears (a few "drops"??betoi ka tu?) And then, i started to make plan for revenge.....

There was plan A and plan B, but since i dun have all the resources to carry out plan A, i resort to plan B instead. I couldn't tell here what was the thing happened that made me mad, or what the plans are, as i'm afraid that it could be used against me if those people ever decide to destroy me (wahahaha!Sounds soooo corny eh ;-p)

Anyway, a couple of days after the "unfortunate event", somebody came and explained to me why they do what they did. And i was supposed to believe their so-called logical explanation and just carry on my life like a good, trusting girl they want me to be. But sorry! You messed with the wrong person. I'd never again believe another word out of your mouth even if my life depends on it.

People might think I'm too suspicious and vengeful, but i couldn't just sit there and watch those people taking advantage of my gullibility, could I? Gone were the days when i was trusting and accepting of whatever life dish out for me. Now is the time to fight back and stand for whatever i believe is right for me! Yeah, that's the way girl..(Hahaha macam poyo ja bunyi eh??!)

Anyway, back to the topic..the thing happened made me realize that i need a more stable job and income so as to be able to protect myself from the bad, bad world out there. Thus, the job hunting began......

Though i frequented the jobstreet website on daily basis before, now i start to login to my account religiously, which is to say about 5 times a day. Nowadays, the daily newspaper at home can be found strewn across the hall-my doing!-with me never missing to check out the Star Recruitment pages every night. Registered my name with any Recruitment Consultant i could find online. And i called up friends to do me favours of informing me if there's any JOB VACANCY anywhere that pays higher than what i get paid now..well, can't help it. Today's world is all about money, u need money to do everything...even to get married!!So, eventhough i'm not a very money-minded person, but i still need it in order to support my poor existence in this materialistic world.

And then yesterday afternoon, one of my distant uncle passed away ( innalillahi wainnailai hiraji'un) due to cancer. Too many deaths occuring around me during these few months, takut plak...Ya Allah, panjangkan lah umurku dan kedua ibu bapaku dan keluargaku dalam ketaatan terhadap Mu.Amin!

Anyway, this uncle of mine is called Na Shafie and I wasn't close to him, as we seldom met. But even from our rare encounters, I could tell that he is a very good man, a pious one and down-to-earth. He was so much different from his other siblings, whom are rich, driving flashy cars and wearing flashy clothes. He lived near the mosque at one of the kampung there (i think it's Kampung Dodol but i can't be sure of it), and he frequented the mosque not only for prayers but also to help clean and take care of it. Whenever there were any funeral, he was almost always there to lend a hand to the deceased family. And i was glad that when people talk bout him, there was only good things to be said, Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah for making His servant a man well-loved.

Anyway, as i didn't attend the funeral in the evening (i was working, i couldn't take time off), I followed my mum to the "tahlil" on the same night. We went with one of my uncle and aunt and their small daughter-Farhana of only 3-4 years old. She's a very cute young lady who is a bit pampered by her parents but in a cute sort of way. She's the only daughter in the family (like me!) so i guess that's why all her brothers and parents pay undivided attentions to her.

By the way, as Farhana was the only close cousin of mine attending the tahlil that night, i decided to stick with her so that i won't feel lost among sea of people there. As i was playing with her , this one lady who just came down to the kitchen came to me and asked "Anak ker ni??" Uwwwwaaaaa!!!!! I was like "Tak laaaaa...." and she was like "Oooo muka sama ingatkan anak la" and my mum cut in "Dah sepupu, muka sama la"...

Now, this wasn't the only time people say that we look alike, but never before anybody came straight away and asked me whether she's my daughter. Darn..Amin keeps on telling me "No, u don't, u look just fine to me" when i asked him whether i look like a makcik or not. But i wonder why these people kept on asking me that sorta question, made me feel like plastering a sign across my forehead saying "I'm an unmarried YOUNG LADY with NO DAUGHTER of my own, YET!" *Sigh* Anyway, when i laughingly told my auntie (her mom) about this, she said that it's because Farhana was holding my hands all the time and sticking to my side..scramblng all over me and asking me this and that..Maybe that's why the lady thought she was my daughter. And hey! I gotta admit that it's nothing weird with a 25 year old lady being married and having a kid on her own, so maybe that's why people keep on confusing my STATUS! (Ayat penyedap hati ja tu..muahahaha!)

Back to the present time, tired as i was, i couldn't go to sleep upon arriving home last nite as i had to prepare a few things for the next day (another eventful day, job-hunting in USM). So, ONLY ffter ironing my clothes and preparing the cert I'd need to bring to USM the next day, did i managed to lie down on the bed and praying to God that tomorrow would be a smooth one for me...before dozing off.....

Waking up at 9 o'clock this morning,(I took half-day leave so i managed to have a bit of a lie in) I took my bath and get ready to go to USM. Went out at almost 10 o'clock without taking my breakfast (tak sempat), i hopped on a Mini Bus to Komtar, and then took a cab to USM. At first I wanted to take a bus there, but looking at lanes and lanes of buses there with people lining up the lanes, i changed my mind. I was afraid that i'd take the wrong bus and get lost in the city, thus wasting my precious, hard-to-get time off from work. Thankfully, the cab fare didn't cost me as much as i thought it would.

Upon arriving at the university, i decided to pay a visit to Soraya's office first as i needed to photocopy a few documents. Besides, being a shy girl (hehehe), i was uncomfortable with the idea of going to see someone i've never even heard of before.

Upon setting my feet in the USM International Office, i saw her at the main area entertaining some foreign dude. Waited in the reception area for almost half an hour before she finished with him. Then, did some stuff -isi borang and all - in her office. Everything went well as i hoped it would be until....

Soraya and I went to see the gentleman i was supposed to see for the position of "Pegawai Tadbir". While she was explaining a few things to him, a boy of my age came in. Now here, u might be wondering why i call him a boy instead of a guy or a man. The truth is, his attitude is what made me call him a boy. He was in the process of applying for a job as "Pegawai Tadbir" as well. Upon seeing me there showing my resume to the gentleman, he immediately became impatient and started throwing a series of pitiful yet irritating insult to me. He was like "Apsal nak mintak keja kat USM, pegi la keja kat UIA tu" and "You buat Landscape Architecture ka dulu?Well, saya buat ARCHITECTURE!" with an arrogance look on his face. So what??U think doing Architecture made u any superior than any other people on earth??Heck, if u are any GOOD, why should u worry about the competition coz everyone will have equal opportunity to try their luck, won't they?

Just imagine, how can someone immature, with that kinda attitude take such a big responsibility to enhance the good name big and well-known institutions. If that kind of person is allowed to fill in the position just because he got a cable there, they'll be the downfall of such organization specifically, and the human races generally. I guess that's why my dad never want to help me or any of my siblings to secure any jobs eventhough he got some powerful friends in a few organizations. He wants us to go through the process of self-improvement until we're competent and good enough to be bestowed with such responsibilities.

Hah..this post is too long already..Better stop now.*Sigh* Wish me luck with my job-hunt everyone!