Been reading a college girl's blog yesterday, which brought back memories of my own college (university) years.

I still remember the euphoric feeling I felt the day I knew I got accepted into the university...


The thing is, when I received my SPM result, the first thing that came to my mind was "Owww!! I expected something a lil better than this." But after a while, comparing my results to few of my close buddies, I thought that "Hey, I didn't do that BAD after all". The relatives all congratulated me on my result. Eventhough some in the family had done better, but still my result was quite okay during that time.

However, the duration during the penantian (suatu penyeksaan) for the UPU application to get through was about the worst time of my life. Everytime I called, the operator would be saying "Maaf, dukacita dimaklumkan rekod anda tiada dalam sistem" - or something to that effect. Abah was disappointed in me when he himself, just like the rest of the family (myself included) thought that I'd failed to secure a place in any of the local U. He'd be lecturing on and on about how he'd told me to study hard and this was the reason for it. He'd be saying that maybe after this I could go to work at the local factory or something and start to earn my own living. Mak was being a tad more helpful by offering to send me to private college.

I, being a rebellious girl who thought she was being mistreated, of coz would sulk and storm off into THE room, locked up and cried my eyes out after each "torments" from abah. I thought that maybe I should not bother with studies anymore and go to work after all. At these times, the only solace I found was in the company my two best friends, Mickey and Feezah.

Anyway, not long after Mickey got into UiTM (which was earlier than the rest of the gang) I found out that both myself and Feezah got accepted into another local university. I was at my happiest during that time, as I got to prove to all that my result was good enough to be accepted into that university.

Registering into the Matriculation center, I was in awe with the campus life. As I'd never live in a hostel before, I was kinda excited when I found out that I'd be sharing rooms with other girls. And I got to do whatever I pleased whenever I wanted to. The only thing that spoilt it for me was that we had to do every chores by ourselves. But still, I was not to give up my new found freedom over those small matters, would I?

However, not long after, I found that I didn't enjoy the campus life as I thought I would. I missed my friends terribly, and I missed being at home. I missed pinching my little brothers (out of sheer boredom) until they cried, and I missed playing with them. Eventhough Feezah got into the same university, but we rarely saw each other anymore. She was adapting with the new surrounding and new friends more easily than I did. Even Mickey enjoyed her new life in UiTM, and I felt more alone than I'd ever felt in my entire life.

Following this, I started to isolate myself from the rest of the university students. I went back to my grandma's house (at Kelana Jaya) almost every weekend, and sometimes even on weekdays. Poor Yong had to pick me up from campus weekly and bring me back to Toksu's house. There, I felt more at home being with my young cousins, joking around, going to movies and malls and so on.

It was during the matriculation years that I got into a couple of relationships that turned out badly for me.

I feel like I learnt a lot more about life in the 1 and 1/2 years of my matriculation than I did in my former years of living.

Going into main campus, I started to adapt myself to the campus life. I actually found myself enjoying living at the college (Hafsa) and sharing rooms with different people for every semester. Some of my roommates were cool (especially this one Aussie girl), while some annoying. But still, as I always had a compartment to myself..I was able to be alone whenever I felt like it and be with companies when I desired..the whole arrangement suited me nicely.

And it was in my second year here that I got to know this man whom I'd never thought I would be spending the rest of my life with. :-)

I made more friends during my university years than I did in my entire life. Eventhough I found that the friendships with these new friends were not as true as those with my school friends, I learnt to accept whatever that it has to offer.

A few years back, I never thought I'd say this. But whenever we take a stroll (drive actually) around the campus these days (at night usually), I felt a kind of melancholy looking at the peaceful college buildings and the empty classroms. I miss friends who added colours to my life. I miss going to the TV room and watched TV with strangers (other students whom I didn't know). I even miss the Teh ais sold at the college canteen , and I miss my peaceful (beauty) sleep in my purrty purple room.

And now I just can't help admitting it... I MISS MY LIFE IN UIA. ;-)