The pressure's getting to me.

Everything's going badly. Preparations were made like soooo long ago. But still when the time's near, everything seems to go wrong.

First I got involved in the reshuffling. Meaning that I've gotta learn so many new things within this limited time. And now that I'm taking a long leave, I've got to cram all these preparations for new projects to take off within a month's time. Before I go on my leave that is. And I tell u...there are gonna be like thousands of projects to prepare! (erk..sorry...exxageration terlebih kat situ).

Secondly, I just can't take it that time-time nak dekat sangat dah ngan my wedding ni, banyak pulak things yang nak change and not going according to my plan. Sometimes I get so fed-up with having to decide and think of simple simple things that people shoved in my way. I mean, I like making my decision early and MADE IT CLEAR to everyone that's the way I want it to be. Then, there'll be many opinions thrown in by different people. Ironically, there are just that. Opinions. Without any suggestion or backup plan or anything. Which means that yours truly will have to device a new plan to replace the one who'd been shot down by many negative opinions and remarks. And the process will go on and on until I decide to just ignore that detail part of the wedding and just let it be.

Marrying is suppose to be easy. It's a good deed to do.

However, people are making it so complicated for a couple to be married that I'm sure when the time is near, many of us just feel like bailing out of it. I know I do. Maybe we should just have a "koboi" wedding. At least then, everyone will be gleeful with the huge opportunity to pass judgement on you..and you on the other hand, wouldn't spent so much money and time and energy only to get criticised and end up being dissatisfied with everything that you spent your precious money on.