Eversince I started going steady with him - which was like 6 years back - I've been depending on my boo for emotional support and also in my daily errands. Whenever something gets too complicated, I somehow knew - or expected - him to solve it for me.

Today I realized how being too independent on someone is not really healthy for you. I also realized that living apart from your loved one can cause an unbearable feeling of distress whenever you look at other people being happily together.

There's this situation that I'm in. I'm supposed to go to the northern state for a site visit and the flight to this country is only available early in the morning - say 7.45 am. Not being able to drive, I totally have to depend on public transport - namely the train. The train that I'm supposed to take only started it's service at 6 in the morning, which make it risky for me to depend on it in case I couldn't arrive at the airport in time to check in.

My only other options are whether to sleep at the airport (surau) or take a late night flight and check into a hotel at the country. The trouble with the 2nd option is that how am I suppose to go to the hotel in the middle of the night, in a place which is totally alien to me.

Now I just wish that I have my other half here with me, at least I can bribe him to send me off to the airport at the wee hours.

:-( I'm definitely going to find a new job so that I can be closer to him.