I'm Back on My Feet!!
9:35 AM
This entry is for all the beautiful girls out there...no matter where you are...dun let what other people say about u bring u down...u r beautiful and will always be...coz..."beauty lies in the eye of the beholder"...
...."Picture this, you're in the ballroom, and prince charming is right across the room from you. You had spent so much time agonizing over what to wear, what to say, over if your smile is sweet enough and if your behavior and manners are as good as you always wanted them to be.. in fact, to your ownself, you feel you've done your best, but behold! In comes Cinderella, dashing all your hopes of even being in the limelight for just a second. Then, you just slide back into the crowd, into all the unknown faces because you know, you're not really good enough anyway. You realize, though you pored over all the small details, you will never be good enough for anything. All those preparation were really done, because that's what was expected of you not because you thought you could be considered SPECIAL.. maybe fairly good, but not SPECIAL!"...
The writing above is a piece taken from a very long blog entry done by my friend Ayu....yeah...I'm sure many of us have had our own share of those pitiful moments ...INCLUDING ME!
I mean...of coz i didn't experience the exact thing as above, but all throughout life...i'd been trying hard to be someone that i wasn't just so that i can make people love me...and yes! I did try to be more feminine and spent so much time agonizing over what to wear, what to say, wondering if my behavior and manners are as sweet as my bf (ex) wanted it to be..just so that he'd be proud of me and so that he'd love me back the way i did him.And to those who'd never experience this kind of thing....THOSE WERE THE WORST MOMENTS IN MY LIFE...EVER!!!And to think that i THOUGHT it was true love...man!!How wrong did i turned out to be.. I wasn't happy even for a second of my life with that guy...but what made me hang on to him, i couldn't really say...coz me myself still couldn't figure it out....
But i suspect it was the image of Prince Charming potrayed by him that made me do whatever it was that he wanted me to...and made me went all out to please him.... Or maybe the fact that i loved sooo much to be in a miserable condition, so the relationship suited my demeanor...i guess that's what really made me hold on...you know how psycho i can get sometimes....
Well....now...I'm glad that we're no longer together coz the whole episode was a very tiring one for me. And in the end, i didn't even get what i was striving for in the first place....his unconditional love and undivided attention....
So...this post is for all u lovely gurls out there...We might not be CINDERELLA...we might not win the attention and affection of Prince Charming...but it's definitely because we DESERVED BETTER than Prince Charming....remember, everything happens for a reason....So girls...enjoy....
You can change your life- if you wanna
You can change your clothes- if you wanna
If you change your mind
Well, that's the way it goes
But I'm gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat- cause I wanna
They look good on me
You're never gonna get them back
At least not today, not today, not today'cause
If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away
Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that
I'm gonna be okay
You can say you're bored- if you wanna
You can act real tough- if you wanna
You can say you're torn
But I've heard enough
Thank you... you made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
At least not today, not today, not today 'cause....
If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today 'cause......
~The Urban Factor~
